Cycle buddies!

[angel6901]

Morning ladies!!
Hope your all ok, well 3dpo and had really weird heavy pains overnight im CD 14 so going to carry on the Opks just in case I'm wrong, but I'm pretty sure I Ovulated at the weekend when I got the Ewcm and almost positive Opk
It's just so weird as I never ever ovulate so early!!
Emily how are you feeling today? The pains ive been having sound similar to yours, hope it's a good sign for us both

Millie any more symptoms yet? Are you going to test again today? Exciting! !! xxxx

 

[millielaura]

Ahh Emma how confusing! Maybe you ovd early as your bodies making up for oving late last month? Wonder what the heavy pains are!
How are you today Emily? have you worked out the mystery of ov yet?

I'm gonna test with ic's again and buy a frer to do tomorrow fmu . My anxiety is so bad, I am really anxious about chemicals etc but its mainly my anxiety in general thats bad. Tight chested feeling anxious and on verge of a panic attack etc. Think it's just hormones and a build up from me being so anxious/ sitting around yesterday. I felt really quite sick yesterday and ended up just eating two bars of choc and some crisps all day and not much water either so was feeling very dizzy lol. Boobs are sore still but other than that no other symptoms really. Apart from the on/off cramps/twinges.
I'm super nervous today because this is the last day AF could of been due! Will feel a lot better if I get through the day with no bleeding as I'l be officially late tomorrow and will start to believe it more.
I've become a bit neurotic with the ic's haha! Did about 7 yesterday. I think cause the frer wasnt as dakr as id of liked I'm having a hard time believing the cheapies haha so doing loads! I just can't believe it I guess, I really had resigned myself to needing Clomid or something since my cycles where short and my progesterone was low last month! Just want a dark line on a frer so I can relax! Xx

 

[Emily0505]

I didn't do a hpt this morning.

Still feeling heavy and uncomfortable with the occasional left sided twinge- most noticeable when I pee actually! Weird!

Will opk this evening when I get home from work and it better be bloody negative!! If it will insist on having a good line then it had better be because I'm preggers!!

Emma we have had very similar symptoms this cycle so fx it's a good sign for both of us

Millie if peeing on 7 cheapies a day helps you feel better then go for it! I'm sure after today you'll start to relax a bit more as af won't show and your lines should start to darken nicely and then you can do a digi and there'll be no denying it then!!!

XX

 

[millielaura]

Ahhh Emily will be so lovely if you get a positive hpt!!
Looking forward to your opk tonight

Just stuck 4 cheapies in fmu and am happy with their lines!! still not amazing but better than at this time yesterday and both days its been strongest around midday

Xxx

 

[Clairabelle]

Aaargh just typed a long message and my laptop decided to shut down on me. I'll start again lol.

Boo to the anxiety attacks Millie Do you generally suffer from anxiety? I used to a few years back and had a couple of panic attacks. They were awful. I was so scared and actually thought I was dying lol.
I'm sure AF won't arrive for you today and hopefully then you can start to relax. Your lines so far have been great so I definitely don't think you have any reason to worry.

Emma - I read earlier in the thread that you are still bf your little boy. I too am still bf my 19 month old and do worry that she may affect me ovulating even though I get all the signs of ovulation - ewcm and pains/twinges.
Hope this is your month. FX

Emily - FX this is your month too. Yours and Emma's cycles are certainly very similar and wouldn't it be fantastic if you both got your bfp's together
to you both.

AF still hasn't arrived for me. Was due yesterday and allowed myself to get my hopes up a bit. Feeling really crampy and AF'y again this morning though so I'm pretty sure she is going to make an appearance today Think it's going to be a day of running to the loo every 5 mins lol.

 

[millielaura]

Ahhh it's so annoying when you type loads and that happens!
Yeah that's exactly what I have. Generalised anxiety, health anxiety and panic disorder. When I have panic attacks I feel like I'm having a heart attack and dying. Hate them!
How did you get yours to go? I've tried medication but didn't like it and currently waiting for CBT.

