Shell's TTC Diary - *IVF/ICSI* - BFP!!!!
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Hi Michelle
Just wanted to wish you the best of luck for tomorrow. I really hope you get a BFP. I didn't get any symptoms at all, in fact I was convinced that I wasn't PG but I'd missed the biggest symptom of them all... not having AF.
Helen
xx
Just wanted to wish you the best of luck for tomorrow. I really hope you get a BFP. I didn't get any symptoms at all, in fact I was convinced that I wasn't PG but I'd missed the biggest symptom of them all... not having AF.
Helen
xx
14 Days Post EC
Thank you all so much for your good luck wishes
I hate to disappoint but i tested this morning and it was a BFN!!
In a natural cycle i usually get AF on the 15th day after ovulation which would be tomorrow, so it is still a day before Af would be due. I cant see the result changing though as i used a clearblue digital and it is 95% accurate the day before AF.
Official test at the clinic is Monday, i just want to get that out of the way now. I think i will let DH take my urine sample in as i dont think i can face the nurse telling me its negative when i alresdy know!
Dh is working all weekend. He didn't want me to test as its a really important time for him at work, so i haven't told him the result. I dont even know if i should tell him tonight or whether it is fairer to leave it until sunday night when his exhibition has finished. I just want a hug!
My mom is in France until tonight, i have text her to tell her that i tested. She text back to check if i was ok and to ask if i had told DH but i haven't heard from her since. I just feel so alone.
I will probably end up testing again in the morning just to torture myself.
Thank you for all your support
Michelle x
Thank you all so much for your good luck wishes
I hate to disappoint but i tested this morning and it was a BFN!!
In a natural cycle i usually get AF on the 15th day after ovulation which would be tomorrow, so it is still a day before Af would be due. I cant see the result changing though as i used a clearblue digital and it is 95% accurate the day before AF.
Official test at the clinic is Monday, i just want to get that out of the way now. I think i will let DH take my urine sample in as i dont think i can face the nurse telling me its negative when i alresdy know!
Dh is working all weekend. He didn't want me to test as its a really important time for him at work, so i haven't told him the result. I dont even know if i should tell him tonight or whether it is fairer to leave it until sunday night when his exhibition has finished. I just want a hug!
My mom is in France until tonight, i have text her to tell her that i tested. She text back to check if i was ok and to ask if i had told DH but i haven't heard from her since. I just feel so alone.I will probably end up testing again in the morning just to torture myself.
Thank you for all your support
Michelle x
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wish i could give you a real hug honey, but hope these virtual ones help. just remember it ain't over till the witch arrives. I still have my fingers crossed for you that it'll be a BFP and its just too early.
Official Test Day!!!!! 
Well its finally here! The appointment is at 9.30 and DH has already left with my litle pot of wee. I feel awful letting him go on his own as he must be upset too but he said he doesn't mind. I dont want to do anymore crying and i know i would cry if i went with him.
I tested again yesterday and again it was a BFN so i'm not holding out for any different today.
Me and DH had a cry and a long chat last night. I think the only option is to try it again. The only thing we need to decide is whether to stay at the same clinic. We were looking at their statistics and they were lower than i thought, so we're a bit undecided about going back there.
I have stopped taking the progesterone, so now i'm just waiting for AF to turn up.
I'll update later with the final result. Thank you all again for your suport.
Michelle x
Well its finally here! The appointment is at 9.30 and DH has already left with my litle pot of wee. I feel awful letting him go on his own as he must be upset too but he said he doesn't mind. I dont want to do anymore crying and i know i would cry if i went with him.
I tested again yesterday and again it was a BFN so i'm not holding out for any different today.
Me and DH had a cry and a long chat last night. I think the only option is to try it again. The only thing we need to decide is whether to stay at the same clinic. We were looking at their statistics and they were lower than i thought, so we're a bit undecided about going back there.
I have stopped taking the progesterone, so now i'm just waiting for AF to turn up.
I'll update later with the final result. Thank you all again for your suport.
Michelle x
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hope that no news is good news
Sorry to keep you waiting, we went out for the day after DH got back from the clinic and i didn't have chance to get on here.
Unfortunately it was definately a BFN.
The nurse said she was surprised it hadn't worked as treatment had gone so well. She said i had responded well and produced a good amount of eggs. She went to see the embryologist and that they said that we had got good eggs and embryos so it was a shock that it was negative. The nurse said that she thinks we need to do another round asap, she thinks that because i dont have cycles that this may have kickstarted my system and if we have another go it will have a better chance of working. I dont quite understand that but nevermind. I've got to wait for this AF and then another before we can start again.
