Oh Sweetie! Just seen this. Feel really really sad for you. What a shitty year its been (sorry for the swearing, I seem to be swearing more than usual at the moment, going through it all as well!).
Just think: when the next one comes he/she is going to get the VERY very best start in life.
I felt like you, I was like, oh feck, I've been drinking, smoking, lifting heavy boxes, I've wrecked it before its started....... then I had a misscarriage. This time I'm not smoking, I'm drinking loads less and I'm going to be much much more careful in the 2WW (I was never careful before because every month I wasnt pregnant and so it was a suprise when i was). You and me both are going to give the next baby the best care possible right from day 1! They will be much stronger....... (mine will need to be at full strength if it is going to cope with have me for a mama! lol)
Deal? xxxxx