babyblonde
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Hello girls
Well we lost our baby today (just over 5 weeks). I'm going to have a bit of a rant to get my story off my chest - feel free to ignore me.
I started spotting and cramping yesterday afternoon and just never stopped bleeding. We called the emergency doctor who advised to stay put and contact the GP in the morning and ask to be contacted by a midwife.
This morning I was passing clots and felt terrible. Andy rang the GP and they gave us the number for the midwifery department at the local hospital. The midwife wasn't really particularly helpful as she just said to go and see the GP - or go to A&E if started bleeding heavily. Basically, as soon as anyone heard I was only 5 weeks pregnant they appeared to lose all interest.
Late this morning, I was having really painful cramps and still passing clots and we decided to go to A&E. We sat in A&E reception for over an hour before being seen - when a doctor advised he would do a quick abdo examination, take urine and blood samples to run pregnancy tests and ask a gynaecologist to do and internal examination and a scan.
I went and did my urine sample and by the time I returned the doctor had left. Andy and I were left sitting in the little side room for more than another hour with no information.
After just over an hour, a woman turned up and told me she was taking me to Ward 14 (which turned out to be the gynae ward - but could have been anywhere as nobody told me where I was going). When I got there I was put onto a bed and told to undress ready for the doctor to come. I gave the student nurse my urine sample ready for testing and the doctor introduced herself and asked a few questions, took some blood then disappeared again.
Next thing I hear is the student nurse, at the top of her voice, yelling across the ward "THAT GIRL'S PREGNANCY TEST IS NEGATIVE - I'VE CHECKED IT TWICE. WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?!' Nice way to find out I'd miscarried.
The doctor comes back, obviously irate, and says 'didn't they test your urine and blood on a&e? well the doctor hasn't done a very good job of assessing you or you wouldn't be up here' - obviously implying I was wasting her time.
She did and internal exam and then proceeded to tell me that what I was experiencing was a normal period and I had never been pregnant because my urine test was negative. I said I had tested and shown positivek, plus I never have great big clots as part of a normal period. She then proceeded to talk to me like I was five and said the following:
doctor - 'was it a home test?'
me - 'yes - I did 6 across 4 days and they all came out positive'
doctor - (rolls eyes) 'hmmm, did anyone collaborate your view it was a positive'
me - 'yes, my husband'
doctor - 'hmmm, ok. I'm going to go and get a test and show you how to read it so that you know for next time'
me - 'well I know how to read the word pregnant on a clearblue test and that's what I saw'
doctor - 'oh well that's strange isn't it - well you might have miscarried then. We'll see when your bloods come back'
After 6 hours in total in the hospital - a nurse came back and told me that my blood results were back and showed hcg levels at 2.9 which they consider a negative. She said I could go home now, as the doctor said this was just a normal period as the tests were negative (erm, 2.9 isn't zero!).
So, after over 6 hours I have achieved nothing except being accused of being a complete idiot who cant read a pregnancy test and looked on as a timewaster. I have received no advice as to whether we can ttc again straightaway or not or any kind of support in dealing with the loss of a baby (because they dont believe I have actually lost one). I'm also worried that if this isnt documented as a miscarriage I wont get the level of care and observation I maybe need if I get pregnant again.
I feel so let down by the system - we are now looking at whether we can afford private cover so that when the time comes we can have a better standard of care. This has just added to the sadness of losing our baby -who we wanted so desparately. I am a realist, and if I'm honest I knew last night that I was going to lose the baby and that there was nothing anyone could do about it - but a little bit of compassion and care would have been nice.
Sorry for the rant.
Anyway - I've written my little poem for our baby below - and I'm going to get a little tattoo so I can always remember how special I felt being pregnant with them.
We have an appointment with the gp tomorrow to ask for some advice as to when we should start trying again, but will probably wait til after xmas now to give ourselves a little time to recover first.
One day we will get to meet our baby - just not quite yet.
Well we lost our baby today (just over 5 weeks). I'm going to have a bit of a rant to get my story off my chest - feel free to ignore me.