We cant get a follow up appointment until the 19th December. This will be when we see our consultnt to see what he thinks of how treatment went and whether he wants us to try anything different. I have lots of questions, so i'm going to write them all down as my mind always goes blank at appointments like that!! I think we will probably stick with this clinic for one more go at least. We may be near the top of the NHS list so its a possibility that we will have that go 1st, we're waiting to hear back about our place on the list.
Me & DH went out for the day and did some christmas shopping. We have talked and things feel a lot better. I'm definately feeling a lot more positive. I just cant wait to get started again now. The only thing i'm worried about is how long i'll have to wait for the 2nd AF. They have said if nothing happens then they can give me Norethisterone, but i think i may ask if i can have it in advance so that i can make myself have a 28 day cycle. That would mean we can start again the 3rd week of Jan.
I think i will continue with my diary if thats ok with everyone, but i probably wont update again until our follow up.
Oh and i forgot to say, i found out yesterday that DH's business partners wife is pregnant. Just to make the BFN 10 times worse!!
Michelle x
Unfortunately it was definately a BFN.
The nurse said she was surprised it hadn't worked as treatment had gone so well. She said i had responded well and produced a good amount of eggs. She went to see the embryologist and that they said that we had got good eggs and embryos so it was a shock that it was negative. The nurse said that she thinks we need to do another round asap, she thinks that because i dont have cycles that this may have kickstarted my system and if we have another go it will have a better chance of working. I dont quite understand that but nevermind. I've got to wait for this AF and then another before we can start again.
We cant get a follow up appointment until the 19th December. This will be when we see our consultnt to see what he thinks of how treatment went and whether he wants us to try anything different. I have lots of questions, so i'm going to write them all down as my mind always goes blank at appointments like that!! I think we will probably stick with this clinic for one more go at least. We may be near the top of the NHS list so its a possibility that we will have that go 1st, we're waiting to hear back about our place on the list.
Me & DH went out for the day and did some christmas shopping. We have talked and things feel a lot better. I'm definately feeling a lot more positive. I just cant wait to get started again now. The only thing i'm worried about is how long i'll have to wait for the 2nd AF. They have said if nothing happens then they can give me Norethisterone, but i think i may ask if i can have it in advance so that i can make myself have a 28 day cycle. That would mean we can start again the 3rd week of Jan.
I think i will continue with my diary if thats ok with everyone, but i probably wont update again until our follow up.
Oh and i forgot to say, i found out yesterday that DH's business partners wife is pregnant. Just to make the BFN 10 times worse!!
Michelle x
I'm sorry it didn't work out this time - but glad you seem to be feeling a bit more positive.
Do keep the diary going - we all want to know how you're doing! At least the nurse sounded optimistic - FX for the next round.
Do keep the diary going - we all want to know how you're doing! At least the nurse sounded optimistic - FX for the next round.
I'm so sorry Michelle
Its good that the hospital are confident for the next time though, keep thinking positive.
You and DH can relax for a wee while and enjoy your Xmas together and look forward to the new year when things start again. At least this time round you will know what to expect and be more ready for it. You might also be more relaxed which may help a little too!
Much love
J
Its good that the hospital are confident for the next time though, keep thinking positive.
You and DH can relax for a wee while and enjoy your Xmas together and look forward to the new year when things start again. At least this time round you will know what to expect and be more ready for it. You might also be more relaxed which may help a little too!
Much love
J
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Sorry bout the BFN. Please keep the diary going. I don't always post but I do read it. Glad the nurse was positive and that you're feeling more optimistic. 
I'm so glad that you dont mind me carrying on with this, it really helps to write things down.
Well, i have definately come to terms with the negative result and although it still hurts sometimes i do feel a lot better. One day i will have a baby, it just wasn't meant to be this time.
I ordered some ovulation tests and they arrived this morning. I'm going to try doing 2 a day as i have never managed to get a positive on one. I have also ordered some zita west vitamins for me and DH. They were a bit pricy but i have heard that they are good and it saves DH having to take the 13 individual supplements i gave him earlier this year! I ordered 3 months supply for each of us, but you can send any unopened ones back if you get pregnant (positive thinking!
) If we dont get a natural BFP then at least we will be healthy for round 2 of ICSI!! Cant wait for AF to go away now so we can get started! 
Christmas is now back on after i cancelled it last weekend!
