ok, i didnt know where to post this, so if its in teh wrong place so sorry.
been doing abit of research lately on fathers rights, as in if you've read my previous post u'll understand why.
my Ex as so called is coming round to visit tomorrow, to disuss access and everything about the baby. the thing is i havent seen her in 2 months, becasue of teh long distance move etc.
from the attitude and vibes i picked up on is that 1; she told me o dont think about getting back togetehr with her, in case i get the wrong idea, 2 that what names the child will have is not my option, and that i practically have no choice what the hell goes on, so im being pushed away from my child already!
i looked at a few rights, well in a fact is that becasue we are not married, i have no righjts at all over my child, unless my name is put on the birth certificate that is, but tbh i dont know if she is selfish enough to not even put me on it.
tbh i feel so wreckless, alone, frustrated, angry, and im at teh extreme ends of both good and bad as in what to discuss, as in i've got to teh stage where i can take all teh flack, arguments be unhappy, give everything up i have here in birmngham, including family friends and wrk, adn move down south where i have nothing, and if she doesnt even put me on teh certificate, and is real evil about it im going to be on my own in somewhere i have nothing, not even a house(explaining that im trying to move and will be staying ina hostel). or i can just tel her straight that she is causing me to furiate, since we broke up i have been unpredictably unstable, my emotions appear in the wrong situations, i cant sleep at night becasue all i think about is her. the thing is she told me she broke up with me becasue she was unhappy, ok, but she mentioned a few weeks ago thast she was unhappy for quite a while before, so why the hell break up with me when ur pregnant, and not before so we could have avoided such problems?
im so, i dont know oblivious to everything taht happens in my everyday world, my routine, well if u call it that, i wake up go to wrk, and sit in front of my monitor screen, and go to bed, and do teh same day in day out, dnt wathc tv, dont read a newspaper, so the world events that people talk about, look at me funny when i say i dont know what the hell they are going on about.
i knwo its kind of selfish but from who i am i wouldnt do it, but im shocked that even sicide has popped into my head
and for me tahst well not in my characteristics, im know as a funny guy, respectable and a fgriends of everyone and i can get on with everyone, but why so down for teh past 2 months of my life have i felt so S***,
ive tried to get help, but i cant pick myself up to it.
i cant bear teh idea that a child growing p with a single mother? taht really confuses me as my morals and experiences that it is supposed to be a family, adn ive been labbelled a family guy, but if i cant sort my head out now, then later down teh line am i ever going to be a family man?
i am so so depressed at the minute, to an extent ive been wasting myself away, im not really drinker, well i'd have one beer at a family party or bbq, but lately since she broke up with me ive managed to waste 700 pound i saved up for us on, a psp i dont use, dvd's havent wathced, and alcohol and drum n bass nites out.
and i try to get back on track and i feel as if whast teh point man,
she's most likely (teh character she may become) alienate teh kid into beliveing taht everything is my faukt, i want to see him grow, play football with him, take him nd his mates out to lunch and throw parties on his b'day, but i cant do it alone, thast a family thing right.
man im so... not knowing where i am anymore
been doing abit of research lately on fathers rights, as in if you've read my previous post u'll understand why.
my Ex as so called is coming round to visit tomorrow, to disuss access and everything about the baby. the thing is i havent seen her in 2 months, becasue of teh long distance move etc.
from the attitude and vibes i picked up on is that 1; she told me o dont think about getting back togetehr with her, in case i get the wrong idea, 2 that what names the child will have is not my option, and that i practically have no choice what the hell goes on, so im being pushed away from my child already!
i looked at a few rights, well in a fact is that becasue we are not married, i have no righjts at all over my child, unless my name is put on the birth certificate that is, but tbh i dont know if she is selfish enough to not even put me on it.
tbh i feel so wreckless, alone, frustrated, angry, and im at teh extreme ends of both good and bad as in what to discuss, as in i've got to teh stage where i can take all teh flack, arguments be unhappy, give everything up i have here in birmngham, including family friends and wrk, adn move down south where i have nothing, and if she doesnt even put me on teh certificate, and is real evil about it im going to be on my own in somewhere i have nothing, not even a house(explaining that im trying to move and will be staying ina hostel). or i can just tel her straight that she is causing me to furiate, since we broke up i have been unpredictably unstable, my emotions appear in the wrong situations, i cant sleep at night becasue all i think about is her. the thing is she told me she broke up with me becasue she was unhappy, ok, but she mentioned a few weeks ago thast she was unhappy for quite a while before, so why the hell break up with me when ur pregnant, and not before so we could have avoided such problems?
im so, i dont know oblivious to everything taht happens in my everyday world, my routine, well if u call it that, i wake up go to wrk, and sit in front of my monitor screen, and go to bed, and do teh same day in day out, dnt wathc tv, dont read a newspaper, so the world events that people talk about, look at me funny when i say i dont know what the hell they are going on about.
i knwo its kind of selfish but from who i am i wouldnt do it, but im shocked that even sicide has popped into my head
and for me tahst well not in my characteristics, im know as a funny guy, respectable and a fgriends of everyone and i can get on with everyone, but why so down for teh past 2 months of my life have i felt so S***,ive tried to get help, but i cant pick myself up to it.
i cant bear teh idea that a child growing p with a single mother? taht really confuses me as my morals and experiences that it is supposed to be a family, adn ive been labbelled a family guy, but if i cant sort my head out now, then later down teh line am i ever going to be a family man?
i am so so depressed at the minute, to an extent ive been wasting myself away, im not really drinker, well i'd have one beer at a family party or bbq, but lately since she broke up with me ive managed to waste 700 pound i saved up for us on, a psp i dont use, dvd's havent wathced, and alcohol and drum n bass nites out.
and i try to get back on track and i feel as if whast teh point man,
she's most likely (teh character she may become) alienate teh kid into beliveing taht everything is my faukt, i want to see him grow, play football with him, take him nd his mates out to lunch and throw parties on his b'day, but i cant do it alone, thast a family thing right.man im so... not knowing where i am anymore
