And then there were 2 :)

[deedee84]

Well yesterday i got the girls their outfits and made the mince pies and i am actually really really impressed with myself, i'm not a big cook, OH cooks all our meals, i'm more the baker in the house, i have never made pastry or mince pies to that matter but by God they are so delish, the pastry is nice and crunchy...properly impressed May have to make more on Christmas eve for santa as well as some other goodies!

Lexi was still awake by 10pm last night, i was desperately hoping that because she was awake so late that we would have an amazin nights sleep with her, but it wasnt to be! She fell asleep just after 10 and we went up to bed at 10:30pm, she woke for feeds at 11pm, 1am, 3am, 4am, 5am, 6am and stayed awake from 6am until i eventually decided to get up at 7:30 i even put the little bugger in our bed hoping that she would nod off and let me have an extra hours sleep, at one point she was well on her way to the land of nod, bottle in gob...until she filled her nappy and then that just put an end to all my hopes of sleep lol! So were up...just made myself a nice frothy coffee and now i'm going to plonk Leximus in her play thingy (whatever its called lol) make her breakfast and open our advent calendar, we're sharing this year hehe...but next year i think we can safely have one each

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

Oh my god , thats every hour, Poor you. Hope you get some snooze time in this afternoon.

Mince pies sound fab, wheres the photo!!. I cant belive its advent already! mine was a penguin in a christmas hat this morning!
Hope you have a lovely day.
X Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Ohh yes it was quite horrendous having to get up so often, i felt like a walking zombie

Here's a picture of the mince pies


Had a lovely chilled Sunday yesterday, had a lovely dinner of steak, garlic mushrooms with mozzarella on, cheesy mash with spring onions and onion rings along with peppercorn sauce, God sounds like a right concoction haha but it was lovely! Had a lovely soak in the bath then a nice cold glass of WKD and a bolognese burger with cheese and jalapeños in the evening while watching crickley hall which may i add was absolutely fantastic if not very emotional!

Lexi fell to sleep quite early last night, probably making up for the late night the night before, she stirred at 9:30pm for a bottle and we went up to bed at 10pm, she next woke at 12:40am, 3:10am, 4:20am 5:10am, i got back into bed after the 5:10am feed and she woke again at 5:30 so i sent OH into her, she sounded bunged up as she always does lately on a morning so she ended up in the moses basket again, took me a while to get her to sleep but she finally nodded off...for 20 minutes so we were up before the alarm as per usual, jeeze i really cant wait until the little madam is sleeping longer, i could of cried at 5:30 this morning, fed up of getting zero sleep now! The HV is coming out this aft to see how i am so it will be good to talk to her about everything!

Well its nearly bang on 3 week until the fat man arrives enjoying opening my advent calendar every morning and counting down with my over excited little big girl! I cant wait until she breaks up from school...lots of lazy mornings staying in our PJ's until dinner time and wishing the days away until Christmas day cant wait!

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

Mince pies look fab! and your dinner sounds delicious to I'm so jealous ! How did you get on with the HV?
Im glad that you and Elise are getting a bit more happy time together.
x Daisy

 

[babyem]

Awww! but it's all worth it! even when they're tinkers!
Lovely looking mince pies btw! x

 

[deedee84]

The HV visitor went well...for Lexi lol! She was supposed to be coming out to see me but it ended up being all about Lexi which i didnt mind...she asked about her weight appointment and how that had gone and i told her that the paed was happy as her weight and height were in line and that shes just basically a big baby, she was asking about her feeds and i said i've tried getting her to go longer but she still only takes minimal so she told me to go ahead and start weaning (didnt tell her i went against the guidelines and started early anyway) but then i asked if it was 6 months when i could start BLW and she said just to start now...i was so excited...as soon as the HV had gone i made Lexi her first slice of toast:



I was really excited to get started but then as the day went on and tea time came OH and I ended up getting a bit freaked out, she was sucking on some cucumber and i was paranoid that a chunk would come off and go down her throat, i gave her some cheese sticks but they broke up easily so again, mega paranoia that she would choke and then later on she had a banana but again, sucked it like it was her bottle and OH told me to put it in her nuby nibbler but tbh i was paranoid again too thinking she would choke...i'm not used to this, with Elise i just went down the puree route, BLW is supposed to be quite safe so why the hell am i so paranoid :/

Lexi slept fairly well last night night too, she had had a horrid day with teething, was crying a lot of the day (and that anbesol for her gums is amazing stuff works wonders)
She had a small feed at 9:40pm, we went up to bed at 10pm and she woke at 10:50 for a feed so i did actually think we were going to have a crap night as usually her first feed of the night is roughly around 1am...anyway she next woke at 3;05 wowzer i was super impressed, then it was 4:30am, 6:15am and she is currently still sleeping i think all the crying wore her out poor mite!
So heres hoping for a better day with those teeth and a better BLW day too

xxx

 

[Daisy2011]

Thats great news I'd be paranoid to starting solid food, but it does seem like it works im sure that in a few days time when nothing goes wrong youll relax a bit about it. It perfectly natural to be super watchful at first.

