And then there were 2 :)

[Spammy]

Hi honey. Sounds like its been a pretty rough weekend. It's awful that your OH is so poorly. Is he on anything for his depression? At least you can have heart to hearts and he doesn't shut you out completely. That has to be a positive. And it sounds like he means to world to you so it must be a worry.

Sending you a big hug x

 

[babyem]

Sounds like a ver tough weekend! Hope you're relaxing having a nice evening
The pictures of Elexis and Elise are GORGEOUS!! so are the biscuits!!
xxx

 

[deedee84]

Ahh thanks ladies! OH is on medication for his depression and anxiety and is also seeing a councillor although he has only had 2 meetings which have been every 2 weeks as the lady who see's him has been on holiday he needs to be seen weekly not fortnightly so i'll be glad when things are back on track as OH does find it helps to talk to her as she understands more than i do, i cant pretend to know how he feels and what not as i dont have what he has, i try to but its hard, all i can do is listen!

As for dad, he keeps saying he's going to leave the loon bag and never does, i dont know whether he thinks he wont find anyone else being as old as he is (although he's not overly old at 53) or he's just scared to kick her out...who knows! He says he doesnt love her and wishes she would find another man etc so i'm at a loss at why he's still with her!

babyem - thanks re the photo's, they are the best i've ever had done and so will be using them in future, Lexi was having an extra miserable day that day but the photographer was awesome and persisted to get the photos we got, she was at ours for a good hour and thanks re the biscuits too i just love baking! We made more yesterday Elise got stuck in and made a multitude of different shapes and sizes haha! Think she's taking one for her teacher too as shes not been well!

Had a lovely day yesterday, the kids were happier, OH was happier, mum came up with my little brother so he could play with Elise for a little while which was nice...until they had gone and i had a mountain of mess to clean up!
Lexi did her usual getting the lip out and crying as soon as mum spoke to her but after a while she was fine, i have no idea why she does that
Lexi also slept quite well again, she fell asleep at roughly 8:30pm, she really did fight it for a while though, dont know why she has got into the habit of fighting sleep! We went to bed at 9:50pm and she woke for a feed at 2;05am then next at 4:15am at 5:40am she woke really bunged up so i popped some nose drops up her nostrills which she wasnt best pleased about, fed her and she slept until 6:40am, the alarm was set for 6:45am anyway so 5 minutes early is fine! Shes yet to have breakfast, think i've been giving her it too soon as shes not been interested in it one bit so thought i'd leave her a little while see if that helps!

Todays plans...going Christmas shopping with mum, shame i cant do any of mine like but will be nice to spend some time with mum anyways and seen as though both Lexi and OH had better days yesterday he can do the honours and watch her while i have mummy daughter time with my ma! So that will be fun as i wont be back in time for dinner so he will have to give Lexi it instead...facing one of his fears?? I think so seen as though he said he doesnt bath/feed/dress Lexi because he's scared to...might do him some good!

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

I m so glad you had a much happier day, it is lovely to have family all around and time for yourselves to.
Hope its a sign of a good week to come.
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Thanks Daisy, it was lovely to spend the majority of the day with mum, helped her with her Christmas shop then she treat us to a late lunch at KFC

Love how easily children are fooled too, i got some glitter yesterday to decorate Elise's Christmas jar for the fayre on Friday and there was a fair bit on the floor, so i said "Oooh look Elise, do you think Santa might have been to collect the presents but got disturbed!" her little face was a picture before turning into sleuth mode and asking if me and dad had been out that day and that it was probably because dad had been in all day so Santa couldnt get them, she was amazed and even when she did notice the glittery jar she didnt even put 2 and 2 together bless

