Just angry

[Pidgeridoo]

Hang in there hun..I remember this feeling too well when we were ttcing our 2nd, it went on for almost 2 years, I turned into a complete green monster, i remember being so painfully jealous of a friend of mine who invited me to her baby shower, that ( I am ashamed to admit this ), I actually made up a reason and and didn't go...spent all day wallowing in my own sorrow and feeling guilty for the way I ve become and hating the world and discussing IVF with my husband...that month I found out I was pregnant ....that little miracle is 2 years and 3 months old now and is the most gorgeous thing in the whole wide world (well for me that is ) Hang in there buddy, we all get there at the end I am entering this familiar zone of frustration and jealousy for the 3d time now, so feel free to vent, we are all in the same boat xxxxxxx

It's awful isn't it?! OH's best friends wife is due any day and so we will definitely be visiting and buying a gift. I'm thinking a Next voucher as looking at baby clothes or toys could be a bit too tough! I love hearing success stories like yours! They remind me that there is light at the end of the tunnel! Can't wait to feel the happiness and excitement my BFP will bring to OH and I! Thanks for the wee boost hopeful1976!

Next have some amazing clothes. We went there this evening. It was tough

Yea I think they have lovely stuff! When my time comes I would definitely appreciate a next voucher lol And at least the voucher will let our friends choose their own clothes too and saves me from the toughness of having to go shopping for it

 

[LuckyLaura]

Hang in there hun..I remember this feeling too well when we were ttcing our 2nd, it went on for almost 2 years, I turned into a complete green monster, i remember being so painfully jealous of a friend of mine who invited me to her baby shower, that ( I am ashamed to admit this ), I actually made up a reason and and didn't go...spent all day wallowing in my own sorrow and feeling guilty for the way I ve become and hating the world and discussing IVF with my husband...that month I found out I was pregnant ....that little miracle is 2 years and 3 months old now and is the most gorgeous thing in the whole wide world (well for me that is ) Hang in there buddy, we all get there at the end I am entering this familiar zone of frustration and jealousy for the 3d time now, so feel free to vent, we are all in the same boat xxxxxxx

It's awful isn't it?! OH's best friends wife is due any day and so we will definitely be visiting and buying a gift. I'm thinking a Next voucher as looking at baby clothes or toys could be a bit too tough! I love hearing success stories like yours! They remind me that there is light at the end of the tunnel! Can't wait to feel the happiness and excitement my BFP will bring to OH and I! Thanks for the wee boost hopeful1976!

Next have some amazing clothes. We went there this evening. It was tough

Yea I think they have lovely stuff! When my time comes I would definitely appreciate a next voucher lol And at least the voucher will let our friends choose their own clothes too and saves me from the toughness of having to go shopping for it

Exactly plus they will get so many clothes they can identify what they need or even hang on to it and buy clothes when they've grown out of the ones they've got haha

P.s I think I'm obsessed with this forum

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[Pidgeridoo]

Hang in there hun..I remember this feeling too well when we were ttcing our 2nd, it went on for almost 2 years, I turned into a complete green monster, i remember being so painfully jealous of a friend of mine who invited me to her baby shower, that ( I am ashamed to admit this ), I actually made up a reason and and didn't go...spent all day wallowing in my own sorrow and feeling guilty for the way I ve become and hating the world and discussing IVF with my husband...that month I found out I was pregnant ....that little miracle is 2 years and 3 months old now and is the most gorgeous thing in the whole wide world (well for me that is ) Hang in there buddy, we all get there at the end I am entering this familiar zone of frustration and jealousy for the 3d time now, so feel free to vent, we are all in the same boat xxxxxxx

It's awful isn't it?! OH's best friends wife is due any day and so we will definitely be visiting and buying a gift. I'm thinking a Next voucher as looking at baby clothes or toys could be a bit too tough! I love hearing success stories like yours! They remind me that there is light at the end of the tunnel! Can't wait to feel the happiness and excitement my BFP will bring to OH and I! Thanks for the wee boost hopeful1976!