Would be great for you to get your bfps together Emma and Emily . Haha all these E's. My real names Emily too but get called Millie by friends etc. Haha good thing or we'd have Emma Emily and Emily hahaha!
Clairabelle I felt really really Afish at the weekend and thought she was defo gonna arrive so you are defo not out xxx i'm still running to loo every 5 mins. Huge fx for you! when are you testing xxxx

 

[Clairabelle]

Have you heard of the website no more panic? http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/

That site really helped me. There's lots of information on it about all different types of anxiety and there are forums too. I think once I realised I wasn't actually dying and didn't have a terrible illness and by reading the forums and seeing that there are loads of people that suffer in one way or another and that all the little ailments (headaches, aches and pains, palpitations etc) are part of the anxiety and not an illness, that all in itself started to make me feel so much better. I also learnt to breathe deeply and relax if I felt an attack coming on. Eventually I just started to think about it less and less until I realised I wasn't having them as much and eventually they just went.
I do still have a touch of health anxiety though. My one is a brain tumour. Every time I get a headache or a fuzzy feeling in my head I'm convinced this is it lol.
CBT is supposed to be really good. I never took meds. The dr prescribed me beta blockers for my palpitations but tbh just reading the side effects from them made my anxiety even worse, one of the side effects being psychosis !! SO I only took them for a couple of days and stopped.

Oh god, good job you call yourself Millie cos that would be really confusing lol

I know what you mean about the AF cramps. My last pregnancy I can remember having them for a good few days and kept thinking I was out so I know I'm still in with a chance. They seem to have eased off again now so FX. I'm not sure when I will test. I don't normally test until I'm at least a week over and the thought of seeing a bfn would depress me too much. By then I usually know I'm pregnant by the little symptoms I get so I might wait until at least next Wednesday. Luckily I am quite a patient person

xx

 

[millielaura]

Have you heard of the website no more panic? http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/

That site really helped me. There's lots of information on it about all different types of anxiety and there are forums too. I think once I realised I wasn't actually dying and didn't have a terrible illness and by reading the forums and seeing that there are loads of people that suffer in one way or another and that all the little ailments (headaches, aches and pains, palpitations etc) are part of the anxiety and not an illness, that all in itself started to make me feel so much better. I also learnt to breathe deeply and relax if I felt an attack coming on. Eventually I just started to think about it less and less until I realised I wasn't having them as much and eventually they just went.
I do still have a touch of health anxiety though. My one is a brain tumour. Every time I get a headache or a fuzzy feeling in my head I'm convinced this is it lol.
CBT is supposed to be really good. I never took meds. The dr prescribed me beta blockers for my palpitations but tbh just reading the side effects from them made my anxiety even worse, one of the side effects being psychosis !! SO I only took them for a couple of days and stopped.

Oh god, good job you call yourself Millie cos that would be really confusing lol

I know what you mean about the AF cramps. My last pregnancy I can remember having them for a good few days and kept thinking I was out so I know I'm still in with a chance. They seem to have eased off again now so FX. I'm not sure when I will test. I don't normally test until I'm at least a week over and the thought of seeing a bfn would depress me too much. By then I usually know I'm pregnant by the little symptoms I get so I might wait until at least next Wednesday. Luckily I am quite a patient person

xx

Ooh I will have a look on it , thank you ! Think I might of come across a couple of posts on it before when googling about panic attacks and symptoms I was getting haha. Sounds really good though. That's great you managed to control them yourself
I've downloaded a couple of phone apps that seem to help recently and a few hypnotherapy relaxation things.
Oh god, I'm like that too. My main one is a heart attack, any chest pain and that's it lol. It's so hard to break because even though it hasn't been that before you always think it could be this time?? My favourite thing to say atm when I'm having a panic attack and thinking I'm having a heart attack and people are reassuring me it's a panic attack is "Just because I have panic attack disorder DOES NOT mean my heart is invincible and I won't have a heart attack - if it did then I wouldn't be bloody panicking." Haha. OH said I should record myself having on and then I'l realise how irrational I can be cause the tiniest thing makes me think I'm dying. So I may try that.
It was beta blockers I had and they where horrid, they did help but they made me feel so lightheaded and spacey that I got anxious anyway!

Oooh I so hope this is it for you, can't wait to see yourbfp!
Lol you are sooo patient. I can't even wait till the day AF due hahha xxxx

 

[Clairabelle]

Haha patience and the fact it would cost me a fortune otherwise lol. Also, might sound silly, but if I am late I would rather have the feeling that I could be pregnant and look out for symptoms, rather than doing a test and getting a bfn and thinking it's all over. I rather like the anticipation of it all if that makes sense
Oh my OH just laughs at me now when I say I think I've got something. If we're watching tv and there's an illness on there, he knows now I'm going to turn to him and say, 'do you think I've got that' so already he's there shaking his head and saying 'no before you ask' lol. It's funny how we obsess over different things. I've never really worried about my heart or a heart attack (unless I get a pain in my chest lol) for me it's always my head and the brain tumour thing. I've told OH when I eventually die of that my head stone is going to say 'I told you so !!!' lol.
Definitely take a look at that site, it is brilliant. When I read the health anxiety section, I was like 'Oh my god, yes that's me, I do that and I say that' lol. Hopefully you will be able to start controlling it yourself too and eventually you will find the attacks lessen.

