Cycle buddies!

[Clairabelle]

Aah Millie, I can't believe with the amount of lines you have had that you wouldn't be pregnant so try not to worry. I would say your wee was too diluted too and just try again later when you've held it a good few hours. Would it not be better to try in the morning with fmu? xx

 

[millielaura]

Just updated my journal haha will take a while to type out so I'l just post it in here

I phoned the doctors up stressing almost in tears and she said to just stop testing. She said it may be a chemical but usually I would be bleeding. She said if there's no bleeding or bad cramping then just wait and see. She said leave it over the weekend and test on Monday. I think I am gonna do just that and put all the tests away and not do another one till then. I'm honestly on the verge of beyond ridiculous with them. I've done about 30 cheapies in 3 days. What will happen will happen and there's no point me doing all these tests which are just feeding my anxiety, if it's a chemical I'll bleed and then I'll know.

For now I'm going to do as Marissa says and assume everything is fine

She also said my referral won't be affected at this stage so that's reassured me in general. If it is a chemical I will be gutted but at least we will be being referred!

Thanks so much to everyone. Goodness knows what I'd be like if I didn't have this forum lol! I downloaded one of those Andrew Johnson hypnotherapy things- well downloaded a few and oen of them is positive pregnancy so think I'l listen to that to channel the mummy vibes and chill xxx







So that's what I'm gonna do!]xxx

 

[angel6901]

I'm glad you've spoken to the doctor
I think she's given you some really good advice, but if you find its stressing you out too much you may decide to test
Just see how you feel
Big hugs and lots of positive vibes xxxx

 

[millielaura]

Thank you yeah will see how I feel. I have had so many positives though and positive IC's today so I need to stop worrying so much I think.
xxx

 

[angel6901]

It will take a few days for your hormone levels to rise so you should get a strong positive FRER in a few days, and because you didn't hold your wee that long I think this is the reason it was bfn, I just wouldn't want you to stress yourself out too much ....so if u feel you wanted to do a FRER just make sure you use FMU or hold your wee at least 3 hours

Well 3dpo I've got the heavy feeling again today and quite a lot of watery Cm but not ewcm, I'm going to Opk in 5 mins ...I think I've Ovulated but going to check as I'm only CD14 xxx

 

[millielaura]

I think I will hold off till Monday I need to do my disso over the weekend so need to not be obsessiving with lines haha
Also I can drink again! I've been dehydrating myself a bit had one capri sun and a glass of water today but really not drank much in the last few days because I''ve been testing so much lol

Oooh wonder what your opk will be like. Sounds like you've ovd already xx

 

[Clairabelle]

Glad you got some reassurance from the doctor Millie. Just try and chill until Monday when you test again. I'm sure by then you should get a positive on a frer. At least you know that it hasn't affected your referral so that will be a bit of weight off your mind. What will be will be, so there is no use sitting stressing about it and that isn't going to do you any good. The chances are everything will be fine so you will be spending all this time worrying for nothing. just allow yourself to relax and think happy positive thoughts of that new little life growing inside you Big hugs xx

 

[millielaura]

Thanks so much Clairabell

Oh gosh I'm terrible!! I should of known I couldn't last lol just did the other one after a 2.5 hour hold and don't really know what I can see on it maybe something very faint haha thrown it in the bin now and thrown all the other tests I've done in the bin and putting all tests not done yet in a box under my bed so I can't see them when I go to the loo. Did an IC also and that's still quite a clear positive. Hahaha whats wrong with me Its an actual addiction!

That really is it till Monday now haha got it out my system. Will just go for it and do a digi and cheapie on Monday morning and see what happens and go from there.

For now I think all is okay

Looking forward to 3 days of relief from poas hahaha! My head hurts from looking at lines. I've officially gone mad. It must be hormones? I'm not usually this obsessively crazy!

How is everyone else? xxx

 

[Clairabelle]

I think you should put them in a sealed box then into a chest with chains and a lock, go into the woods and bury it in a big deep hole. Maybe that will stop you
Seriously though I think you will feel much better if you take a break for a couple of days and just relax. Glad you are feeling better already xx

 

[angel6901]

Aww Millie
I know it's so hard, I would of done the same, you know you've got positive IC's so try not to worry too much, your tests will get darker just give it a few days xxx

 

[millielaura]

Hahaha yeah I think they do need to be buried under lock and chain.
In the tww when I test early although I've never been as crazy as this, sometimes OH hides my tests so I don't test stupidly early lol once I actually rang him in tears asking where the hell is the test and if you don't tell me now it's over. I'd woke up ready to test and had realised it was gone haha!
I'm just crap with uncertainty!

But yes will be waiting till Monday and using an IC and digi with fmu
I have about 30 positive IC's lol and the kitchen and bathroom sink have had a few tests too and they had completely white bfns! So am trusting the ics ive had evaps on them before but after the time limit not straight away and these lines are as thick as control and evaps never were
Bet you all think I'm off my rocker haha!

xxx

 

[angel6901]

No we don't think your off your rocker..if you are we all must be!!! as we are all poas addicts and once you see that Bfp you just want to test over and over agsin until you know it's real!!! ..We understand as we all are in the same boat!! And I know if and when I get my Bfp I will be testing every hour...and will spend days testing snd line spotting & will spend a fortune on tests lol
I'm currently looking at ordering 50 ic's of amazon haha

My Opk was negative again xxx

 

[millielaura]

Lol the 50 amazon ics are the ones I got hahaha! Theres only about 20 left now and I only got them on Tuesday lmao! Xx

 

[angel6901]

Ooh hope they are lucky for me too!! I'm defo gonna order them now xxx

 

[millielaura]

Yeah get some!

OH said a guy he works with announced their pregnancy today and went to the 12 week scan. I still feel like bawling even though I got my bfp cause its such early days and nothing feels certain with past m/cs and chemicals. And I've just got so used to crying at other peoples announcements. Thought once I got my bfp the feelings of jealousy would go but they defo haven't! OH said he felt the same and said congratulations then walked off to a different room etc and he said he was only feeling okay about it as we got a bfp this week otherwise he said hed find him talking about baby etc at work really hard. Another guy he works with has a young baby. And theres only like 6 of them in total. Really hope all works out with this beany now. Poor OH I'm glad none of my friends have children yet or I'd be a lot worse xxx

 

[hopingforbabyf]

Sorry haven't been on here much lately, struggling a bit at the moment. Doctor rang today and as I expected my bloods came back negative.

Hope everyone is ok, fingers crossed for you Millie and hope the rest of you get your bfps soon.

 

[millielaura]

Oh I'm sorry hopingforbaby . What happens now, will you get given clomid?
Big hugs xxxx

 

[hopingforbabyf]

I don't know, I've to get them done again next cycle then we're back at consultant in 6 weeks. I imagine it will be though.

 

[millielaura]

I'm bleeding I knew it was gonna be a chemical

 

[Emily0505]

Aww hopingforbabyf sorry it's not good news

Millie you are still very early- some women at your stage wouldn't even know they were pregnant! I'm sure come Monday you'll get a lovely positive and see it in words on a digital too! Keep your positive mind set! Listen to Marissa!


Emma, I reckon you have ovved nice and early and fx for a bfp at the end of this.

My opk was pretty much the same as yesterday! Negative but still with a pretty good line on it!! I'm still feeling heavy, achey and uncomfortable in the uterus department! I'm getting fed up of the stupid pee sticks now! Why aren't the lines gone?? Whyyyyyyyyy??

XX