Loubalouba
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I don't know where to post this but I feel I need some sort of support right now.. I am really struggling today, this tww has got me so emotional and I can't help thinking that this is too much too soon... One min I feel hopeful then the next convinced it has not worked and that's on top of the constant ache and longing for Harrison.. Not sure I can handle this..
Went to a family bbcue today with my brother and his 3 children, first time we have seen them since Harrison died, we should have been there with Harrison, his cousins getting to know him, all happy and excited and yet there we were with no children and probably not pregnant either yet again.. Then on the way home my hubby says he refuses to think about Harrison and him being there etc because why put yourself through it... So I said so you are just going to pretend he did not exist.. Then he starts asking why am I so desperate to be pregnant again because I need to deal with what has happened and another baby won't change that.. But I need to do something to help with this pain?? Or maybe I am not dealing with it and trying to get pregnant is making things worse? Thank god we have counselling tomorrow but I feeli need it now when I feel and think these things..
Sorry I just need somewhere to vent this but it consumes me otherwise..
I dread to think how I wil be if this cycle fails..
Lou xx
Went to a family bbcue today with my brother and his 3 children, first time we have seen them since Harrison died, we should have been there with Harrison, his cousins getting to know him, all happy and excited and yet there we were with no children and probably not pregnant either yet again.. Then on the way home my hubby says he refuses to think about Harrison and him being there etc because why put yourself through it... So I said so you are just going to pretend he did not exist.. Then he starts asking why am I so desperate to be pregnant again because I need to deal with what has happened and another baby won't change that.. But I need to do something to help with this pain?? Or maybe I am not dealing with it and trying to get pregnant is making things worse? Thank god we have counselling tomorrow but I feeli need it now when I feel and think these things..
Sorry I just need somewhere to vent this but it consumes me otherwise..
I dread to think how I wil be if this cycle fails..
Lou xx