Oooh sorry guys, I've hijacked your thread and turned it into an anxiety discussion lol. Sorry

 

[millielaura]

Haha yeah I know what you mean, I have the opposite haha hate having the uncertainty lol!!

I'm totally the same about illnesses on tv. I've started to have to turn it off if anything like that is on. I remember watching one of the meet the fockers and the man has a heart attack so I can't watch that now without getting anxious. I drive OH maaad with asking about what symptoms are etcglad it's not just me. I'm always like my chest/head/arm/leg feels funny is this normal??? and he's like (sigh) yessss. And I'm like but what exactly issss it. Hahaha I always say I should of been with a doctor lol!!

Thank you will have a look
Haha it's okay I'd already injected lots of anxiety talk into the thread I think lol!! xx

 

[millielaura]

Oh and think your wise waiting it out.. ive spent SOOO much money on pregnancy tests haha!

 

[angel6901]

Wow got loads to catch up with!
I'm in a busy school today so not having much time come on here

Clairebelle Really hope you get your Bfp hun, all your signs r promising. ..yes I still bf my 2 year old and have been trying to stop unsuccessfully
I am on Clomid as I have pcos but I think bf may be affecting my chances too,
I researched a bit and the information I found is that when exclusively breastfeeding it can effect ovulation but if it's an older child only have a few short feeds it doesn't matter as much,

xxxx

 

[Clairabelle]

Ah thanks Emma
It's so hard to stop the bf isn't it? I say no sometimes but when she's there with her big blue eyes saying 'milk, milk' I cave lol. It's such a comfort for them that it seems nasty to take it away. I'm hoping she will naturally wean herself off, otherwise I may be feeding a 10 year old eventually
Hopefully because she's older she isn't affecting me ov'ing then. She only has short feeds but sometimes she seems to want a feed a lot and during the night still too !!
I've heard good things about clomid so FX for you catching soon. How long have you been on it? xx

 

[angel6901]

My little boy is very clingy and wants 'boobie' as soon as I come home from work and yes it's a comfort thunk, he still wakes up for a night feed occasionally, on a weekend he wants it on and off all day and I sometimes have to say no, it's hard as he sometimes says 'please mummy just one more time' he's almost 3 so need to stop soon

I've been on Clomid 5 months this is my 4th cycle as I didn't take it last cycle
I concived on my 3rd cycle with my LO (17 month TTC) this time I've been TTC 10 months but I've taken Clomid longer this time

.....let's hope we all get our BFP'S and join Millie this month, hope your feeling a little less anxious hunny xxxx

 

[millielaura]

Feeling a little less anxious but still very anxious haha!! Xx

 

[Clairabelle]

Aaaw bless his little heart saying 'please mommy just one more time' How could you not give in after that. I'm sure he'll stop when he's ready. Because he's a little older and understands, could you not try saying it's a special thing now just for bedtime and try and wean him down that way?
I really hope the clomid works for you this cycle and you get that bfp
Would be great for us all to join Millie xx

 

[millielaura]

Okay so now I feel REALLY anxious. Did my FRER after an hour and a half hold and it was BFN
I'm really trying to think positive and just hope it was because I didn't hold for long but it was showing on an IC after an hour hold so should of been a pos frer. Going to test again around 8 after a 5 hour or so hold.
Feel pretty crap now. And big mouthed me told the nurse about getting a BFP and I'm so scared they'll have cancelled my referral letter because of it and now it may be another chemical and I'l still need help from fertility seeing as half my cycles are too short to even conceive :'(
Really trying to think positive, No bleeding and still got sore boobs and feeling sick etc. Just fingers crossed my frers a bfp later and then I'm probs gonna stop testing until my digis next week because I'm driving myself insane lol. xxx

 

[angel6901]

Aww hunny,
Wish to could give you a big hug, I bet your pee was too diluted you've got loads of positive tests so you wouldn't worry, sorry it's a quick reply as I'm still at work

Didn't want to read and run xxx

 

[millielaura]

I'm probs being over dramatic haha ahhh hate all this worry though. Wish I'd just got preg by accident when OH and I where first together and saved all this haha! We were only together about a year before ttc so even if we'd never used protection we still wouldn't of got preg when we wanted to haha!

I just want a really dark line so I can relax for a bit!
xxx

 

[angel6901]

I would if you can do another test tonight just to put your mind at ease, could you get some more FRER s for the morning too xxx