Next have some amazing clothes. We went there this evening. It was tough

Yea I think they have lovely stuff! When my time comes I would definitely appreciate a next voucher lol And at least the voucher will let our friends choose their own clothes too and saves me from the toughness of having to go shopping for it

Exactly plus they will get so many clothes they can identify what they need or even hang on to it and buy clothes when they've grown out of the ones they've got haha

P.s I think I'm obsessed with this forum

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Lol I'm a little bit obsessed too! I like coming on here because nobody in my real life knows that we are ttc and it's great to have somewhere to come to let everything off my chest and where nobody will judge my POAS addiction lol

 

[LuckyLaura]

Hang in there hun..I remember this feeling too well when we were ttcing our 2nd, it went on for almost 2 years, I turned into a complete green monster, i remember being so painfully jealous of a friend of mine who invited me to her baby shower, that ( I am ashamed to admit this ), I actually made up a reason and and didn't go...spent all day wallowing in my own sorrow and feeling guilty for the way I ve become and hating the world and discussing IVF with my husband...that month I found out I was pregnant ....that little miracle is 2 years and 3 months old now and is the most gorgeous thing in the whole wide world (well for me that is ) Hang in there buddy, we all get there at the end I am entering this familiar zone of frustration and jealousy for the 3d time now, so feel free to vent, we are all in the same boat xxxxxxx

It's awful isn't it?! OH's best friends wife is due any day and so we will definitely be visiting and buying a gift. I'm thinking a Next voucher as looking at baby clothes or toys could be a bit too tough! I love hearing success stories like yours! They remind me that there is light at the end of the tunnel! Can't wait to feel the happiness and excitement my BFP will bring to OH and I! Thanks for the wee boost hopeful1976!

Next have some amazing clothes. We went there this evening. It was tough

Yea I think they have lovely stuff! When my time comes I would definitely appreciate a next voucher lol And at least the voucher will let our friends choose their own clothes too and saves me from the toughness of having to go shopping for it

Exactly plus they will get so many clothes they can identify what they need or even hang on to it and buy clothes when they've grown out of the ones they've got haha

P.s I think I'm obsessed with this forum

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Lol I'm a little bit obsessed too! I like coming on here because nobody in my real life knows that we are ttc and it's great to have somewhere to come to let everything off my chest and where nobody will judge my POAS addiction lol

Couldn't have said that better myself haha the only person who knows is my husband and even tho he actually takes an active interest and will always listen I'm always worried of boring him to death. He's too nice to tell me if I am haha I'm having the weirdest day symptom spotting and feeling really out of sorts with having to wait longer to test

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[Alexis2017]

I want af to bugger off so we can try again this month. Wish I could join in on the tww chat with you girls. I am nervous about our assisted conception appointment this month to see if we can get any answers. We tokd a porky pie to get on list sooner as its been 10 months and they wanted 1 year so only 2 months early. I just really need a scan for some answers. Im worried about endo as its auto immune and I already have 2 autoimmune disease so worried I have this too. Good luck girls!

 

[LuckyLaura]

I want af to bugger off so we can try again this month. Wish I could join in on the tww chat with you girls. I am nervous about our assisted conception appointment this month to see if we can get any answers. We tokd a porky pie to get on list sooner as its been 10 months and they wanted 1 year so only 2 months early. I just really need a scan for some answers. Im worried about endo as its auto immune and I already have 2 autoimmune disease so worried I have this too. Good luck girls!

I think you did the right thing telling your porky pie as you would have been going nuts wondering and 2 months isn't that big a difference Life is far too short to be stressed out and worried all the time, the sooner you get your mind put at ease the better or even if you have next steps you've made some progression!

Fx for you!! Was it the 25th you said? It'll fly in! It's already the 3rd and I can't believe it's already October, we had planned to have moved out from my parents by now but we are nowhere near that stage. haha

xxx

 

[Pinkz]

Good luck Alexis. I told a porky about my MC. They said once u have 3 they will test u. That was my 2nd just a few months ago. My gp said it's got to be same partner so we agreed just to tell a porky. Considering it happened at same point I would guess if there is a problem it's clearly with me. Not fair I would have to go through that another 2 times really! Hopefully won't go through it again at all. But yea... sometimes I little white lie isn't too bad

 

[Alexis2017]

Thanks Pinkz and Laura. Yeah 25th. Do you guys think 10 months trying is still okay. Never had even a squinter of a 2nd line. I am just angry at my body right now.

 

[millielaura]

I know a lot of people who got their bfp around the 10-15 month mark x

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[Alexis2017]

Okay hopefully so ! It be lovely to have one before 2017 is out...I can't believe it's october now where has this time gone?

 

[MrsS15]

Sorry some of you are feeling so rubbish. Long term ttc is the hardest thing ever, I really wouldn't wish it on anyone. It's such a rollercoaster!

Alexis I remember being at your stage and I felt total despair. Even though I'm pregnant now, it was years, miscarriages and ivf to get where I am. I still remember the pain of it all! When you do get your baby you'll treasure and cherish every little bit of it. Hang in there, it will happen for you xx

 

[Alexis2017]

Thanks MrsS15 I am feeling so low and just so so so worried it never happens. I really can't imagine it now. It is just a dream for me now. I am one of those women now who is bitter and jealous of ppl with babies and my heart actually hurts when I see a baby or a pregnant women I actually can't deal with it. I really appriciate your insite and I hope to god you are right. A life with no children fpr me will be a lonely and heart breaking one. This 'no baby situation' will never be okay.

