Feeling really down about myself :(

[emma_85]

I am probably having one of those days. One of those days where I can't handle the thinking down about myself in my own head anymore and needing to vent! (apologies in advance)

Well, I am obese. When I was at my largest 2 years ago, I had had enough and did a diet (cambridge diet) and lost 8.5 stone Then I fell pregnant However, as soon as my Dr found out I was pregnant I was told to come off the diet and eat. So I did. I'm guessing I've gained 3 to 4 stone due to not following the maintenance plan that was intended and is recommending with the diet (basically slowly increasing the calorie intake)

Anyway... My weight has come back on in the form of 2 rolls. the first one (and largest) below my bust to my belly button. It then goes in and back out again. I thought when I started showing in pregnancy that my belly button would pop out and I'd have a large bump. Yet this has not happened. My rolls have stayed firmly as 2 and just look bigger and bigger as the weeks go on.

Hence I don't look pregnant, I just look very very FAT. I could just cry.

I'm 26 weeks and 5 days, so baby still has more growing to do. I'm dreading the way my stomach will look when I'm full term. I'll be the double of an old wrinkly walrus

It's so embarrassing as obviously everyone (family and friends) all know I'm pregnant so always 'look' in that area I just want to hide away...

Sorry for the low mood post. I really need to get it off my chest

 

[megsmeadow]

Aw hon, I don't think I looked properly pregnant til about 30 weeks, just rolls before then. And I lost my belly button but it never popped out as it was quite well surrounded by fat.

 

[Lau's]

Aww hunny.... i think we have all been there when we just want to get under the covers and stay there.

Try and enjoy your pregnancy as much as you can. Could you start the maintenence eating now and then when you get further along you wont feel like this again?

Chin up x

 

[karenandbump]

Bif hugs hon - it is hard to see weight come on that u have lost but it's not forever and u have lost it once and will totally do it again x x x

 

[Sunnyb]

I feel exactly the same way! I'm 5 ft 4" & when I was pregnant with my first was 12 stone so was overweight but comfortable with myself. Straight after having my son & putting 2 & half stone on I'd lost all my baby weight. Since then I've crept up to 14 stone 8 lbs & went on a local weight management plan thru my doc's & am now pregnant! I know I'm likely to put the same on again as I did with my first pregnancy & hate my fat pregnant looking belly (I'm not even showing yet as I'm only 7 weeks pregnant).
I'm just sticking to my guns & trying to eat sensibly & then I'll get back on track once the baby arrived! It doesn't help me much at the moment. But knowing I'm focused will get me thru as I know my fatness is only a temporary thing!

Try not to get too down & just remember you'll have a beautiful baby to hold soon & you can lose the weight then.

Big hugs to you hun.

Sunnyb xxx

 

[Princess81]

I don't see why you shouldn't be allowed to have done the maintenance programme when pregnant. I did the lipotrim diet which is sort of similar to Cambridge diet. I asked what would happen if I got pregnant and they said I wouldn't be able to do total food replacement but that I could do maintenance. Not much help now hun I know shame your docs said that tho xx

 

[kellylou]

aw hun big hugs, I have always struggled with my weight too and after losing a lot of weight was aware I would put most of it back on during pregnancy which I have but I hate my pregnancy shape and get down about it too, I try to cheer myself up by saying this is temporary and will be back to myself soon and cant wiat to diet!!