Hi ladies,
I've been following you all on and off the last 7 months. Not sure if you remember I had a MC in Jan, after over a year of trying, with 3 kids was shocked it took so long and sad it ended in MMC. So I booked a holiday to LA with my sister, and stopped doing the opk tests. Had three cycles of having sex sometimes on a green day sometimes when we fancied- one month not at all!.... Anyway the point of my holiday was to focus on not been preg and to get the arse off that I'd put on since the MC.
I was working the whole month in school doing supply, and applying for full time position, so kinda focused on that. Had my interview and had to go to toilet as I was bleeding- great, 10 days early for my period. That day got home and was knackered and fell asleep by 4pm- 6pm, kids had to wait for their tea! A few more days like that, and one day of spotting and only covering the tip of 1 tampon. Weird... Carries on at work, packing and getting excited for LA with my sis. Booked hotels with amazing packages, free drinks, food. Lots of treats.....
Day before I fly- thought I wonder if.... Tested. Nothing. Tested in the morning... Faint, then disappeard. Sent to my friend and she said she wanted to see it but couldn't. Took a cheapy in my hand luggage and then off I went...
Day two I said to my sis shall I do it- just because we were going to go all out and enjoy the free bars. And that's when I got my line!
Feel really emotional writing this. ... Felt guilty too reading all your stories, but I want to say.... Keep going. Relax- worst thing to say ever, but maybe there is some truth in it. But it's so hard to do.
Then all you do is worry, but promise yourself each milestone you'll calm down, but I don't.... Well maybe it's eased a bit now. But at 28 wks I'm just wishing time until March.
I wish you all well, and will keep looking and keeping everything crossed. This thread kept me sane when I felt anything but.
M. Xxxx