Haven't been on here in ages with the fb group. Wish everyone was on fb, but there is only 11 of us. I love seeing all the pics and updates on there. Glad to hear everyone is doing well.
I can't believe how quick this year has gone. The older Aidan gets the busier he keeps me. He started properly walking at 10 months and there's be no looking back. I have to make sure I have something for him to do everyday. He just amazes me. We are still cosleeping and breastfeeding. I thought I would've stopped bf by now, but I really enjoy it and he only feeds a max of twice in the day, so it's mainly night time feeds.
Anyone else getting super emotional? His birthday is just 2 weeks away. No period yet, but I sure feel like I'm on it right now. I've been a blubbering fool this week. It reminds me of when he was 4 weeks old and my dw when back to work. Then I was crying everyday as I missed being pregnant with him and it just being me and him. I didn't want to share him with the world. Now, I'm crying again because I'm going to miss it just being me and him all day. I love watching the little person he's becoming, but I'm really missing the past year. I'm feeling quite lonely too. I miss the various activities we did together and the adult companionship I had. My best friend moved to Devon. Other mums are back to work. We no longer have swimming. And assuming I got the job I interviewed for last week (they are awaiting references), I'll be back at work 4 days a week in June. Whilst I'm excited to watch him group, I'm just simply missing it all, even the craziness of this last year. Don't get me wrong, I'm so ready to get back to work as it's draining finding things to keep him occupied as he's quite inquisitive. I don't know- I guess it's all just hit me. You know they won't be a baby forever, but you're so caught up in the moment that you don't think about it. Now that baby is gone and my little toddler has arrived. I guess I'm also worried that my dw may not want to have a second and that I may never get to experience that first year gain. Although with her being the one to carry the next, should we have another, would be very different. I guess that is hitting me too.
Sorry for the rant of emotions. I just needed to get it out there.