**** July 2014 Mummies ****

[sammiammiammi]

Morning ladies... Sorry to bring the mood down a bit but I hate my body right now, I'm not sleeping well and woke up to blood on wiping again... Think I'm gonna talk to the doc on the morning as it's really getting me down... Sorry for moaning (again)
Hope your all well XxXxX

 

[Ljay]

To be honest my in laws are buying the buggy and money isn't really a worry but I'd feel so guilty.

We're trying to be really good and save lots because when we go onto SMP I lose something like 75% of my wage. Which is a lot!

Oh Sammi I hope you're okay it must be awful for you. xxx

 

[sammiammiammi]

I'm getting to the point where I really don't want to do anything, see anyone and just curl up in a ball... I'm happy I'm pregnant but all this up and down is really getting me down... I don't think it helps that I've had no explanation as to what's going on down there especially after the disappointment and swiftness of my actual '12week' scan and the I don't care tone after telling the sonographer I'd had bleeding in the week leading up to it... I just want to be able to enjoy being pregnant and at the min I'm just not
Thanks for being here ladies XxXxX

 

[Daley]

Phone your epu Hun, they may be able to give you some advice xxx

 

[sammiammiammi]

My epu is very slow... Especially on a Sunday... Will call tomorrow and talk to them, might be better if I do it through the doctors tho as they know my medical history including anxiety and depression where if I just call epu they are likely to give me the brush off... Why oh why can't pregnancy be straight forward???
How's everyone else doing??? XxXxX

 

[Daley]

Either way Hun, I can refer myself to mine but do what your comfortable with. Will be stalking! Xxx

 

[sammiammiammi]

I can do it either way... Will see how things are in the morning and decide then... I just wanna know why... I did ring epu last Thursday the day before my scan so might just phone them back and explain that even tho I'd told them at my scan I'd been bleeding I was in and out in 5 mins with no explanation or advice or anything... It's just so frustrating when I want to enjoy this and I don't feel I can with all the not knowing what my own body is doing... Not helped by the fact I'm having one of those days where I don't even feel pregnant...
On a slightly happier note I've been looking into getting a gender scan in just over 3 weeks and it's only gonna be £65 for twins... Normally £45 for a singleton so very seriously considering it. XxXxX

 

[Xjodgex]

I would be a bit more restrained if it was the in laws too I think. I think you should get a gender scan, I plan on having as many as possible this fine round, to really make the most of it! I hope you get to the bottom of your bleeding.

 

[sammiammiammi]

We are very seriously considering it and at that price think it's too good an opportunity to miss...
I just hope someone can tell me what's going on. My OH is very positive but I know he's worried about me and what all my worries are doing to me... Fingers crossed I get some answers soon I can't take much more... It's so good having you ladies to turn to XxXxX

 

[Xjodgex]

I know it's crappy but with my last pregnancy I bled all the tune, and no one could ever tell me why! Hope you get some answers though. I'm getting a 3d scan this time xxx

 

[sammiammiammi]

Well that's sort of comforting to know... If they can't tell me they can't tell me I'd just like them to at least investigate why it's happening... Feel like I'm not being listened to which isn't helping my mind set...
The one we've looked at is only a 2d but apparently that's better for sexing anyway?? XxXxX

 

[SarahCourtney]

Aww Sammi, sorry you're having such a shit time of it at the moment
I know what you mean about wanting to curl up in to a ball... I am miserable more than I am happy. I don't feel 'love' for my baby yet and feel so guilty about that... I know I must feel something because when I saw it move on the scan I burst in to tears and felt a massive wave of relief but I just feel so bloody miserable and lazy and can't be bothered 90% of the time to do anything or see anyone.

I also have a history of depression (I have borderline personality disorder which means I am emotionally quite unstable and 'overfeel' everything lol) and feel like I'm just alienating my friends, everything everyone does annoys or upsets me lol and it's just easier to stay home alone with my husband who understands me than to bother socialising with anyone else. Plus I feel sick or exhausted half the time anyway so even when I can go out I don't enjoy it...

Sorry, that was supposed to be a comforting message to you, Sammi hun lol kinda turned in to a rant and a whinge about my sorry existence at the moment lol
I really am so glad I have you girls to talk to about this stuff

 

[sammiammiammi]

Sarah it is a comfort believe me... I am so glad I'm not the only one feeling so crappy and miserable... I've never been big on going out and being massively social as have always been a home girl but after my 2 mc and having no support from those closest to me and slipping into massive depression I left my family my home and everything I had behind and went and got help... Best thing I ever did... Now I'm more of a hermit than ever... My OH has helped a hell of a lot as he understands me better than anyone ever has but I'd still rather stay in than go out... I can do a few hours with people I know but I get pissed off and agitated easily when out of my comfort zone... Right that's enough moaning...
Anyway... I'm currently waiting for my doc to call back...
Fingers crossed we get somewhere... Hope your all good XxXxX

 

[SarahCourtney]

Got my consultant appointment this afternoon... Excited to meet the man heading up my pregnancy and birth team haha x

 

[sammiammiammi]

All the best hun XxXxX

 

[SarahCourtney]

Thanks hun.

Anyone else booking to go to London ExCel baby show in February? We just booked our tickets - bit excited

 

[SarahCourtney]

Worst. Nights. Sleep. EVER!!!

I literally HATE being pregnant. I know, I should be glowing and happy and excited but I am hating every second of it so far I am so miserable!!!!!

 

[sammiammiammi]

Morning hunni I've not been sleeping well for ages... My hips hurt and needing to pee so often what made it awful last night??
I decided I need to go buy a pregnancy pillow so gonna get one in a few days... Hope yours is nothing too bad...
I didn't get to speak to my doctor yesterday... was a stand in who seemed to decide I wasn't worth taking the time to talk to as wasn't actually bleeding yesterday so had about 30 second combo... Have made an appointment with my regular doctor for friday... Let's hope I get somewhere...
Trying to relax as I wanna enjoy NYE and my birthday...
Hope you feel better soon hun. XxXxX

 

[Xjodgex]

I have a pregnancy pillow and it was the best thing I ever got!

 

[SarahCourtney]

I can't sleep with my pregnancy pillow but I do use it for getting comfy on sofa lol I have a body pillow for bed which I've used for years.

Just struggled all night to sleep deeply and my dreams were really boring and annoying and then I had to get up to puke and have diarrhoea and then I couldn't get back to sleep cos my brain was too busy... Just really miserable lol

Staying in tonight after all - just way too tired and low to be around anyone or do anything past about 8pm lol xx