happened again

[meb]

hello
when i found out i was pregnant again 2 weeks ago i decided not to tempt fate so i bought no magazines and was determined not to come on the forum.
but last week i started to bleed on and off from thursady to sunday so went to GP and she booked me the earliest appointment at hospital for a scan which is this friday. but since seeing the gp i have bleed heavily and with clots. i am in soo much pain and dont know if i should go to hospital, i know i am only 6 weeks so to some people it wont seem real. my legs are numb with pain and its hurting to walk, im also getting pain in my back but i think that is cos i am a bit constipated (sorry)

My emotions are all over the place, i feel like such a failure and i cant understand what i did wrong, i eat all the right foods, dont drink alcohol or smoke, i was exercising a lot before i was pregnant but cut down to just 3 sessions of low impact as soon as i found out i was pregnant. i know i am old (36) and this is proabaly my bodies way of telling me i have left it to late but it wasnt intentional i waited until i was in the right relationship with the right man before we started ttc 3 years ago. i never fell pregnant until this year and now 2 miscarriages.

sorry just feeling sorry for myself OH is away and i havent told him yet hes not home till friday and i cant talk to any of more freinds (3 of whom are all pregant) and my mum will just be a cow as she is always telling me how useless i am and i work with my dad and cant face telling him yet. i cant take time off work even though i am self employed because i dont have enough trained staff and cant afford to employ any extras to cover me not being here.

oh this has turned into a long ramble sorry just needed to do it.

 

[lauramumof2]

Hiya,
Im so sorry you are alone just now (apart from here, your never alone on here). Your mum sounds like a cow. Sod her.

Friday will be here before you know it.

Im sorry for your loss, it must be very painfull.

 

[Ginnymarie]

Hello
I asked myself why why why after my m/c, it is truly awful
this forum gave me great strength, you are not alone, if you need to chat let me know and I can give you my msm address
take care

 

[tracey 2]

hun, im so sorry to hear this.

Please get yourself checked out hun, especially if your bleeding lots and in lot of pain you need to make sure you have passed everything otherwise it may turn in to an infection, im sorry you dont need to hear this right now but im just thinking of you.

Please dont say sorry for ranting on here, we are all here for you and please say however you feel, you are not too old hun, there are so many reasons for m/c and as well as you can take care of yourself it can happen i know.

I hope your ok hun, please PM me if you want to chat anytime hun

 

[mrs_tommo22]

Im so sorry for your loss and please4 dont apologise for ranting.We are here to support you and as for your job you need to take time off after your MC, its impossble not to.you need to recover emotionally and let your body heal.
Speak t your doctor as this is the 2nd MC you have had

 

[meb]

just wanted to say thanks for your support, i think i was at a really low point when i posted but i have come through it, spoke to hospital and they told me to go in at any time if pain was too bad but as the pain has subsided i am just waiting for my friday appointment now.
spoke to OH on phone and although havent told him yet he has said he might be able to get home today if all train and ferry connections work, i told him to try and make it work. At least then he can come to hospital with me tommorow.

 

[happy-chick]

Keep your chin up hun & be strong, get plenty of rest and take it easy. Good luck on friday will be thinking of you

 

[NIE]

Am thinking of you babes. Look after yourself.

 

[puppylove]

Hello Meb

Im so sorry to hear ur going through this again, i know wot ur going through as ive also had 2 m/c in 6 months, take care

puppy

 

[fynemum]

aw so sorry sweetheart, Lv Yvonne xx