Hi everyone,
Well, last night i got my first AF since the Dand C a month ago. I know i would feel awful but i didnt realise how bad it would be. Its like the final realisation that i am no longer pregnant. I was so hoping that I would fall pregnant again straight away, especiallly cause i ovulated on time and everything, i was so sure it sould happen, silly, i know. These things take time. And im in agony, much worse than the normal period pains that i get. Of course, OH is away again, so noone to talk to about it. not that he has been very understanding lately anyway. He now says that he doesnt want to TTC anymore at the moment, and wants to wait a year or so for us to sort ourselves out better. I know it sounds logical, but the thought of having to wait that long just breaks my heart. Im feeling low anyway, but not having the thought of falling pregnant again soon just makes me feel so so sad, and i cant seem to talk to him about it. Im just praying that maybe he will change his mind. Im sorry, i know some of you have been through so much worse, I feel silly getting so upset of this. Sorry for the long post, I think i just needed to let this all out. Thanks everyone for listening.
Flower. x
Well, last night i got my first AF since the Dand C a month ago. I know i would feel awful but i didnt realise how bad it would be. Its like the final realisation that i am no longer pregnant. I was so hoping that I would fall pregnant again straight away, especiallly cause i ovulated on time and everything, i was so sure it sould happen, silly, i know. These things take time. And im in agony, much worse than the normal period pains that i get. Of course, OH is away again, so noone to talk to about it. not that he has been very understanding lately anyway. He now says that he doesnt want to TTC anymore at the moment, and wants to wait a year or so for us to sort ourselves out better. I know it sounds logical, but the thought of having to wait that long just breaks my heart. Im feeling low anyway, but not having the thought of falling pregnant again soon just makes me feel so so sad, and i cant seem to talk to him about it. Im just praying that maybe he will change his mind. Im sorry, i know some of you have been through so much worse, I feel silly getting so upset of this. Sorry for the long post, I think i just needed to let this all out. Thanks everyone for listening.
Flower. x