Last night was just a wash out too, i had a headache which painkillers were just not budging so i asked OH if he would mind doing the night feeds, so he said no not a problem so long as i did the first one which ok i didnt mind! Lexi had another evening of fighting sleep and so didnt nod off while 9:20pm, i took her up to bed at 10pm and she woke at 1:45am so i got up, fed her and put her back in her cot! She next woke at 4:10am but i had to wake OH to go into her, he went in, fed her then went straight down stairs for a cig, in the meantime Lexi started whinging again as OH had rushed the feed so i ended up getting up to sort her out she next woke at 5:10am to which i got up as i needed to give her nose drops any way, then she woke again at 5:20am so i made OH get up, within 10 minutes of him getting back into bed Elise started shouting me so i had to get up anyway, and all because her quilt was sidewards Lexi continued to stir so OH got up again, then he started moaning because she wouldnt take a feed (rather than just using his nogging) so again i got up and put her in the moses basket in our room wide awake so i could hold her hand (that usually settles her into going back to sleep) then she lastly woke at 6:30am so i got up, so really there was no point what so ever OH doing feeds because i ended up getting up at those times anyway joke springs to mind, so this morning i'm in a foul mood...if i should of been doing the feeds anyway my mood would of been fine but because i should of been getting a break with not feeling so good and then not getting the break i was hoping for, well thats just made me feel like crying as again, hardly any sleep, i'm wondering whether i will actually ever get any sleep before Lexi's 3rd birthday
Oh OH made me laugh yesterday too when i asked him to do the night feeds "well if you'd of told me earlier i would of had an hours sleep" i was like "yeah because i do that every day dont i!" to which he replied "yeah but i only got 5 hours sleep last night" yeah in a pissing block...at least it wasnt disturbed grrr....MEN!!!!

Todays dentist day...not looking forward to that at all hope he doesnt find any more work to do on my teeth when he does the x ray! Wonder how the cave men managed without dentists!

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

Well they died with absesses in their 20s! Its no comfort when you are feeling nervous or when you are in the chair but it will be over soon and youll have lovely healthy teeth and no worrys for xmas. Good luck , I hate the dentist to.

How sweet Elise on the trail of "santa" It is lovely to see the excitement build in a little girls heart. And great that you can still fool her!

Sorry you had a frustrating night. So many men are just incompetent , its a surprise they ever make it to adulthood - except that their mums and girlfriends look after them. At least you get some yummy teas! Hope you feel better and get a good nap in somehow.

Happy tuesday!
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

is that true Daisy haha if so...poor cave men! But yes once its done i will have lovely teeth for Christmas and tbh if i can do child birth i can bloody well cope with a filling replacing! yeah right who am i trying to fool give me child birth any day over the dentist haha!

I agree re men being incompetent, i think because ive been with OH since he was 20 and me 17 he's been used to getting looked after although you would think with being in the army for a while he would be able to look after himself and have some common sense about him...obviously not though! But yeah at least he can cook hehe!

Doubt i'll manage a nap today like but at least my moods got better, made OH take Elise to school, its far too icy and i have no sensible shoes to wear in conditions like this and i cant afford to buy me any either >.< grrr!!! So on days like today he can do the morning run! Just hope i'm out of the dentist in time to collect Elise from school!

xx

 

[deedee84]

wheres my bed!!! Had a bad night with Lexi last night, i decided that from now on if shes not asleep by 8:30pm, then i will take her upstairs to get her settled for bed so last night we did just that although it was 9:20pm when we went up! She cried in my bed so i put her in her cot and she cried in there, i held her in my arms in the rocking chair to try and get her off but she cried there also so i popped her in her cot and left her for 5 minutes to wear herself out a little, i kept coming back in to try her with a bottle and to rock her but no such luck she just cried, eventually i picked her up and rocked her and she went off, this was at 9:45pm! She woke for a feed at 1:10am and then every hour after ffs, just when i thought we were actually getting into some sort of decent routine! So i'm very tired this morning and i have Elise's Christmas performance to sit through this morning too although shes moaning of feeling sick so going to see how she is in half hour or so, she's eaten breakfast and looks absolutely fine to me so i think she will be going to school!

The dentist wasnt so bad yesterday, the needle hurt more than usual though, i was grimacing as he injected my gum, it was very sore! he replaced the filling and gave me a prescription for some flouride toothpaste for some reason. I couldnt hardly eat my tea as my lip was so numb, felt like i was drooling all the time but at least its done now and the x-ray didnt show up anything significant thank God so back in 6 months...11th June which is 11 days before Lexi's 1st birthday...how mad!

On count down to Elise breaking up from school now, only 8 more school runs to do cant wait to stay in PJ's all day, get snuggled up with my girls and do baking and what not

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

Well done you for making it through the dentist.You can relax now.
Is it the school Christmas play, I love them its so cute watching kids, I especially like when it all goes wrong and theres tantrums or crying or who knows what. I usually end up crying myself because its so cute.

