Shell's TTC Diary - *IVF/ICSI* - BFP!!!!

[shellbham]

7 days post EC

The remaining embryos didn't make it. They stopped dividing just before blastocyst stage. The embryologist said this is a good sign for the embryos that they put back in me as the body is a better incubator. She said as they managed to get to that stage in the lab, the ones inside me have got a much better chance.

Everything rests on these 2 little embies in me now, so i hope they're busy implanting!! I wish there was a way of knowing if it had worked, i've still got another week to go!

Michelle x

 

[sookie]

Sorry about the other embryos Michelle But think about the ones that are actually in there!

ing youcan hold tight throughout the wait of the next week.

 

[choklatemunky]

Fingers crossed for you Michelle - good luck x

 

[Kittykins]

sorry the others couldn't be frozen.

I can't believe you're now at the stage that you have two embryos actually inside you though - that's fantastic!

Just a thought - I know you'll be desperate to know asap but they may have given you the test date of the 3rd because they wanted it to be 16 days after ET, not 14, or there's a possibility that testing earlier might give you a false result. I really don't want to be a downer, but I had a chem pg last month, with +HPTs at 13,14, and 15dpo, which went -HPT at 16dpo. The doctor told me that 16dpo is much safer to test reliably than 14dpo. Of course, I have no idea whether your circumstances make it different, but after what you've gone through already, I really want you to get a reliable + result

 

[shellbham]

Thanks everyone for posting and for all your good luck wishes

Kittykins - My clinic usually test 14 days after EC, which would be Saturday 1st Dec. They dont do pregnancy testing at the weekend which is why they have asked me to come in on the Monday. I understand what you're saying though. I'm going to try to hold out for as long as possible, but i also want to know before the clinic tell me so i prepare myself for any bad news. I will probably go for sunday.

xxx

 

[shellbham]

8 Days Post EC

I'm feeling very down today. I really dont think its worked. I dont feel anything. My boobs have been sore on and off through treatment and this morning they are fine. The cyclogest can cause them to be tender, so i dont get why they aren't even sore from that. I have been getting cramps like i do before AF also.

I'm so scared. Should i be feeling different?

xxx

 

[sookie]

Try to stay positive Michelle!!!! Many women say they have no symptoms. Especially this early.

Just think what a good chance you have! There are 2 fertilised eggs in there. That is really a long way towards being pregnant.

 

[Jule]

Hi Michelle

Sorry you're feeling down, and I'm sorry about the other embryos that didn't make it

Try not to analyse every feeling or twinge you're having or not having at the moment and try to relax a little - I know - easier said than done. Your body has gone through a lot over the past few weeks and now its having a little rest, so I would imagine things might be a bit different. You still have a week to go, so hopefully those little embryos are implanting at the moment and that's the crampy feeling you're getting!

Just to let you know - there is a new 'TTC with fertility issues' forum, for us girls who have issues and need assisted conception - hope to see you over there!

keeping my fingers crossed for you

 

[shellbham]

9 Days Post EC

Jule - I know i really shouldn't analyse anything. The logical side of me knows that some people have symptoms and some dont. But the emotional side of me is looking for signs!!

If i was worrying before then i'm now even more worried that it hasn't worked. I fell down the stairs yesterday afternoon. I have been in so much pain since. I've hurt my back and really bruised my bum! I was screaming and crying and i couldn't breathe properly!! My mom and DH were here and looking back its now quite funny. My mom heard the thud of me falling over the sound of the vacuum!! But i'm really worried now that i've done something to ruin our chances. I dont think i would forgive myself, and now if we get a BFN i'm going to be wondering if it was because of yesterday.

I had quite a few more cramps afterwards and kept expecting to find out i was bleeding. It has been the same today, i would have bet money that AF had started at one point today!

Its day 10 after EC tomorrow which is the same as 10 dpo and i keep thinking about testing. But then i'm scared of it being negative and ruining my imaginary pregnancy state!!

xxx

 

[PinkPunch]

Michelle, hope it works out for you

 

[sookie]

ing for you Michelle!!!

I'm sure you didn't do any damage from falling. Hold out to test! It is better to wait,if it's - you feel awful but still wonder if it was too early. Hold on

 

[Kittykins]

you couldn't have done any damage at this stage. A good way to think of it is as a smartie (or several!) suspended in a plastic jar of jelly. You can shake that jar, drop it, kick it, but those smarties will be fine...

And don't worry about the lack of symptoms. It's only coming on to the forum that makes any of us think we should spot any at all. Most textbooks say that symptoms start at around 6 weeks - 2 weeks AFTER you test, not before Most very early symptoms are exactly the same as AF signs anyway. You can get similar cramps from ovulation, AF, implantation, stress, or eating a dodgy curry...

try to relax, and give those smarties a restful home! Hope you feel better soon.

 

[shellbham]

Day 12 Post EC

Thanks everyone for your reassurance.

I have recovered amazingly well. My back was ok the next day, the only injury was my bruised bum! Which is still a bit tender.

I'm still in a very negative mood! Desperation got the better of me and i tested this morning.......BFN!! Not even a faint line. It was a tesco test which says on the box that it works from the day that you're period is due, so i'm hoping that is why i got a BFN! But then surely if i was pregnant there would be a hint of a line?! I just know it hasn't worked. I was too scared to use the clearblue digital for the fear of having to see 'Not Pregnant'. I'm not testing again until Saturday now.

I'm getting really strong cramps now so i think AF is close, although the cyclogest will probably keep it away. They feel just the same as i get in the lead up to the start of AF. I was really tired at about 6pm last night and then ended up with a terrible headache. At 1st i thought ooh maybe the tiredness is a good sign but i looked back at all my old charts this morning and it seems i get a headache every time at around 11/12/13dpo!! So not a good sign anymore.

Michelle

 

[choklatemunky]

Oh Michelle

It could just be that it was too soon to test (some people dont get positives until they are days late anyway due to low HCG levels so dont feel too disheartened yet - although I can imagine its really hard).

We all still have our fingers crossed for you here hun xx

 

[shellbham]

Day 13 Post EC

Went into town with my mom today. Its the 1st time i have properly been out in weeks and i'm now worn out!

We had a look around the xmas market, which was all the same stuff as every year but it was still quite nice to have a walk around the stalls. I managed to buy a few christmas presents that i was struggling to get online. And i got some nice treats from M&S for me and DH to eat later!

It was a nightmare in town though, its so busy already and the traffic was awful. I'm glad to be home, i think i'll be having a nap this afternon!

I'm dreading testing tomorrow. I keep thinking maybe i should wait until Sunday so that i can be sure the result is right. But thats probably just because i'm so scared of actually finding out.

Michelle x

 

[Jule]

Hi Michelle!

That's good you had a nice day today to take your mind off things. I cant believe you are due to test in a couple of days - it feels as though your 2ww has flown in (although I'm sure you'll think differently ).

It must be hard trying not to test, especially if you have some HPTS in the house! I think I would try and wait as long as possible - even till Monday and let the hospital do it. Although if you cant wait that long then a wee test on Sunday to put your mind at rest is a good idea.

I really wish you the best of luck, and I will be thinking of you over the weekend! Make sure you let us know what happens as soon as you can.

Take care

 

[chellieboo]

Goodluck honey, will be thinking of you tomorrow xxxx

 

[Rachael]

Just wanted to send you loads of

- Really hope you get your

The

is horrendous - I remember it well and I hated every moment of it.
Just

now, i've known women get a Negative HPT the day before testing and go on to get a positive result the following day!

 

[Kittykins]

good luck!

 

[CB23]

Same here, I read through your thread and I'm rooting for you