LTTTC Highs and lows

[Blueflower]

I thought I might make a list of my LTTTC highs and lows, feel free to add your own!

Low points first:

• Being handed infertility info by my GP and then seeing my newly married neighbour making a midwife appointment after her surprise pregnancy

• AF arriving on Christmas morning after our first IUI attempt

• Being told that I might have to get both tubes removed

• Looking out of the window after getting an IVF BFN and seeing that my other neighbour was pregnant again and was rubbing her bump

• Hoping to tell my sister and sister in law that I was pregnant but finding out on the same day that they are both pregnant instead

High points:

• Realizing that my DH definitely wants children now and that we’re in it together
• Meeting all the lovely supportive ladies on this forum
• Seeing a couple in our street have adopted 2 adorable children and thinking that could be us

 

[snowbee]

Lovely thread idea Blueflower I hope there are lots of bfps heading to ltttc soon.

Lows: -
Feeling like I've let my husband down
Seeing people having their second when we have been trying since before they tried for their first.
General jealousy I'm feeling towards friends and family who make it seem easy to have what we would like.
Hearing announcements that have the same due date as our mc
The way our consultant spoke to us and made me feel so low
That feeling when you are out and encounter a bump you didn't know about and then having to act like it hasn't affected you

Highs: -
The hope that keeps us going makes me realise how strong we are
When we got our bfp it was just the most amazing feeling, desperate now to get a sticky one
Realising that I love my oh more than I thought was possible

 

[Blueflower]

Lows: -

Seeing people having their second when we have been trying since before they tried for their first.

That feeling when you are out and encounter a bump you didn't know about and then having to act like it hasn't affected you

Those are both horrible ones, very true.
to you.

 

[lisey]

Lows;

Feeling like my body is failing me after 3 miscarriages.
Watching people who were pregnant the same time as me go through their pregnancies and to having their babies and having that constant reminder of what I should also be experiencing.
Seeing my OH who was so positive begin to lose hope.
Not being able to get pregnant as easily as everyone I know.
Having a diagnosis of endometriosis and reduced ovarian reserve.
Feeling like my time is running out at 31.
Watching pregnant women and women with new babies going in and out of the building right next door to my work.
Most of all...the unknown, not knowing if I will ever give my OH a baby or not

Highs;

Absolutely this forum, the lovely women and endless support.
Knowing that if we do get to have our baby the journey will be worth every second.
Seeing that my OH will do absolutely anything for me, he quit smoking within one week of being told it could have contributed to our miscarriages, he was a heavy smoker and I never thought he would quit. He said he couldn't see me sad anymore knowing that it could be a factor. It took a lot for him, he is so supportive and just a wonderful man.

It feels quite good to get that all down, great idea for a thread xx

 

[scn]

Lows
5 miscarriages
Being told there's nothing wrong with me and there's nothing can be done to help me have a baby
Seeing everyone around me having babies and onto their second or third pregnancy since I've been trying for my first
Being nearly 41 and having no hope of ever becoming a mother

Highs
None

 

[dolly26]

What a great thread

lows

Everyone getting pregnant so easily and even getting pregnant with their second babies and I can't even get a slight positive
Feel like I am failing as a woman
Finding out the endometriosis was on the ovaries so I feel like I have wasted 2yrs

highs

My wonderful supportive oh who holds me every time I cry and understands why without even asking
Having a brilliant consultant and getting the help we need
And of course meeting all u lovely ladies who have kept me sane

 

[Clementine]

Lows
1. When we found out our first baby had no heartbeat and my husband asked the nurse to switch the machine off and on to check again - he was so devastated
2. The day our consultant told us that our twins had no heartbeats - this was the most horrible day we had driven to the scan in two separate cars I drove 70miles home crying the whole way, I had such a physical sensation that a little bit of my heart was breaking.
3. Starting to use the words "if we have a baby" rather than "when we have a baby"

Highs
1. Meeting my husband and realizing at the 40 that I wanted to be the mother of his children (even if it might not happen)
2. The day we had our 8 weeks scan and were told we were having twins & they had heartbeats (even though two weeks later they had passed)
3. Realising that I am married to a strong, solid, loving guy who has dried my tears, held my hand and who loves me.

 

[Blueflower]

Lows
5 miscarriages
Being told there's nothing wrong with me and there's nothing can be done to help me have a baby
Seeing everyone around me having babies and onto their second or third pregnancy since I've been trying for my first
Being nearly 41 and having no hope of ever becoming a mother

Highs
None

So sorry you don't have any highs. I really hope things get better for you.

 

[vegas]

Lows
The fear that this actually might not happen for me.
Seeing bfp popping up on Facebook every week and wishing it was me.
Constantly thinking there is something wrong with me.
Feeling like my body is letting me down.

Highs
Getting support from this forum
Have a fab holiday who is always positive about things.

 

[vegas]

* husband