Will make you feel christmasy.

Get some sensible shoes you, I live in my wellies and boots but it is a good excuse to stay in on cold dark mornings!
Heres to pj mornings and cuddles with happy girls.
x Daisy

 

[Daisy2011]

Hey lady, how are you? Not seen you for a while.
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Aaargh how annoying, i just write out everything and my stupid computer decided to turn itself off

Anyway, start again! Elises nativity went well, just one giggle fit from a year 2 girl who was reading out her line lol, bless, Elise sang lovely with the rest of her class who were all stars in the nativity and she gave lots of beautiful smiles too! It was the Christmas Fayre on Friday but it was absolutely howling it down here so OH collected Elise from her class and we all went home to get cosy and have an early tea!

Lexi has been hit and miss with her sleep after the last bad night i wrote about she then had a good night followed by a bad night and last night she woke at 1:50am although she didnt want a feed it was just her blocked nose that was bugging her so i popped her nose drops in and she went back down, she woke at 2:30am for a feed and then again at 3:15am crying but when i picked her up she was red hot, had a right temperature so OH went down for her calpol, she ended up staying in the moses basket last night and was nice and wide awake playing with her feet and babbling away to herself until about 4:15am, needless to say i am bloody well tired this morning, but Lexi seems a little better in herself!

Really hoping OH's benefit and back pay gets sorted before Christmas, kinda banking on it to finish Christmas off so were gonna be stuffed if its not sorted before hand Gonna feel even more tight if we dont manage to get family anything too as dads taking me shopping next Monday or Tuesday for some clothes for Christmas as i am very very short on them! So fingers crossed they pay before the big day!

Really looking forward to Christmas, were doing our big Christmas food and beer shop on Tuesday, mums been saving the morrisons saver stamps for us for Christmas and we have £100 to spend so that'll be nice, cant wait to get me a nice bottle of baileys in...yummy!

Plan for today...zilch, staying in my PJ's while OH cooks us a lovely roast (hopefully hehe) then nice soaks in the bath all round later before settling down for the night with a takeaway if OH wants to share his winnings (£20 but its better than nothing lol)

Happy Sunday!

xx

 

[babyem]

Aww glad the nativity went well!
I hope Elexis starts to have some more settled nights, maybe to do with the teething? Poor baba!!
We've got some baileys, can't wait to crack it open!! x

 

[deedee84]

I think it must be teething apparently thats the cause of her being bunged up through the night and i dont think that helps with her sleep either, kinda proves it anyway as last night she wasnt bunged up and first woke at 2:10am and then 5;05am and then again at 6:25am and shes currently still sleeping, didnt think there was any point getting her up with me and Elise for school, she may as well have some extra sleep if she wants it

Ooh i'm so looking forward to getting my baileys wouldnt mind concocting a few cocktails over xmas too! Ooh and i do love advocaat to make snowballs so i think i might have to get some of that in, love getting my festive bevvi's

Lexi was burning up again last night too, took her temp it was 38.2, apparently they can also get a temp with teething but it wont exceed 38.2 so i've kinda put it down to that as she seems fine otherwise,no coughs, sneezes or runny nose, shes been ok through the night at least.

Well today is the day i go with my brother and his gf to their first scan really honoured they asked me to go with them, so i'm looking forward to that! Got quite a week tbh, it should fly, going shopping with dad either this morning or tomorrow morning for some clothes for me for xmas, big xmas food shop Tuesday, not much on wednesday or thursday although it would be nice to get some money before then and get the rest of the xmas presents and then Friday Elise breaks up for xmas and finishes at 1:30pm so might do something festive, maybe bake or make christmas decorations or something, just to mark the start of the christmas holidays eeek, cant wait!

