Tri hopping, but just wanted to say I had a similar experience with my daughter.. Long drawn out labour, stuck at 8cm and emergency csec.. She used to fall asleep on my boob and not drink any. I expressed in hospital with their electric pump, but was in so much pain that once I went home I couldn't pick her up and would cry a lot.. Ended up deciding I'd rather be able to hold my baby than breast feed, so I went on cocodamol and switched to formula. I beat myself up about it for a long time, but in the end it was the best thing for us and she thrived. Big hugs and take care. Every day after a csec gets easier, I promise xxx