Feeling very low today

[babyblonde]

Last night was the first night I was by myself since we lost the baby (spent the night before at my parents).

Hubby worked all night and then had college so he got home at 2.30pm and then went straight to bed. I will literally probably see him for an hour this evening when he surfaces to eat something (which I will have to make) and he will (I guarantee it based on previous experience) be grouchy and just sit infront of some crap on the tv. Then he'll go back to work again and I will have another evening and night by myself.

It's crap - I still feel really tired and crampy so don't really have the energy to do anything or go anywhere, but am getting so miserable just sitting here by myself.

Sorry for the rant - just feel so miserable today

 

[Kittykins]

 

[Snuggle]

Aw hun, is there anyone who can pop round for a cuppa or you can go see? Tell hubby to make his own food as you arent up to anything just yet

 

[babyblonde]

The problem is I'm in one of those moods where if I talk to anyone I will burst into tears, plus everyone is at work.

He said he'd make tea last night and I ended up doing it (he's very good at wandering in when you're just putting it on the plates and saying 'can I do anything to help')!

Joke's on him - I've cracked open the tin of chocolates we'd bought for christmas and I'll be damned if I'm saving him any!

 

[sarah113]

 

[Charlotte_faeriemad]

Firstly . Men deal with the loss so differently than us ladies and it's so difficult for us to understand each other. If I lived near ya I'd come over for a cuppa. I do agree you should tell him to feed himself and if he doesn't then he will get hungry. Sounds a bit harsh but you gotta think of you right now

 

[Tasha20]

Aww hun

 

[babyblonde]

Am in floods of tears now - husband is a shit who thinks that taking one night off work and telling me not to worry about losing this baby cos we can always have another one is 'bending over backwards to support me'.

See post on ttc for details, but basically he went out and bought something he knew I didn't like for tea, made it for himself and then went to bed on top of all the other unhelpful crap this week.

This is the kind of time when you really need to know that your partner puts you above everything else and I am still quite obviously coming a very distant second to his job - which he doesn't like anyway.

 

[A&J]

Lots of hugs coming your way hun!

 

[babyblonde]

Thanks hun - I;m ok now. Yesterday was a real low point but today seems to be better (I've kept busier which has helped - and my lovely Dad took me out for lunch).

xxx

 

[A&J]

Pleased that you are feeling better today

 

[babyblonde]

Thanks hun. As I just said to my mum if I felt any worse than I did yesterday I'd probably be in a padded cell about now!

 

[sam27]

i am so sorry to hear about your loss big hugs to you

sam xx

 

[shezza30]

cheer up babyblonde sometimes men get you like that, mine is really insensitive lately. Sending you loads of hugs you seem a bit perkier today x

 

[babyblonde]

I am SOOOOO much better now - work is so bonkersly busy I have had no time to think about anything else!

 

[trixipaws]

awww, im sorry i missed this yesterday, i hope youre feeling better today