tiaflame
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I don't know why but the past few days I keep reliving my labour and birth experience. And it's making me so sad. After having an emergency section after getting to 9.5cm and just on gas and air, I am now feeling like a failure and cheated of real birth.
I know they had to do what they had to do to get my baby here safe and I am thankful of that but I can't help how I feel right now. I am wondering if its normal?
I love my son to bits and wouldn't change him for the world but I wonder if I have truly bonded with him. The first time I saw him he was wrapped up in a blanket, they didn't do skin to skin and I didn't get to hold him until he was around 4 hours old after he had to go to scbu for antibiotics and after I had been sorted out.
This sounds terrible but I still don't feel like he's my baby and he is nearly 8 weeks old, Which I know is ridiculous and I feel stupid for saying it.
I can't say I gave birth to him because I didn't, he was removed from me and the first few minutes/hours were not how I imagined they were going to be. I know I can't change any of this but I was wondering if any of you c section mummies have ever felt the same and does it go away? Xx
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I know they had to do what they had to do to get my baby here safe and I am thankful of that but I can't help how I feel right now. I am wondering if its normal?
I love my son to bits and wouldn't change him for the world but I wonder if I have truly bonded with him. The first time I saw him he was wrapped up in a blanket, they didn't do skin to skin and I didn't get to hold him until he was around 4 hours old after he had to go to scbu for antibiotics and after I had been sorted out.
This sounds terrible but I still don't feel like he's my baby and he is nearly 8 weeks old, Which I know is ridiculous and I feel stupid for saying it.
I can't say I gave birth to him because I didn't, he was removed from me and the first few minutes/hours were not how I imagined they were going to be. I know I can't change any of this but I was wondering if any of you c section mummies have ever felt the same and does it go away? Xx
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