Really struggling today. Feel very teary. Supposed to be going to the health clinic tomorrow to get Ella weighed but am terrified I will start crying down there in front of everyone. She has been so demanding today - for food, attention, everything. She doesn't settle after feeds anymore. It takes at least two hours to get her settled and by then she wants feeding again. My boobs are killing, my nipples are killing and I don't know how long she'll be asleep for now.