 

[Pidgeridoo]

I have just finished filling out my first form for the fertility clinic! Feeling so much more positive now, I feel like we will eventually get our BFP! However that won't stop AF arriving every month and all the announcements that keep on coming hurt any less Just have to keep reminding myself that our turn is getting closer every day

 

[Alexis2017]

I have just finished filling out my first form for the fertility clinic! Feeling so uch more positive now, I feel like we will eventually get our BFP! However that won't stop AF arriving every month and all the announcements that keep on coming hurt any less Just have to keep reminding myself that our turn is getting closer every day

Good luck. I really think it will help me cope better knowing I am doing something about it. Every tiny step no matter how small will hopefully lead to a BFP for all of us.

 

[Pidgeridoo]

As I wrote that comment a friend of a friend just announced she is having her FOURTH! And she is a pretty awful person, she has admitted to trapping her OH by falling pregant with her first after a couple of months together (when he was still seeing other people and really just a bit of a Jack the lad with little interest in settling down) and then caused him to fall out with his mum and some of his brothers to the extent that they haven't met his one year old. All I could think was "seriously world??"I have lost count of the amout of pregnant people around me

 

[Alexis2017]

As I wrote that comment a friend of a friend just announced she is having her FOURTH! And she is a pretty awful person, she has admitted to trapping her OH by falling pregant with her first after a couple of months together (when he was still seeing other people and really just a bit of a Jack the lad with little interest in settling down) and then caused him to fall out with his mum and some of his brothers to the extent that they haven't met his one year old. All I could think was "seriously world??"I have lost count of the amout of pregnant people around me

Yeah I am surrounded by them. It's torture!

 

[Pidgeridoo]

Another day, another pregnancy This time it's a girl who got married a couple of weeks after me. I'm beginning to feel like a failure, the year I got married there was alot of people I know (friends/friends of friends) who also got married and it all the weddings happened within three months of eachother. I'm think I'm now pretty much the last one to be pregnant/have a baby. I know it's not a race but I feel like I'm being left behind It's beginning to feel like the world is playing a big cruel joke on me

 

[LuckyLaura]

Another day, another pregnancy This time it's a girl who got married a couple of weeks after me. I'm beginning to feel like a failure, the year I got married there was alot of people I know (friends/friends of friends) who also got married and it all the weddings happened within three months of eachother. I'm think I'm now pretty much the last one to be pregnant/have a baby. I know it's not a race but I feel like I'm being left behind It's beginning to feel like the world is playing a big cruel joke on me

I'm sorry i know its so incredibly hard but you will get there! I know it hehe we all will and we will be all the more appreciative for the struggle xx

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[Alexis2017]

Another day, another pregnancy This time it's a girl who got married a couple of weeks after me. I'm beginning to feel like a failure, the year I got married there was alot of people I know (friends/friends of friends) who also got married and it all the weddings happened within three months of eachother. I'm think I'm now pretty much the last one to be pregnant/have a baby. I know it's not a race but I feel like I'm being left behind It's beginning to feel like the world is playing a big cruel joke on me

I am exact same. Loads of couples we know got married same year as us 3 years ago and all have babies. We are last couple left. It is a cruel world and it's really unfair but we have to keep finding that hope that it will happen for us and it is just taking longer. Keep dreaming, keep believing and keep on keeping on.

We moved from city flat to a 3 bed house in countryside in hope to have kids and bring them up in the fresh clean air where you can see the stars at night. I know worry it will just be me and DH in a big house isolated from everyone for no reason. I feel if we can't have kids we will have made the wrong move. I really believe the body knows the mind. I am trying to find positivity and believe it can happen. If you think about the effect of stress and worry on the body it won't support a implanting egg. I am now trying to focus on removing any negative thoughts which is very hard but some breathing exercises help and visualisation. I sound like a hippy but I honestly believe in the body and mind connection. When people say it happens when not thinking about it or ecpecting it its probably when your mind isn't worrying and then in turn starting that chain reaction on all the tiny but little important elements that make this all possible.

This will happen for you, start to tell yourself this every day, when your having a bad day or a low moment visualise holding that baby in your arms and Feel the happiness and say ' I will be a mum'.

 

[KatD]

You WILL be a mom Alexis. Even if it takes a little while longer than what you planned on. I also believe that whatever you think and especially what you say will become a reality for you. You and DH aren't infertile, and one day you will be incredible parents to more than just one little rainbow.