I'm going xmas shopping tomorrow with my mom and then me and DH are going to get the tree on the night. I cant wait, i love decorating the tree. I'm going to put the xmas songs on and make the most of the fact that i can have a drink!! 
We still haven't heard about our position on the NHS waiting list!
I wasn't going to update again until the follow up on the 19th december, but i'm going to start ovulation testing from CD11 which is the 14th december so i may be back sooner.
Oooh nearly forgot, me and DH are going to go away for a night or 2 in a nice hotel. We're going to go out and enjoy ourselves as i cant remember the last time we did that. Our lives have been taken over with hospital appointments and tests and it will be so nice to feel like a normal couple for a change. It should be next week as long as he's not too busy at work...i cant wait!
Michelle x
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Have a fabulous time together!!! Great idea, try to remember life before TTC.
Follow up consultation
We had our follow up yesterday, which was a complete waste of time. He didn't have anything to say to us other than what the nurse had told DH. That everything went well, it was just bad luck that it didn't work and that he wouldn't change anything next time etc etc. He has given me some norethisterone so that i dont have to wait for AF ....I was chuffed!! I haven't ovulated up to now so i will start taking those on boxing day and should get AF around the 3rd or 4th of Jan. I've spoke to the nurse and she said she wants me to start D/Reg during AF instead of day 21 and as long as everything is shut down and lining stays thin i can start stimms 2 weeks later!! I cant believe how soon it all seems!! I wasn't expecting to start again until at least the end of Jan. 
I have an appointment for the 4th Jan to go and fetch all my needles and drugs again. They will give me all my provisional dates for scans, EC etc as well while i'm there.
Our break in Oxford was great. The hotel was so cool. I cant remember if i said before where we stayed.......it was the Malmaison hotel in Oxford which used to be a prison. It was so spooky when we 1st got there but then i got used to it. It was a prison until 1996 and bad girls was filmed there before it was a hotel! There still have all the original interior of the prison where you would have walked round to your cell! I will try to put a picture on here. We stayed in one of the rooms made from the cells on the 1st night, it still had the original cell door! The 2nd night we were upgraded to a suite....but i actually prefered the cells.
Merry christmas to everyone who reads this. I hope you all have a wonderful time and an even better new year.
Michelle x
We had our follow up yesterday, which was a complete waste of time. He didn't have anything to say to us other than what the nurse had told DH. That everything went well, it was just bad luck that it didn't work and that he wouldn't change anything next time etc etc. He has given me some norethisterone so that i dont have to wait for AF
....I was chuffed!! I haven't ovulated up to now so i will start taking those on boxing day and should get AF around the 3rd or 4th of Jan. I've spoke to the nurse and she said she wants me to start D/Reg during AF instead of day 21 and as long as everything is shut down and lining stays thin i can start stimms 2 weeks later!! I cant believe how soon it all seems!! I wasn't expecting to start again until at least the end of Jan. I have an appointment for the 4th Jan to go and fetch all my needles and drugs again. They will give me all my provisional dates for scans, EC etc as well while i'm there.
Our break in Oxford was great. The hotel was so cool. I cant remember if i said before where we stayed.......it was the Malmaison hotel in Oxford which used to be a prison. It was so spooky when we 1st got there but then i got used to it. It was a prison until 1996 and bad girls was filmed there before it was a hotel! There still have all the original interior of the prison where you would have walked round to your cell! I will try to put a picture on here. We stayed in one of the rooms made from the cells on the 1st night, it still had the original cell door! The 2nd night we were upgraded to a suite....but i actually prefered the cells.
Merry christmas to everyone who reads this. I hope you all have a wonderful time and an even better new year.
Michelle x
Here We Go Again!!!!
Happy New Year!!!
Well i finished the norethisterone on new years day, so i'm now waiting for AF to arrive. It should be here by tomorrow at the latest i think.
I start DR when AF arrives. Baseline scan will be 16th Jan. EC is planned for the 6th Feb. I think i will have about 2 1/2 weeks of DR, which isn't too bad. I cant believe its all starting again!!!
Michelle x
Happy New Year!!!
Well i finished the norethisterone on new years day, so i'm now waiting for AF to arrive. It should be here by tomorrow at the latest i think.
I start DR when AF arrives. Baseline scan will be 16th Jan. EC is planned for the 6th Feb. I think i will have about 2 1/2 weeks of DR, which isn't too bad. I cant believe its all starting again!!!
Michelle x
