Elen, please don't feel that you should pull yourself together and just get on with it. You have just lost your baby and you need to give yourself time to grieve rather than beating yourself up about feeling upset.
I found out on 5th September that we had lost our baby and within a couple of days, I was trying to convince myself that I was OK and that it wasn't such a major thing. I was scared of turning into a bitter woman who can't be happy for anyone else who has babies, and scared that my husband and I would push each other away because of our upset, and ultimately split up. Because of these fears, I was trying to pretend that losing my baby wasn't of great significance and was trying to think positively and look forward without actually dealing with what had happened. It took my friend to tell me off for giving myself such a hard time, to make me realise that it's OK to feel absolutely gutted, and that I need to give myself time rather than trying to force myself to 'get over it' in a few days. I don't think you can begin to feel positive about the future until you have given yourself some time to grieve and come to terms with your loss.
I had an ERPC on 21st September, and then had an infection after but I am now fine physically. Having the ERPC and it all being over physically has helped me to cope emotionally. I think it's impossible to even begin to sort your emotions out whilst you are still going through/getting over the physical aspect of it. 2.5 weeks after the ERPC and I am now doing OK emotionally - I just have to take each day at a time - looking forward just upsets me because I can't help but picture myself being pregnant at things such as Bonfire Night, Xmas or New Year and of then ultimately having our baby in April. For now, I just try to look at the present, each day at a time, rather than looking forward or back.
Don't worry about not feeling positive about TTC - it's hard, if not impossible, to think positive about anything so soon after such a huge loss.
Take care of yourself