Oh no - I'm out

[LouiseB]

Oh well... That is that.

I knew she was on her way

I was feeling all horny, as I do the night before, and i sit on the loo contemplating another hpt and i start poking around before I pounce on hubby just to make sure.

I think "yikes my cervix is really high, that's a promising sign!" and then I realise my cm is all pinky

Not only am I out but I'm left horny too! And I smell of garlic because I pigged out

It's the worse bedtime ever!

I don't even want to tell nubby right now because I'll start bawling so he's just lying there all sexy reading his book in blissful ignorance! T**t. Stupid sexy hubby.

...Meh, maybe I'll hump him anyway I can start being upset about this tomorrow.

 

[rachaellouise]

I am sorry Louise, are you sure it is the witch though?

 

[Me, My Girls & I]

defo hump him anyway

 

[Lilelephant]

 

[Tracey M]

Oh no....are you sure? Go bd him anyway, could it be implantation or are you passed that stage? Hey, it could just be that you were fiddling with things and got a wee tear? now I think that's what it is....panic not, if you're horny enjoy and see what the morning brings.....

 

[maybe baby]

Oh no!


Well I think I'll be joining you tomorrow.

Hope you're ok.

Still praying it's not AF for us.

xx

 

[Mummy2Adam]

x x


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[Kezzamunster]

Sorry to hear that Hun but my fx it goes & it's not the witch
xxx

 

[LoopyLouize]

Awwww,

But like every body said, It might not be AF just yet! You never know!

xx

 

[LouiseB]

Still praying it's not AF for us.

I hope it isn't for you too Maybe

I had the worst night sleep ever. It must have just been a really light sleep, i didn't know i was awake but i don't feel rested at all - i feel like i haven't slept a wink and my head aches from all the thoughts swirling around but i didn't know i was thinking.

Not got full flow yet but i know it's AF, still getting BFNs for a start and i just feel pre-menstural.

Now i have to think about "what's next?"

I bought this HUGE house and i wanted 4 kids and now i'm thinking - can i afford 4 kids at £8k a pop... should we just move and get some land with a smaller house...?

Then i'm wondering if i should take the opportunity to do some planning and get the house done because i can literally choose when they do private IVF for us - just put it off for a year or two?

I'm just waffling on - bummer.

And if anyone gives me the "it's could be worse" speech, i might have to kill you, i am still at the wallowing in the self pity phase of my dilema

 

[Kezzamunster]

The world is your oyster my lovely & the future is in your hands
Not the greatest advice I know
Pfft.....I hate that "things could be worse" pfft.... No one has that right to say that to anyone
xxx

 

[maybe baby]

Sorry you're having such a poo time Lou!

I think it would be good to refocus your mind for a little while even if it's just from now until Xmas, your head must be spinning with every bit of TTC knowledge there is- Believe me in the past 6 months I've seen you answer every question anyone has ever asked better than Google and with a dose of Louise B style honesty and a cheeky joke.

I think I speak for everyone here in saying that you've been a great help and support to a lot of girls, and that's a really nice thing to have done and I really appreciate all your help and comments.

At the moment things couldn't get any worse you are right- as usual! lol!

But there will be a time when you will have a beautiful family and all this will be a distant memory.

Have to go Xmas shopping now so won't be on til later.

See you then,

Maybe xx

 

[Tracey M]

I'm not gonna say it may be worse cos right now its a BITCH......so sorry honey, 3 of you today had the witch visiting I HATE HER.....

Can you get a catnap later today? And treat yourself to something really naughty and bad for ttc!

 

[SunnyGirl]

Oh no that's shit - sorry to hear that.
What a complete fker the witch is

 

[EmmBee123]

Fx for next time hun.
and have to agree with maybe and tracey.

Try to get some sleep!

Is there no chance it could be IB?

 

[LouiseB]

Fx for next time hun.

Is there no chance it could be IB?

There is no next time... gonna have to have IVF now

No, not IB but thanks for trying to be optimistic

 

[EmmBee123]

Lou, just remember what I said before, know it's not ideal hun, but you'll get through it, and it'll be worth every second to get a BFP.

Another thing, you say 4 children to fill the house, remember IVF carries an increased chance of multiples, so you could fill the house sooner than you think

 

[kizzibea]

That really sucks Louise.

I think you should spoil yourself for the next week, treat yourself to something lovely & just relax a bit. You know we're all here for you if you're feeling like having a rant or just someone to talk to hun.

 

[LouiseB]

I've already had a tant at PF (go sign my petition ) so that felt great and as for treating myself... i tend to like eating but i need a diet - i might buy some gym kit!

 

[EmmBee123]

Or new shoes! that always cheers me up!