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

Hi Deedee, Sounds like you've got lots of things planned ahead, hope that the money comes in on time so that you don't have to worry. How did you get on copying the photos you had done,
hope that Elexis starts to cool off a bit and settles down for good Christmas sleeps.
Happy week
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

hey Daisy, ive not been onto the photo's yet, i think that will be a task for after Christmas now OH has been onto ESA today, they have no record of his claim so are calling him back around 4pm as she said if he is due a payment they will try an get it sorted for him this week, hope thats the case, i've stashed a secret £20 in case we end up with no money before xmas, at least i can get family a cheap present a piece, after all its the thought that counts...i'd be happy with socks haha, so i'm sure socks all round will be fine

Todays going so fast, not long since got back from my brother and his gf's scan, she was ever so nervous, shes been told by 2 different spiritualists that she was going to have twin girls, anyway everything went ok, they dated her at 13wk 3 days and we think the spiritualists have just got a tad confused as theres only 1 baby there but they have given her the due date 21st June...Lexi's birthday, so maybe they had visions of 2 girls and the date 21st June was around them and thats where they got twins from as by looking at the baby's nub...i would say its deffo a girl, roll on 7 weeks time when i can see if i am right hope i am...i have a nub reputation to uphold
OH has just gone to collect Elise, gonna have some lovely lamb shanks for tea followed by a long hot soak in the bath and fingers crossed Lexi has another brilliant night for mummy...she didnt wake up while 8:15am this morning, and the lazy mare was back asleep by 9:30am, growth spurt springs to mind seen as though shes done nothing but feed all day!

xx

 

[deedee84]

OH never heard back from ESA so he rang them...cost over £11 on the mobile as he was on hold for so long, eventually got through and and the guy at dwp said the ESA offices were closed and that someone would ring him between 9am and 10am this morning...yeah, we will see! Just need to know if we are going to get anything before Christmas as we literally dont have anything coming in now barring £112 and thats it before Christmas! Grr!

Lexi had such a maungy night last night, she was whinging and crying from 6pm until just after 9 when she finally fell asleep! Gave her calpol, had her on her play mat, on my knee, laid down sat up checked nappy tried bottle, nothing bloody worked, at one point we just had to leave her to cry as nothing we did eased her, after a while i felt awful and picked her back up, we went up to bed at 10pm and she was still a little restless and not fully asleep, so when i put her in her cot she was on the verge of crying so i put the bottle in her mouth and she nodded back off after a few sips, she woke at 1:10am, sat in the rocking chair feeding her and she wouldnt take it, was trying to sit up and crying, so i laid her back in her cot and tried her with the bottle again and she took 1oz and nodded off in there, she then woke at 3:25am so rather than taking her out of the cot i fed her in there, she hardly took any feed and was straight back asleep, just got back into bed and se started crying, she didnt want a bottle or anything so i ended up bringing her into our room, she wouldnt settle in my arms or anything, eventually i put her in her moses basket and she eventually nodded off minus the bottle, every time i put it to her lips she cried! She was then quite restless after that and woke every hour but didnt take much bottle, i think in total through the night she took 6oz shes still asleep now so i've told OH to bring her down once she wakes up, i didnt want to get her up with me and Elise seen as though shes had a bad night! God knows whats up with her, hope we have a better day today!

Also very impressed with Elise's school, got a letter yesterday, they had held a special assembly in aid of the shootings in america and are asking each child to bring in 5p or 10p today to put towards a wreath to send out to the school from our school :') i think thats a beautiful idea and i bet not many schools will be doing that! Even more choked that a certain PF member that i'm friends with on facebook has transferred £2 to my bank as she wants to donate too, goes to show that there are some truly lovely and thoughtful people in this world despite the vast number of lunatics and weirdo's who do pointless horrible shit! i'm donating more than the 10p too, i'm sure they will do something nice with the extra that they receive!

Todays plan...try get in at the doctors this morning for my itchy skin which hasnt bloody gone after the last treatment and then Christmas food shopping this afternoon Elise has her Christmas party today too, shes very excited bless her!

7 more sleeps can you tell i'm excited! lol

xx

 

[deedee84]

yay finally heard something from ESA about OH's claim, were getting a payment on Friday and then every week from then on so at least we know we have got money every week now to live on rather than living from day to day not knowing where the next lot of living expenses is coming from!
We get a bit of money in the bank today so i'm going to get the Christmas cards and then when we get the money Friday i'm going to get a few bits for the family and then i am officially done I can relax and get into the Christmas spirit, especially as today is Elise's last full school day eeek! roll on Friday 1:30pm, pick her up and then were on the final count down to Christmas!

