Long time no see...

[Kayleigh1985]

Haven't been around for a while.. Been ttc for 14 months now and approaching the year mark since we had our mc. Been under recent investigation which showed I have a Retroverted uterus and fibroids which we were going to get removed before results came back from a smear test...

Had a colposcopy which showed high grade CIN and they decided I'd need to be given general anaesthetic to remove those cells. They took punch biopsies then and there to confirm grading.

After a horrible wait I went in yesterday to be put out and undergo a LLETZ treatment - only to discover when I woke up that they didn't carry it out. The doctor came around to me in recovery to say that it had spread further than they thought and into my vaginal wall. He did a 'mapping biopsy' (not even sure what that is but I'm pretty sore today!) and couldn't carry out the procedure because I was bleeding heavily and it would have been too risky.

He said he's getting together with a group of different doctors from different expertise to discuss my case and the next form of action. Was told it'll be at a different hospital.

Feeling very confused and very worried. In my head I'm preparing for the worst and that's not a nice thought. Keep thinking I would have my four month old baby right now, getting ready to celebrate Christmas and now I'm just at the total opposite end of the spectrum compared to last year. Sorry for the rant ladies. Need to get it out and not really anyone I can say it all to without it affecting them xx

 

[Birdie]

I don't know you Kayleigh, but wanted to send you a massive hug and very best wishes. I too have fibroids and have had numerous LLETZ procedures due to advanced cell change, but i'm super lucky in that falling pregnant with my son seems to have reversed mine, so I got my first all clear after 15 years, last year. It could so easily have gone the other way and reading your post really made me feel for you.

I wish wholeheartedly hope that whatever the Drs come back with isn't too serious and they can treat you easily and you get the chance to try for your BFP early in the new year. I will be sending lots of Christmas healing vibes your way, all the best x

 

[Kayleigh1985]

Thank you Birdie xxx means a lot

Really feel like I must've done something very wrong to have had the year I've had - started and ended this year in awful circumstances but really hoped yesterday that it would all be over before Christmas. Definitely didn't expect it to be worse. It's the wait for results and consultation that hurts the most. Fingers crossed I hear back soon.

That's incredible that your son's birth sorted things out for you! Were you ok carrying after LLETZ? I've got a short cervix and both my boys were premature (we think it's due to this) and it's a scary thought, them chipping away at my already-small cervix xxx

 

[snowbee]

Hi Kayleigh, gosh you have been having a tough time. I hope that things go well for you in 2016 and that you get our results very soon.