I started spotting and cramping yesterday afternoon and just never stopped bleeding. We called the emergency doctor who advised to stay put and contact the GP in the morning and ask to be contacted by a midwife.
This morning I was passing clots and felt terrible. Andy rang the GP and they gave us the number for the midwifery department at the local hospital. The midwife wasn't really particularly helpful as she just said to go and see the GP - or go to A&E if started bleeding heavily. Basically, as soon as anyone heard I was only 5 weeks pregnant they appeared to lose all interest.
Late this morning, I was having really painful cramps and still passing clots and we decided to go to A&E. We sat in A&E reception for over an hour before being seen - when a doctor advised he would do a quick abdo examination, take urine and blood samples to run pregnancy tests and ask a gynaecologist to do and internal examination and a scan.
I went and did my urine sample and by the time I returned the doctor had left. Andy and I were left sitting in the little side room for more than another hour with no information.
After just over an hour, a woman turned up and told me she was taking me to Ward 14 (which turned out to be the gynae ward - but could have been anywhere as nobody told me where I was going). When I got there I was put onto a bed and told to undress ready for the doctor to come. I gave the student nurse my urine sample ready for testing and the doctor introduced herself and asked a few questions, took some blood then disappeared again.
Next thing I hear is the student nurse, at the top of her voice, yelling across the ward "THAT GIRL'S PREGNANCY TEST IS NEGATIVE - I'VE CHECKED IT TWICE. WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?!' Nice way to find out I'd miscarried.
The doctor comes back, obviously irate, and says 'didn't they test your urine and blood on a&e? well the doctor hasn't done a very good job of assessing you or you wouldn't be up here' - obviously implying I was wasting her time.
She did and internal exam and then proceeded to tell me that what I was experiencing was a normal period and I had never been pregnant because my urine test was negative. I said I had tested and shown positivek, plus I never have great big clots as part of a normal period. She then proceeded to talk to me like I was five and said the following:
doctor - 'was it a home test?'
me - 'yes - I did 6 across 4 days and they all came out positive'
doctor - (rolls eyes) 'hmmm, did anyone collaborate your view it was a positive'
me - 'yes, my husband'
doctor - 'hmmm, ok. I'm going to go and get a test and show you how to read it so that you know for next time'
me - 'well I know how to read the word pregnant on a clearblue test and that's what I saw'
doctor - 'oh well that's strange isn't it - well you might have miscarried then. We'll see when your bloods come back'
After 6 hours in total in the hospital - a nurse came back and told me that my blood results were back and showed hcg levels at 2.9 which they consider a negative. She said I could go home now, as the doctor said this was just a normal period as the tests were negative (erm, 2.9 isn't zero!).
So, after over 6 hours I have achieved nothing except being accused of being a complete idiot who cant read a pregnancy test and looked on as a timewaster. I have received no advice as to whether we can ttc again straightaway or not or any kind of support in dealing with the loss of a baby (because they dont believe I have actually lost one). I'm also worried that if this isnt documented as a miscarriage I wont get the level of care and observation I maybe need if I get pregnant again.
I feel so let down by the system - we are now looking at whether we can afford private cover so that when the time comes we can have a better standard of care. This has just added to the sadness of losing our baby -who we wanted so desparately. I am a realist, and if I'm honest I knew last night that I was going to lose the baby and that there was nothing anyone could do about it - but a little bit of compassion and care would have been nice.
Sorry for the rant.
Anyway - I've written my little poem for our baby below - and I'm going to get a little tattoo so I can always remember how special I felt being pregnant with them.
We have an appointment with the gp tomorrow to ask for some advice as to when we should start trying again, but will probably wait til after xmas now to give ourselves a little time to recover first.
One day we will get to meet our baby - just not quite yet.
xxx
I'm so sorry for your loss hun, obviously you have moreon your mind right now but i would write a complaint about that kind of treatment its disgraceful!
Take care of yourself babes and complain when you feel a bit more up to it 
He has a point 
