Miss_Marie
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Me and my boyfriend are both 24 and have been together 8 years this December. I have PCOS(Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome) We've not used any contraception for around 6 years. My Sister has PCOS and a healthy weight and she had to have meds etc to conceive. I was told my chances are very very slim. (My own fault but still) I've recently lost 3 stone and I think I'm around 4-8 weeks pregnant. 2 tests, both positive. I suffer depression and anxiety but I'm slowly recovering, especially since the weight loss. I feel better about myself. Now I'm pregnant and what do I do? I always always said IF I got pregnant it'd be a miracle child and I'd never have a termination. The last few months, I've been able to go back to job seeking and had a trial at an admin job, it's looking pretty good for me. My boyfriend has trained for his SIA licence and will be getting a good paid job. He hasn't said anything. I asked him his reaction, thoughts, feelings and he said I really don't know, maybe it needs to sink in. We'd have to move home as we live with his grandparents (5 bedrooms, we have seperate living rooms etc) but we couldn't stay here. I can no longer take my pain meds (until I discuss this with my GP/Doctor tomorrow) and I also have anxiety meds which are strictly forbidden. I had a panic attack on the way for my job trial, worst it's been in months! Then another when I found out we're expecting. I'm very very anxious at present and can't cope with all of this. I always knew it'd be selfish to keep a child but then again elfish to terminate. Without wanting to sound selfish and harsh, I'm literally JUST getting better after 10 years (5 really REALLY bad) of depression and health anxiety. I've lost weight, feel better and look better. I should have thought of this but the strange thing? I was waiting for my period so I could get the implant again!! My GP said it's the most accurate way of knowing you're NOT pregnant and of course if you ARE and have the implant, it can harm you and your unborn child so yeah, how stupid am I?! I know it's my own fault and responsibility so why am I whinging about it?! I really have no clue what's going on and if I have a termination, it'll affect my health and mental health, I just know it will but I also now I CANNOT cope with a child. My Sister said everyone' like that but literally they drive me nuts. I have 16 nieces and nephews and it's very nice to hand them back after the day! I'm lost