then this was the hardest thing i ever had to do..
i had to listen and wait for nearly 2 hours while they took blood from Leah and tried to attach a cannula into her hand
it kept slipping out so they had to keep trying again.. and it took 2 nurses to hold her down still
she was screaming so much and there was nothing i could do
![Frown :( :(](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
i was in tears cos all i wanted to do was cuddle her and tell her it would all be over soon
![Frown :( :(](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
so she was left with bruises on both feet and both hands where they had been sticking needles in her
![Frown :( :(](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
and they finally got the cannula into her hand and its all bandaged up to stop her knocking it out
they gave her back to me at 3am and her eyes were so so red and raw from screaming so much
![Frown :( :(](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
and she fell asleep in my arms until 6am this morning.
it was heartbreaking.. there was nothing i could do and she was screaming
...
she looks so little and vulnerable with her hand all wired up