KirstyL
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Hi Guys,
As you may remember from previous posts of mine, I've been having a pretty rubbish time of it, my partner walked out last weekend, saying he could no longer cope with my moodiness and he wanted to be alone.
Well, I've felt down and sad for months and months now, and very unhappy too. Then when I found out I was pregnant, I was happy, but at the same time, not happy enough to lift me out of this mood, so then I felt guilty for feeling unhappy, and started feeling more unhappy I have felt anxious, withdrawn, I get irritable at the slightest thing, and this isn't just since I've been pregnant. I also have an overwhelming fear that I can't cope. I went to the doctors last night and told her how I'm feeling, and she said it sounds like I have antenatal depression, but she is reluctant to put me on anti-depressants as it can be dangerous to baby and can cause miscarriage.
I told my Ex partner this, and he doesn't believe me, he said I don't have depression and I'm using it as an excuse so I don't have to deal with my demons, because I've been like this for months. The doctor did say that depression can go un-noticed for a while, and the person can be increasingly moody and unhappy and not know why, and then something triggers it, and in this case, it was the baby.
My Ex says that he isn't planning on losing the baby, and he wasn't planning on losing me or my daughter either, but that he can't help what has happened just like I can't change what has been said, and it will take him a long time to think about trusting me again but he hopes the day does come when that can happen and that's why hes' been on at me to get counselling, as it's our only hope, but in the meantime he is staying away. I can't deal with that, that isn't helping how I feel at all. I can't go through the next few weeks wondering if he is or isn't coming back, I don't think that's fair to any of us. I personally think he's only doing it so I keep the baby, and then when it gets to a point where I have to keep it, he will leave for good. I feel so guilty about even thinking about Termination, it would be the hardest thing I have ever had to do, but I don't honestly know what to do for the best anymore, I'm so confused
Sorry for the rant guys. x
As you may remember from previous posts of mine, I've been having a pretty rubbish time of it, my partner walked out last weekend, saying he could no longer cope with my moodiness and he wanted to be alone.
Well, I've felt down and sad for months and months now, and very unhappy too. Then when I found out I was pregnant, I was happy, but at the same time, not happy enough to lift me out of this mood, so then I felt guilty for feeling unhappy, and started feeling more unhappy I have felt anxious, withdrawn, I get irritable at the slightest thing, and this isn't just since I've been pregnant. I also have an overwhelming fear that I can't cope. I went to the doctors last night and told her how I'm feeling, and she said it sounds like I have antenatal depression, but she is reluctant to put me on anti-depressants as it can be dangerous to baby and can cause miscarriage.
I told my Ex partner this, and he doesn't believe me, he said I don't have depression and I'm using it as an excuse so I don't have to deal with my demons, because I've been like this for months. The doctor did say that depression can go un-noticed for a while, and the person can be increasingly moody and unhappy and not know why, and then something triggers it, and in this case, it was the baby.
My Ex says that he isn't planning on losing the baby, and he wasn't planning on losing me or my daughter either, but that he can't help what has happened just like I can't change what has been said, and it will take him a long time to think about trusting me again but he hopes the day does come when that can happen and that's why hes' been on at me to get counselling, as it's our only hope, but in the meantime he is staying away. I can't deal with that, that isn't helping how I feel at all. I can't go through the next few weeks wondering if he is or isn't coming back, I don't think that's fair to any of us. I personally think he's only doing it so I keep the baby, and then when it gets to a point where I have to keep it, he will leave for good. I feel so guilty about even thinking about Termination, it would be the hardest thing I have ever had to do, but I don't honestly know what to do for the best anymore, I'm so confused
Sorry for the rant guys. x