Shame that you couldn't talk to her about how you've been feeling though, Its important to talk to someone because your health is important to everyone in your house and its important to look after yourself.

Hope you have a great week. hooray at a few hours sleep to!!
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Thanks Daisy...she's just had toast, usually she just sucks the life out of it but she has just managed to clamp it with her gums then pull it away with her hand ripping a piece off...it was a decent size too and i was scared and thought about taking it out of her mouth but someone said not to do that as it can push the food further back and cause them to choke so i watched...its all i could do...she did the chewing motion for a while...gipped a tiny bit then shabang...gone she didnt do too badly at all...the rest of the toast has been confiscated though as its too tiny now and she would be liable to shove the rest of it into her mouth haha!

I think the little bugger is having a growth spurt again too...yesterday afternoon she took 8 and a half ounce of milk now that IS a first! She fell to sleep at 6:15pm last night and was still snoozing when it was time to go to bed! She did have small feeds at 8:30pm while she was still asleep and then when we went up to bed at 10pm she fidgeted and took a tiny bit too...i was expecting to have a restless night with all that sleep but she did ok, she first woke at 12:50am then it was 3:30am, 5:30am and lastly 7am so she has done really well for sleep...should of gone to bed at 6:30 shouldnt i

This morning i have an inspire morning at school with Elise, basically parents go into school and do art with their child for 2 hours and apparently its Christmas decorations we're making and decorating buns and biscuits so we're really looking forward to it

The girls portraits finally arrive tomorrow cant wait to see them, feel like i've been waiting forever for them! In a bit of a dilemma though as we have one big one of the girls together then 4 separate ones of them on their own that are all different, 2 they have little fairies on their hands and the others they dont but have beautiful smiles instead trouble is, OH's mum as asked for one of Lexi as she doesnt have on and his sister has also asked for one of them both, but tbh i dont wanna give any away! I have actually considered going to max spielman and getting their £5.99 small package done just so i can hand pics out...i'll wait until the portraits arrive...if i fall in love with all of them they can bugger off i'm having them all

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

I think you can go to photo shops and get high quality copies , i recently ordered prints from photos i uploaded to the HP photosite snapfish. They were 8x10 prints at 99p each plus there is a xmas discount of 35% and this basically meant they cost around 89p each delivered. which was great. If you have a scanner!

Parents crafts sounds awesome fun , hope you have a lovely time.
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Ahh that sounds like a plan Daisy, might do that then as these portraits are amazing...i cant wait to see them all airbrushed and finished

The inspire morning at school was fab, it was very busy but we had so much fun, we made a fairy, 2 tree decorations with lots of glitter and mess and a pop up christmas card Elise didnt want me to go home bless her!

Just not long since given Lexi her dinner too...she had C&G fish pie (puree jar) and a prawn cracker to go with it, she absolutely loved the prawn cracker and again managed to get a bit off, had a few gips as it went down but we got there, i swear my heart jumps into my mouth every time she gags but i guess the more she does this the easier it will become...just not so easy on mum panicking all the time! She then had puree'd banana and cookie crumble (jar) absolutely loved that too and had quite a lot of that so shes actually eaten really well this dinner! Not sure what to give her for tea though, were having pasta and i'm not keen on giving her that just yet, think i might get a lumpy jar from the supermarket seen as though OH is collecting Elise from school and making his way up there for a few bits!

EEEk...Thursday cant come quick enough..delivery of portraits between 1-5pm...it will probably be more on the 5pm side seen as though i am so excited! Typical...i dont have patience what so ever haha!

xx

 

[deedee84]

Me and Elise made some chocolate short bread last night...have to say they look quite professional...i shall post some pics at some point...they taste rather yummy too Elise wanted to make some for her teacher as shes been off ill all week, but i have a feeling she wont be there for the rest of the week now an so i think me and Elise can eat a few more hehe!

