im tentatively stepping into your club!
I guess Im WTT after c section? I was a hypnobirther gone dramatically wrong. I got preecampsia was induced, laboured (or not as i was told) for 3 days without sleep and separated from my OH then had an emergency section when LOs heartrate dramatically dropped, then had an allergic reaction during surgery and couldnt hold my LO for ages after he was born sorry have i put any of you off moving to TTC?!
I did want 2 or 3 children but felt so awful about my LOs birth that I discussed with OH not having anymore children. He agreed because he knows how sad i feel about it all and i think he will just say anything these days to stop me being sad. Im not sure how he really feels about that but i know it mustve been horrible watching me on that operating table having the reaction and holding our baby on his own. but i wonder wether he does want a bigger family.
Ive started reading a book about c sections and turned to the chapter about emotional recovery and in the first sentence it says a really effective recovery is a second natural birth its planted to seed of thought now. Ive not told anyone this apart from you guys. ive started to think, right if im gonna do this again, its got to be my way. I want, no i need,to believe that I can hypnobirth, and in the water too. preferably nowhere near a hospital! the more i think about it the more i fal in love with the idea of giving birth again!!
I think i might be being a little over optimistic as i think any consultant would give me a hard time about being 'high risk' and continuous monitoring etc... i would love to never wear one of those fetal monitors again in my life.
Its very confusing that the thing i want could lead me to the thing i fear the most. but im going to start my WTT journey by trying to get my BMI into a healthy range to try and avoid the preeclampsia again, thus preventing me having to labour on an antenatal ward alone.
bet you lot think youve got a right misery guts joining you!!! im nice, honest!
I guess Im WTT after c section? I was a hypnobirther gone dramatically wrong. I got preecampsia was induced, laboured (or not as i was told) for 3 days without sleep and separated from my OH then had an emergency section when LOs heartrate dramatically dropped, then had an allergic reaction during surgery and couldnt hold my LO for ages after he was born sorry have i put any of you off moving to TTC?!
I did want 2 or 3 children but felt so awful about my LOs birth that I discussed with OH not having anymore children. He agreed because he knows how sad i feel about it all and i think he will just say anything these days to stop me being sad. Im not sure how he really feels about that but i know it mustve been horrible watching me on that operating table having the reaction and holding our baby on his own. but i wonder wether he does want a bigger family.
Ive started reading a book about c sections and turned to the chapter about emotional recovery and in the first sentence it says a really effective recovery is a second natural birth its planted to seed of thought now. Ive not told anyone this apart from you guys. ive started to think, right if im gonna do this again, its got to be my way. I want, no i need,to believe that I can hypnobirth, and in the water too. preferably nowhere near a hospital! the more i think about it the more i fal in love with the idea of giving birth again!!
I think i might be being a little over optimistic as i think any consultant would give me a hard time about being 'high risk' and continuous monitoring etc... i would love to never wear one of those fetal monitors again in my life.
Its very confusing that the thing i want could lead me to the thing i fear the most. but im going to start my WTT journey by trying to get my BMI into a healthy range to try and avoid the preeclampsia again, thus preventing me having to labour on an antenatal ward alone.
bet you lot think youve got a right misery guts joining you!!! im nice, honest!