Shell's TTC Diary - *IVF/ICSI* - BFP!!!!

[shellbham]

18/11/07 - 1 day after EC

I feel very sore today. It feels like i've been kicked in the stomach and winded. It hurts to even breathe. I'm lying on the sofa and i think i'll be here all day as it takes too much effort to get up and walk round. My mom is cooking me sunday lunch and she said she will bring it over to me if i dont feel up to gooing to hers. I think i might try to go over to her house though, a bit of fresh air might be good

The ebryologist called to say 7 of our eggs have fertilised. We find out tomorrow whether they are dividing ok and what the quality is like. The waiting is horrible. We have 7 so the odds that we will get to embryo transfer are quite good, but you never know what could happen. All i will be able to think about today is whether they are dividing. All being well ET will be on Tuesday so they still have 2 days to survive. I hope they are strong!! This part of treatment is so scary.

xxx

 

[sookie]

Michelle - this is so exciting!

I am ing that the fertilised eggs keep growing and that this will be it for you!

 

[shellbham]

Thank you sookie!

 

[shellbham]

19/11/07 - 2 days after EC

We had a phonecall from the clinic this morning to let us now how the embryos are getting on. They grade the quality of them, with 1 being the best and 4 or 5 being the worse. We have 3 grade 1's, 2 grade 2's and 2 grade 3's. They are all dividing as they should be and are looking very good. So hopefully, fingers crossed we should have 2 suitable to be transfered back tomorrow. Embryo transfer (ET) will be at 8.15am tomorrow.

I'm not sure if they will freeze any. They wont freeze a single embryo, and i dont know if they will only freeze grade 1's which means we wont have any frosties. I have read something on the internet about letting the lower grade ones carry on dividing until they reach blastocyst stage, around day 5, and to then see if any can be froze. I think i will ask about this, as its a shame that we have a grade one that will have to just be thrown away. That one could be the one that works!! If we can get the 2 grade 2's to blastocyst then we will have 3 and they would be able to freeze.

I am still sore and still very bloated. The clinic have said that this is normal. It doesn't feel normal, its so uncomfortable. I feel like i'm full of air!!

This time tomorrow i could potentially have 2 little babies in me!! I'm so excited!!! But also scared in case it doesn't work. If we dont have frosties then it means we have to do all this again and i dont know if i can face it. I need to start thinking positive! This will work!!

Back tomorrow..........

xxx

 

[Jule]

Michelle,

I cant wait to hear what happens tomorrow!! Good luck

We too have Male Factor infertility - just found out last week, as you can imagine, we are just slowly coming to terms with it. Waiting on our first appointment coming through, although I have already been looking into IUI and ICSI and think that's the best route for us!

Your diary is excellent! I hope you dont mind me 'butting in', but I just had to tell you how comforting, informative and inspiring it is to read!

much love
Jule x

 

[Mildly]

How exciting, hope all goes well for you tomorrow I'll be thinking of you

 

[shellbham]

Jule -

Thank you so much for your kind words.....i just hope i can give you a happy ending!!

I know how you are feeling at the moment. I was devasted when we 1st found out as i always assumed it was me that was stopping us conceiving. While it still hurts that this is our only option i have come to terms with it now. One way or another we will have children, as i'm quite happy to adopt. How many tests have been done on your OH? We had 4 done in total and it was only after that that i finally accepted there was a problem!! I still think that its only temporary!! I guess there's no harm in trying to be positive, and there's always some chance of a natural baby as long as there is sperm there!

Good luck with any treatment you have...you will have to do a diary too, i love reading them!

Michelle x

 

[shellbham]

Thank you Mildly!

It feels so good to have so much support from everyone on here. It really means a lot to me when people post messages

xx

 

[Jule]

Hi again Michelle!

DH has to have another test done in a few months although we dont hold out much hope for any change. It hasn't stopped us stocking up on all kinds of vitamins, lotions and potions though!! I think I am still in denial to be honest with you, and am still hoping for a wee mini-miracle bfp before we get our appointment!! As you say - it only takes one !

I am just willing that one Super-Sperm to hurry up and get to the front of the queue!!

I will definately consider a diary, but will wait until things get going with whatever treatment we get. (and of course... I am still hoping for a wee surprise bfp in the meantime!).

Fingers crossed for your results tomorrow, I will be thinking of you

 

[sookie]

Good luck Michelle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Try to stay as relaxed and positive as possible (easy to say I know )

Thinking of you

 

[Jule]

Any news yet Michelle?? (or am I way too early?!)

 

[shellbham]

Embryo Transfer - 20/11/07

Sorry i didn't do this yesterday, i just really didn't feel like it. I spent the whole day on the sofa....trying to recover from my ordeal!!

I have had 2 grade 1-2 8 cell embies put back. I didn't have to ask about keeping the others they suggested it! 2 of them are a bit advanced for their age and are a 10 cell and a 12 cell. The others are 4,5 and 6 cells. They are going to keep them all going to see if they can get to blastocyst , if they do they will freeze them as a blastocyst has more chance of surviving. I'm so pleased but its also another nervous wait until thursday!

We actually had 100% fertilisation. I found out today that 1 of the 8 got damaged when they were removing the shell so they only injected 7 in the end.

ET was the worst thing i have ever had done to me!! I put DH's coat on before they started as the room was really cold. I was in so much pain though, i went really hot and thought i was going to faint. I dont think he could find the place he wanted to put them and i was getting cramping pains. I wanted to cry! I hope i dont have to go through that again any time soon!!

They have gave me the 3rd december for my test date, but that is probably because of the weekend. I will probably stick to the saturday as that is 14 days after EC.

Michelle x

 

[Jule]

Oh Michelle - its sounding really good for you hun

You're now in a 2ww! Oh, I really hope one (or both!) stick, and you get your bfp. Just think - in 2 weeks time you could be pregnant!!!

I hope you dont mind me asking, but if the remaining embryos turn blastocyst do they freeze them incase you need them in future?

 

[shellbham]

Jule - Yes they will freeze them and then if we want another try we dont have to go through the egg producing stage and egg collection. They give me something to thicken my womb lining and then do embryo transfer. They dont always survive the thaw though

xxx

 

[shellbham]

Embryo Update

We called the clinic this morning and although the remaining embryos have continued dividing they haven't quite reached blostocyst. They are at the stage before blastocyst at the moment so they want to leave them another day to see if they make it. I'm glad that they are still growing but its not looking good. Just got to hope that tomorrow brings better news.

x

 

[Jule]

Hi Michelle!

They are still growing though, they are maybe just taking their time ing that you dont need them though!

J x

 

[sookie]

Michelle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Good luck sweetie!

 

[chellieboo]

Glad to hear alls gone well honey.

hope they implant and its a BFP for you on test day xxxx

 

[Gem & Leland]

wishing you loads of like shell !

 

[Mildly]

Fingers crossed for you