If Lexi had a growth spurt it was a short one at that, she was back to normal yesterday...20 minute naps and not many at that! She ate well solids wise at least! For her tea she had jarred food of chicken sunday dinner...it was for 7 months up and so had lumps in, think i'm just gonna start her on there jars now so that she can get used to lumps more, she didnt gag once and really enjoyed it, she then had apple and cookie crumble for dessert and then half a rusk to chew on afterwards and boy what a mess she made This morning she's had a few spoons of wheatabix but tbh shes not that interested in eating just yet so i'll wait a little while and try her with something else!

Sleep wasnt too bad last night, she was fighting it so badly at the start, it was like 9pm and she was laid on the sofa whinging and not wanting any bottle so i sat her on my knee, she was happy as larry and then her head started drooping, the eyes were going but she kept quickly popping her head up, trying to fight sleep, in the end i laid her down in my arms and she went straight off, that was at 9:25pm, we went up to bed at 9:45pm, i didnt see any point of putting her down on the sofa so just held her until bed time! She woke for her first feed at 12:15am and then at 3:30, 4:40, 6 and lastly 7am so she did ok thank God

And i know i keep going on, but...its only fricken portrait day eeeek! I'm gonna take pics of them and upload at some point, so excited as is Elise bless her!

OH is doing the school run today, there and back so i'm wishing for snow,but i bet we dont get any not fair, i love the snow, just not so keen once its started to melt and refrozen...its odds on i end up on my bum

xxx

 

[Daisy2011]

Hey lovely , it sounds like you have had a much better week especially with Elise. Lovely to be doing crafts with her at school and making shortbread sounds yummy.
Lexi sounds like shes been doing great this week to which is ace. Hope the photos are all you are wishing for, they will make fab gifts. Looking forward to seeing them
Have a lovely day
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Well i was last on the delivery list for the photo's but they were sooooo worth the wait! I dont have a scanner so later on today i'll take pics of em and put them on for you to see, tried to take pics of em last night but the artificial light made them look dark and discoloured as well as getting too much reflection! So so happy with them though

I do however have photo's of the biccies
Chocolate shortbread with walnuts in...mmmmmm, they are so tasty! So i am going to make mini ones minus the nuts for the school fate next week, we have to fill a jar with something of our choice and i think biscuits make for a good choice

I had an early night last night, Lexi was asleep quite early on so we went up to bed at 9pm, she fed at 11:35pm, 3:20am then woke again at 3:45am and took another ounce, then woke next at 4:30am and finally at 6:35am! So she didnt do too badly at all!

Had a dream too in the early hours that we won the lottery, it was so real and in my dream i was saying "OMG just in time for Christmas too" best bit is i can remember the numbers so they are getting put on this weekend haha!

Happy Friday!

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

I just fancy one of those yummy biscuits with my cuppa, they look awesome, I'd love mini ones in a jar!! . I'm so glad that the pressure has lifted a little bit for you guys and you've been able to do fun things!

Good luck with getting those photos copied, looking forward to seeing them they sound fab.
Happy friday
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Finally got round to taking photo's of the photo's...still not great quality but hey ho what can ya do, here they are anyway





So pleased with em

xx

 

[Spammy]

Oh deedee they are gorgeous! Love the last one especially!

 

[deedee84]

Not having the greatest start to my weekend last night OH brought up Christmas at my dads, he said he'd dreading it as he doesnt feel comfortable at their house as my dads wife makes him feel awkward as if shes looking down on him, i told him he shouldnt feel that way, after all shes a man beating alcoholic who no one actually likes or believes half the time
, anyway we ended up arguing as he just kept going on and on asking how i'd feel if it was the other way around! I told him we wouldnt be there all day and that we go to his mums every year, in the 11 year we have been together we have been to my mums once and my dads once and thats it! Anyway after a while of arguing i told him i was going to bed as i couldnt be arsed to argue and it wasnt fair on Lexi so we went up...but Lexi was wide awake! I laid her in our bed for a while but she wasnt tired one bit, this was at 9:30pm!! As soon as i was upstairs OH was on the phone to his mum i could hear him moaning about dads, then he came up stairs said he wanted to talk so i went back down, he said that he was going to go to his mums for christmas dinner and i was to go to dads as he wouldnt see any of his family over christmas as his dad has only got Christmas day off...ok thats fine...but some christmasses i dont see one or both of my parents, maybe see em for an hour christmas eve to drop presents off and thats it! He them went on to say, that he would take one of the kids with him, i was like "no i arent spending christmas apart from any of my kids" and he said he wasnt either (anyone would think we were in a divorce battle) so i ended up going back up to bed in tears, took Lexi bloody ages to settle, i put her in her cot, she cried, her moses basket, she cried, in my bed, she cried, in the end i held her sat up and rocked side to side until she dropped off and then when i did get her in her cot she kept waking crying every half hour or so, finally got her to sleep at 10:35, she woke for a feed at 11:25, 2:35, 5am and then at 6:40am, she was really bunged up and restless, i on he other hand knackered and banging headache!
Dont know whether i am being unreasonable about the whole christmas thing or what or whether its OH in the wrong, he keeps using his mental illness as an excuse such as "i've had a bad year and going to your dads christmas day will only make me worse" I just dunno what to do for the best! I dont wanna cancel with dad, he's looking forward to having his grandkids christmas day and its the first time we have had dinner there in 9 years!! If OH is adamant he's not going what the hell do i tell dad...do i be nice and say he wont see his dad otherwise and he wants to see his family too or do i just come out and say "ya know what dad, he doesnt like your wife she makes him feel awkward and he doesnt want his christmas spoiling because of her" if we do go to seperate houses i'm gonna feel so alone and people are gonna think...why's Jamie not with her, why she having to deal with both kids its such a mess, and to leave it while last minute, he was fine with going when i asked him while i was pregnant So todays gonna be fun, OH and i not speaking and looks like i have 2 children that arent feeling too well today

