Gender scan Monday - just thrown up!!!

[EmmaN27]

Love the pics Cosmic, the detail in 4D scans are amazing. x

 

[maybe baby]

Aww cool!

Did you get any potty shots?

Xx

 

[cosmicgirl]

Aww cool!

Did you get any potty shots?

Xx

No, oh thought I wouldn't want to see that again so he didn't chose the potty shot x

 

[kra0]

Aww hello little man. Well done cos xxxx

 

[Sarah7]

Lovely pictures Cosmic, such amazing detail. Glad you're feeling a little better now, you're incredibly strong xx

 

[cosmicgirl]

I do feel better today xx

 

[mrz85]

glad ur r feeling better hugs x

 

[Heather_belle]

Glad your feeling better this whole post has been a huge eye opener for me so thank u for being so honest and making me aware of it all. You are a very strong woman. Big hugs xxxx

 

[cosmicgirl]

Thank you so much, I hope that my story has have given people some insight and I really appreciate the support xx

 

[SARAHSTAR]

Well done Cos x

 

[Jayjay027]

So glad ur feeling better Cos. Its only going to get better from here xx

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[cosmicgirl]

So glad ur feeling better Cos. Its only going to get better from here xx

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I think so too x

 

[babyem]

Even with IVF etc, it isn't a guarantee you'll get what you want..

Don't they just implant the female embryos? Sorry I don't know much about it other than what I saw on a tv programme where a woman had it

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They can yeah, but theres no guarantee it will work.. I saw one about a woman in the US, and she had spent thousands on it and it was her last chance. She unfortunately didnt catch the egg so it didnt work. Theres alot more too it than just the embryo, its weeks if not months of daily injections and other stuff.

I've broken down at work, boss has requested a counsellor come over to speak to me this morning. I feel so ashamed of how I'm feeling.
They want to send me home.
Poor oh is so supportive but very worried about my mental state.
I've cancelled my consultant obs appointment and 20 week scan.
Now the hospital is trying to call me, obviously to know what's wrong. I don't answer.
I want to crawl into a hole x

Please rebook your appointments! You need to make sure baby AND you are both healthy! Maybe you could speak to your mw and explain how you feel, so you could come up with a plan of some sort as to how you want to carry on from here?

Thanks everyone, your support has meant the world to me.
I haven't woken up crying today (first time in two days) and I managed some sleep last night.
I managed to talk on the phone to my mum about it without crying, which I think is progress.
I had one of those awful moments this morning where you wake up thinking it was a dream then realise it wasn't.
I think I am ready to look at the pictures today but I'm not sure. That is my next goal if you like.
The next goal I am aiming for next week is to have the strength to rebook my 20 week scan.
One step at a time is helping me.
I feel like I can get out of bed today, I don't feel as hopeless.
Maybe I was chosen to spread awareness of GD to others??? Is that a bit corny??? I do believe everything happens for a reason, although I'm not religious I believed that positive thinking could bring positive events. Now I'm not sure what I believe.

Thank you so much, I understand it's a difficult subject, you've all be so so supportive x

I don't think it's corny, I think it's very true. Strong people are usually those who are tested the most. You have highlighted a very raw and emotional subject that I'm sure many women have to deal with in silence and alone. Hopefully this will allow more women to come forward and admit their feelings, without fear of ridicule or judgement.

I hope you're having a better day today xxx

 

[cosmicgirl]

Thank you babyem, that's very kind. I do feel brighter today, I feel like I can do this, I can be happy again and the cloud is lifting x

 

[babyem]

Thank you babyem, that's very kind. I do feel brighter today, I feel like I can do this, I can be happy again and the cloud is lifting x

Your very welcome, I meant every word.

Im so glad you do! And you CAN do this!!! You'll be the best Mum this LO could ever wish for, you have so much experience with boys!! One day you will look back on all of this and wonder how you could have felt anything but happyness and love for your baby boy xx

 

[cosmicgirl]

I think so too, I really do x

 

[Roo3]

So pleased you are feeling a bit brighter today. I can't begin to imagine how you have been and are feeling. I just want to say how brave I think you are being by sharing your story and by posting the 4d pictures.
Just keep taking one day at a time. xx

 

[cosmicgirl]

Thanks Roo xx

 

[kedi376]

Glad you're feeling a bit better about things today x

 

[cosmicgirl]

I do, thanks kedi xx