hellywelly
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I know we are all feeling the same but it's just nice to hear other mums are in the same boat! Day nine and I have spent an hour crying this morning.
I feel like I have no right, as although I am having to get up in the night to do feeds Evie isn't a difficult baby and never cries for longer than about 20 mins tops.
I think the feeding issue has massively upset me more than I realise. Evie has never - apart from 20 mins last night - ever breast fed off me. She didn't feed at all for the first 24 hours - she was very jaundiced and mucousy - and then we didn't get brilliant support so never managed it. She has been getting quite a hefty amount of breastmilk as I have been expressing but it is relentless trying to breastfeed which normally ends up with us both upset and frustrated, then giving her a bottle (either breast or formula top up) then pumping myself some more and on top of this having to sterilise all the equipment!
I think I need to set a target and if we haven't managed by a certain point then she will be formula fed, which I think would actually be nicer for both of us as I would be a less stressed, tired mummy and could enjoy her more. But then comes the guilt of not breastfeeding your child, which is upsetting as I would love to breastfeed, it's just we are both really struggling to make it work!
To top it all woke up this morning and my boobs are so sore with red bruise like marks all over them. Is this normal or the start of mastitis? Quite frankly I'm having my 'had enough day' today. My daughter is so gorgeously lovely I could eat her but I think I'd like to get off the bus just for five mins please!!!
I feel like I have no right, as although I am having to get up in the night to do feeds Evie isn't a difficult baby and never cries for longer than about 20 mins tops.
I think the feeding issue has massively upset me more than I realise. Evie has never - apart from 20 mins last night - ever breast fed off me. She didn't feed at all for the first 24 hours - she was very jaundiced and mucousy - and then we didn't get brilliant support so never managed it. She has been getting quite a hefty amount of breastmilk as I have been expressing but it is relentless trying to breastfeed which normally ends up with us both upset and frustrated, then giving her a bottle (either breast or formula top up) then pumping myself some more and on top of this having to sterilise all the equipment!
I think I need to set a target and if we haven't managed by a certain point then she will be formula fed, which I think would actually be nicer for both of us as I would be a less stressed, tired mummy and could enjoy her more. But then comes the guilt of not breastfeeding your child, which is upsetting as I would love to breastfeed, it's just we are both really struggling to make it work!
To top it all woke up this morning and my boobs are so sore with red bruise like marks all over them. Is this normal or the start of mastitis? Quite frankly I'm having my 'had enough day' today. My daughter is so gorgeously lovely I could eat her but I think I'd like to get off the bus just for five mins please!!!