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

Oh no! I dont think you are being unreasonable at all, once every nine years is not to much to ask. It just sounds like emotional blackmail especaially if youve already agreed the plans. I would just take the kids to dads. Can his parents invite your dad and step mum over then everyone can be together.
Sorry that you've had such a tough night.

Love the photos especially the one of Elise standing up. Lovely snap shots of where they are now to have forever.

Hope you have a better day today
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Thanks Daisy, getting dad and step mum to OH's parents is a deffo no go, firstly as OH's mum has already got 10 to cater for and secondly because my step sister are also going to dads, luckily me and OH spoke yesterday when he got up and after a heart to heart about how he's feeling with his mental illness and how i'm feeling doing all the work he's agree's to help out more with Lexi and also agree'd to come to dads...but only because he realised its Lexi's first Xmas, so i promised him that we wouldnt stay there all day! My step mum is horrible in drink, she shit stirs, starts arguments and even her own daughters cant put up with her, shes beaten dad up numerous times, he's always coming to mine or my brothers because they have had a do, tbh i'd rather not go to dads, but i'm going for dad, not for her!

Yesterday we went down to my brothers for a few hours, was nice to get out, my brothers fiance is looking rather rough with her pregnancy bless her, sure she thinks its an illness
Elise was extra noisy and irritating yesterday,OH told her off on a few occasions and at bedtime she kept thinking of excuses to come down stairs, then Lexi woke about 8pm screaming, her teeth have been giving her jip for a couple of days now...OH proper snapped and started shouting that he's sick of noise its all he's heard today, i was shocked at his outburst and i told him i didnt know who he was anymore and that i'm scared, not of him, but what he's become because its not like him! Again, another heart to heart, he said he would move back to his mums but i dont think thats the answer, he said he felt like killing himself as we would be better off without him as he's a crap dad and worthless, this is also linked in with his illness, just wish the councillors would return from their holidays and resume weekly meetings instead of every other week ffs! I just want him well again!

In the end Lexi slept quite well, i did end up having to rock her to sleep in my arms as she was very unsettled and teary, she was asleep in my arms from about 9:30pm, i took her up to bed at 10:40pm and she woke for a feed at 12:40am and took a full 5oz bottle! She next woke at 4:30am which amazed me...no wonder i woke feeling like i had loads of sleep she took a good 4oz at that feed too, it went a bit crappy after that waking at 5:30am, 6:30am and lastly 7:45am, so we had a decent night with her!

Elise has had her warning this morning to not thrash daddy's head and if he tells her to stop what ever she is doing wrong she has to do it right away, i explained that daddys not too well so i'm hoping she will listen, i want him to have a nice relaxed day today with no stress!

Tomorrow, i'm going to help mum do her xmas shopping, dont know if its a good idea to take Lexi with me, not that i dont trust OH its just if he cant cope with her for 5 hours or so i cant just come back within minutes, he said he should be ok! So not too sure what to do there! Tuesday its the dreaded dentist, Thursday its Elise's Xmas performance,shes a star bless so at least i have a busy week even if i do have the dentist to break it up a little

Happy Sunday!

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

Oh Dee dee, that's tough sorry that your OH is having a difficult week. It must be very difficult to walk the line between him and kids and not be able to completely trust that he can be kind with the kids. Its great that he has agreed to go to your dads, i'm sure that it means a lot to your dad. You're step mum sound terrible, why does he stay with her?

Hope that you guys have a good day today and that Elise and dad can have something fun to do together.
Good luck
x Daisy