Well girls, Im sure Im being stupid, and I know that there are girls on here whos OH's are away working alot. But my OH has just went to Uni for his final year, thankfully he's still in Northern Ireland about 75 miles each way from me, and he lives down there during the week. But yesterday he was constantly phoning telling me he missed me etc and I miss him loads too, but I kept telling myself that it has to be done. He went out again lastnight with friends, as well as being out on Mon night, and he texts me during the night just telling me he loves me etc.
Anyway I have been really badly hurt in the past and I can be abit paranoid which I accept, but then he phones me today and was telling me how lastnight went etc, and he mentions how theres a crowd of girls who live a few doors down and they were over with his mates lastnight (there are 5 fellas all together in the house) and I asked their names and he was able to tell me there first and second names. And these girls went out with them all. I even checked out on of the girls on fb and shes pretty, whereas Im a fat mess at the minute
and I cant help feeling really paranoid.
Like hes has already admitted that he would rather live down there, and whereas he seemed as emotional as me yesterday about being apart, now he seems to be having the time of his life. Like before he went down he told me he would only be heading out once a week but now theres talk of him heading out tonight as well, eventhough he hasnt bought anything for the baby yet. Like I know hes feeling abit scared about the baby and all, but Im the one that will be looking after it, worrying about money whilst hes at uni drinking with his mates and partying with girls.
Dont get me wrong my OH is one of the nicest, most caring people I have met in my life and he always treats me with the upmost respect and I love him with all my heart. But I cant help but feel Im holding him back from enjoying his final year and letting him live the carefree student life, and I know Im torturing myself with my paranoia. I just keep thinking to myself that I cant do it, but I love him too much to let him go. Hes coming home tomorrow but chances are I wont see him cause it'll be late, then he has a footie thing on Fri night till after 11 so prob wont see him then either, so might only get to see him on Sat, and I cant help think that its just not enough. I know Im prob be silly and selfish but I cant help feeling that Im in this alone. Sorry for this being so long xxx
Anyway I have been really badly hurt in the past and I can be abit paranoid which I accept, but then he phones me today and was telling me how lastnight went etc, and he mentions how theres a crowd of girls who live a few doors down and they were over with his mates lastnight (there are 5 fellas all together in the house) and I asked their names and he was able to tell me there first and second names. And these girls went out with them all. I even checked out on of the girls on fb and shes pretty, whereas Im a fat mess at the minute

Like hes has already admitted that he would rather live down there, and whereas he seemed as emotional as me yesterday about being apart, now he seems to be having the time of his life. Like before he went down he told me he would only be heading out once a week but now theres talk of him heading out tonight as well, eventhough he hasnt bought anything for the baby yet. Like I know hes feeling abit scared about the baby and all, but Im the one that will be looking after it, worrying about money whilst hes at uni drinking with his mates and partying with girls.
Dont get me wrong my OH is one of the nicest, most caring people I have met in my life and he always treats me with the upmost respect and I love him with all my heart. But I cant help but feel Im holding him back from enjoying his final year and letting him live the carefree student life, and I know Im torturing myself with my paranoia. I just keep thinking to myself that I cant do it, but I love him too much to let him go. Hes coming home tomorrow but chances are I wont see him cause it'll be late, then he has a footie thing on Fri night till after 11 so prob wont see him then either, so might only get to see him on Sat, and I cant help think that its just not enough. I know Im prob be silly and selfish but I cant help feeling that Im in this alone. Sorry for this being so long xxx