Iv been the my OH for nearly two years.He is alot older then me,i won't say old but m 21.Im pregnant with our first baby (33 weeks)
Its a long story but i will try and keep it short.
When I first met him it wa really magical,held my hand and treated me really well.He was really nice and romantic.Then he told me he still lived with his ex.I was a virgin when we met.But i gave him an ultimatum me or her (i wish i didn't now) couple months she moved out and he is now in the process of buying her out.
After that i realised he wasn't who i thought he was.He is messy,doesn't clean up.very boring.We have nothing in common anymore.He has dated younger women,but not as young as me.
He is waaay older then me,old enough tobe my dad and older than my uncle.He doesn't look his age,he is always at the gym.Doesn't have any friends.He works from home,and sits at the computer working (from 11 till 7:30) His cats come first.He believes animals need more help than starving humans because they can't talk.
He has three cats and i don't want them in the same room as the baby.he thinks its okay and they won't d anything to the baby.I can't even sleep in the bed because since i got bigger i can't take the cat hair,plus they walk all over me and my baby bump
So i sleep in the spare bedroom.Its his house so i don't say anything.He even talks to the gils cat and cuddles her more than he cuddles me.He doesn't understand me and i don't understand him.Im prepared to try living at his house.
i live in brimingham and he lives near Ludlow.
So i have been painting the babys room.He does not do manual labour.
I was at Uni and i left the course because it was not for me,soon after i found out i was expecting.We talked about abortion and i said i didn't believe in it.I thought things would get better (I know it sounds horrible,but if i could go back...)
I use his laptop a couple months ago he left his email up.I didn't want to read it,but my last boyfriend was on the net chatting up another girl.
I found out he was talking to a friend about me.saying he wished he had never gone through with the pregnacy and that he was fed up about me moaning about his cats and how he can't go to the gym so much when the baby is born (goes nearly 5 days a week) She told him not to let me use our baby as an excuse.Before that he was on a russian website chatting up girls.He told me he does it to find scammers who try to scam men out of money.I know he use to do it,but i saw the messages.Before that he told his other friend i was very arrogrant.Now he made me my own account on his laptop.
So i told him he can go whenever he wants.I will not ask him where he is going or who he talks to.
I wrote him a six paged letter about how i felt and we talked.Nothing has changed.He will neve change,he is so boring.He tlks about borin things and i just listen,every night its the same.watched tv go to bed fat cat walks on me in the middle of te night.I go in the spare room.
I feel so alone,i sit in my room (at my moms house) and just cry,beause i know deep down i made the biggiest mistake of my life and i can't go back.I have no one to talk to.I sit in silence,when we are together.Tonight we are going out for a meal and il just sit and listen to him and agree and nod
I spend my days just paint and drawing art.I even brought Monopoly game board and begged him to play with me,instead of sitting infront of the tv all the time and have a little fun.he said no.I don't even like going to the cinemas anymore and it used to be my favourite thing.Because i see all the couples around me hugging and cuddling.I have never been so miserbale.
I can't find any women groups to go to.Nothing to do in Ludlow/Shropshire,No younger girls or councilling.
im black and he is white,so people look at me funny and stare around his area.I can' drive so i can escape.But i have decided to buy and leave a cot at my mothers becuase deep down inside i know its not going to work.I have fallen out of love with him and i only see him as a friend.I wish i could have gone back and left i that way.
Sorry my story is long.I will delete if it takes up the board.I just want someone lady friends to talk to.
Thanksxx
Its a long story but i will try and keep it short.
When I first met him it wa really magical,held my hand and treated me really well.He was really nice and romantic.Then he told me he still lived with his ex.I was a virgin when we met.But i gave him an ultimatum me or her (i wish i didn't now) couple months she moved out and he is now in the process of buying her out.
After that i realised he wasn't who i thought he was.He is messy,doesn't clean up.very boring.We have nothing in common anymore.He has dated younger women,but not as young as me.
He is waaay older then me,old enough tobe my dad and older than my uncle.He doesn't look his age,he is always at the gym.Doesn't have any friends.He works from home,and sits at the computer working (from 11 till 7:30) His cats come first.He believes animals need more help than starving humans because they can't talk.
He has three cats and i don't want them in the same room as the baby.he thinks its okay and they won't d anything to the baby.I can't even sleep in the bed because since i got bigger i can't take the cat hair,plus they walk all over me and my baby bump
So i sleep in the spare bedroom.Its his house so i don't say anything.He even talks to the gils cat and cuddles her more than he cuddles me.He doesn't understand me and i don't understand him.Im prepared to try living at his house.i live in brimingham and he lives near Ludlow.
So i have been painting the babys room.He does not do manual labour.
I was at Uni and i left the course because it was not for me,soon after i found out i was expecting.We talked about abortion and i said i didn't believe in it.I thought things would get better (I know it sounds horrible,but if i could go back...)
I use his laptop a couple months ago he left his email up.I didn't want to read it,but my last boyfriend was on the net chatting up another girl.
I found out he was talking to a friend about me.saying he wished he had never gone through with the pregnacy and that he was fed up about me moaning about his cats and how he can't go to the gym so much when the baby is born (goes nearly 5 days a week) She told him not to let me use our baby as an excuse.Before that he was on a russian website chatting up girls.He told me he does it to find scammers who try to scam men out of money.I know he use to do it,but i saw the messages.Before that he told his other friend i was very arrogrant.Now he made me my own account on his laptop.
So i told him he can go whenever he wants.I will not ask him where he is going or who he talks to.
I wrote him a six paged letter about how i felt and we talked.Nothing has changed.He will neve change,he is so boring.He tlks about borin things and i just listen,every night its the same.watched tv go to bed fat cat walks on me in the middle of te night.I go in the spare room.
I feel so alone,i sit in my room (at my moms house) and just cry,beause i know deep down i made the biggiest mistake of my life and i can't go back.I have no one to talk to.I sit in silence,when we are together.Tonight we are going out for a meal and il just sit and listen to him and agree and nod
I spend my days just paint and drawing art.I even brought Monopoly game board and begged him to play with me,instead of sitting infront of the tv all the time and have a little fun.he said no.I don't even like going to the cinemas anymore and it used to be my favourite thing.Because i see all the couples around me hugging and cuddling.I have never been so miserbale.
I can't find any women groups to go to.Nothing to do in Ludlow/Shropshire,No younger girls or councilling.
im black and he is white,so people look at me funny and stare around his area.I can' drive so i can escape.But i have decided to buy and leave a cot at my mothers becuase deep down inside i know its not going to work.I have fallen out of love with him and i only see him as a friend.I wish i could have gone back and left i that way.
Sorry my story is long.I will delete if it takes up the board.I just want someone lady friends to talk to.
Thanksxx
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