Got the Christmas food shop done yesterday, we thought there were £100 in saver stamps but turns out mum didnt save as much and so we had £70 so we didnt get all the festive drinks and fresh meat, were going to get those Friday, but at least we made a good start Lexi was a little minx as well, she wasnt keen on been in the baby seat in the trolley and ended up getting carried around the supermarket by mum and OH, the look on her face was as if to say "haha, i always get my own way!" lol bugger she is!

Onto last night, she fell asleep at 6pm and woke just after 8, which i really didnt want to happen as she is so hard to get back to sleep when shes gone off early! So at 10;05pm i took us up to bed to try and get her settled for the night, i gently laid her in her cot and kissed her before popping her mobile light show on and then walked out the bedroom, usually she screams the place down after a short while and i struggle to get her to settle and to get her to sleep but last night she watched the light show, whinging a couple of times then talking to herself, after 5 minutes it stops on its own so i was watching the monitor ready to go into her, but to my surprise she fell to sleep all by herself now that is a first...it was too much to ask for a full nights sleep though as she woke at 12:15am, 1:55am, 2:25am, 4am, 4:50am and lastly at 5:50am where she had a small feed and then was wide awake so we got up early! well at least i got one wish at least (for her to just fall to sleep in her cot) as the thought of fighting her to go to sleep was just unthinkable so i was grateful for that!

Well not up to much today, think i'll stash the card money and do that Friday when i finish the xmas presents off, i'm at the docs Friday too for a blood test as my finger nails have ridges across them so they wanna check my iron levels, so Friday its all go...cant wait!

Happy wednesday people...lets get a lotto win hehe!

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

Happy wenesday to you,How annoying that the ESA were so incompetant! I hate the way they make you wait on the phone. Its government policy to make you wait 5 minutes so they can "encourage" you to go to the website which is no use at all. This is why the phones in the jobcentre are the way to go!

It feels good to have a full fridge and lovely things to eat and thats so nice of your mum to give you the money for it. You must be knackered after getting up almost every hour with Elexis , not long now until you are all at home for snuggles on the sofa and the excitement of two little girls.
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Yeah i was knackered lol, hate it when she has a bad night, after the first wake up you just know how the rest of the night will pan out...although i never banked on last nights sleeping pattern...totally and utterly shocked, but in a good way she had another whingy restless evening downstairs, tried everything with her, calpol, anbesol, changed her nappy, offered her the bottle...everything but she was having none of it! I ended up finding some soothing baby sounds on my phone, white noise and such, to see if that would help...and it did, for a short while, anyway, she finally nodded off at 9:10pm which i was so glad about as i was flagging myself, felt utterly knackered and needed sleep so bad! I took her up to bed at 9:25pm and she was zonked, didnt even flinch when i put her down, she woke at 10:35pm, kinda thought "shes woke up quite quickly to say she was fast on" so i expected to be going into her every 1-2 hours, so i fed her and got back into bed, was woken by her stirring and starting to cry...looked at the time, 3:30am she took a while to settle as she kept crying out but didnt want her bottle after a while so i put her light show on and she fell to sleep with that on although i had to go in 2 or 3 times in the space of 5 minutes as she has started trying to roll onto her side and managed to pull her covers up to her face and shoves her face into the covers so i had to keep pulling them away from her face! Anyway, finally got back into bed and was woke by the alarm going off for me to get up for the school run and Lexi was still fast asleep...at 6:45am...she finally woke at 7am! Wow i feel like i've had so much sleep its unreal well done little missy

Today i'm not up to much, taking Elise to school, she finishes at 12:30 today so OH is going to collect her then i have to meet my step mum at her work (asda) to get Lexi's baby walker...mum gave me the money to get it, but you need a debit card to order it from asda and unfortunately i only have a bog standard building society card so my step mum is gonna get it on her card and i'm giving her the cash! What a farce! But then thats me done for today! Tomorrows nice and busy at least eek, then its the weekend then Christmas, think i'm more excited than Elise

Happy Thursday!

xx

 

[Spammy]

Yay well done lexi!!!!! So glad you had a good night. Don't know how you manage with such a small amount of sleep. I'm struggling if Meri wakes up once! Hope she keeps it up for you sweetie.

Have a fab week next week. You deserve a really lovely time. X