Life really is twisted isnt it?

[laurat]

Hey, im on hols and just sitting down to watch a boxset of one of my cheesy programmes I never admit to liking. In this episode Im watching the angst of two teenagers thinking the girl may be pregnant.

Puts me back to when I was 19 and me and my then boyfriend were up all night with worry that I was late. It was filled with tears and turmoil at the thought of a positive test! It was heartbreaking and I thought my life would be over as I was at Uni and so was he ready to start a new life and career and a baby just wouldnt have been right. ( it was negative after we finally got the nerve to do the test)

Now here I am 12 years later and all I want is a positive. So desperate for it. How everything goes full circle doesnt't it? Life is just mental.

Not really sure why I feel the need to post this but just felt like getting these feelings out!

 

[Sparkle24]

I know what you mean.

I was the same once when i thought i was late i was so stressed. But now all i want is a baby

 

[ScotchEgg]

i know what you mean - i took morning after pill three times with my husband before we started TTC and each time I was so sick with worry after I made my period late.

And then all the time and effort we've put into contraception, yet when we come to try it takes so long!

 

[laurat]

It just feels so hard sometimes on this ttc journey. Even when I got a bfp my heart broke again 2 weeks later. Im now sitting killing time till I go out to meet my 8 month pregnant friend who I am so happy for but im just so hurt at times when I want a bump too.

Guess the solace should be that when I get my own sticky bean I know I will love it more than I ever could!

 

[LouiseB]

It sucks

I've always been quite calm about getting pregnant, if it happens it happens kind of attitude - i'd deal with it and be a mum.

And now i find out i'd never be a mum

I'm lucky in the sense that i find irony quite amusing in a sick kind of way

 

[Esperanza84]

I know! I've never stressed with having babies and when we started ttc I just relaxed. After a couple of months I started to not drink alcohol and stress...now I just hope that with some help, we will get our baby and I realize we just have to have some patience! Life is really twisted yes!

 

[Samsgirl]

life is very unfair.....i really do hope the ladies on here who are desperate for BFPs get their wishes......it p**ses me off when you see drunken/drug filled young kids getting babies at the drop of a hat and then there are lovely, responsible ladies like some on here who would make cracking mums and they're struggling...

very unfair..

xx

 

[DaisyPurple]

I know how your feeling, and yes I know I have been very lucky that I did get my baby who is now 9 years old before I got my BFP with him I had been trying for years and as a very emotional person anyway, I would get really broody when I saw a baby it would remind me that I probably would never have one, the day I found out he was on his way I was shocked and didn't quite believe it, now I find myself 10 years later still waiting for his brother or sister to come along, I am trying to stay positive but sometimes it's hard as the eldest of 4 myself I always expected to have and wanted a large family of my own but at my age I think one more isn't too much to hope for *wish* keep the faith Hun and keep positive xx