sperm donor..... he said im disgusting because after i asked if baby and i could have a couple of hours break from his sisters wedding scheduled when baby was due to be around 4/5 weeks he thought this was out of line as he would need to come back to hotel (baring in mind that day before i would be alone as they all played golf, had spas, went drinking) wedding is at 12- till 2am! i will be breast feeding and exhausted.... so i asked if my sister could attend teh evening, she would drive over not eat or drink and could stay in my hotel room just to help out with nugget... im filth apparently!
His father gave him an ultimatum over me, rung me at 8 months for an argument and has refused to contact or meet me to resolve it - but im imagining it and out of line.
I paid every household bill for 18 months whilst he (barely) studied knowledge (mainly meant watching jeremy kyle and wanking on the internet) and because he stumped up 800 for 2 months whilst i have not been able to work, i paid a 250 knowldege exam bill from my savings, spent hundreds on his family at christmas from my savings, he agreed to get car tax and didnt .. i asked him for the 70 quid back and he accused me of stealing from him and we had a huge bust up.... all the while he had received a tax rebate of almost 2 grand which his dad cashed and his sister hid in her safe for him.
He point blank refuses to work at getting the family back together yet says it my fault and he didnt dump me (because he treated me like shit for months i eventually stormed out he now sells that as me ending things)
I have told him that access must be sustainable, reliable and responsible so that means he cant come every day (as as soon as anything else comes up he will drop his child) he wants entire weekend, which i have said no , he is breast feeding, too young and you have not proven your ability. also why should i not get any weekend fun time with my son considering im gonna have to go back to work early!
Im evil for asking how he can run away , that his baby wont be born recognising his voice ..... its true!
he has provided nothing in terms of baby things,, although he did send a pic of a mini england footie kit... well done mr practical!
he is a fucking prick!!!! im so livid!
He said he didnt know whether he was coming or going... because one minute i said he could be there the next he cant (at birth etc)... he has ignored me for weeks on end, i hear nothing from nanny and grandad of the year (also pricks) despite them knowing how ill i have been, that my gramps was dying, that the pregnancy isnt going to plan etc there are incidences of severe psychological damage being done to other children in the family and no one addresses it... im not having my son destroyed but his messed up family..... they can go get fucked!
That was prob a lot of ranting in a illiterate fashion, i apologise for any chaviness, but im fuming...
breathe in......................... hold................... exhale
now where is that carpet fitter i wanna take out some of this tension! xxx
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