Just angry

[LuckyLaura]

That's the same as me. I don't wish them any harm but it's difficult to get my head around these "accidents" when I want this so much!

hugs. I'm just trying to keep busy but then I run myself into the ground too and end up tired and emotional- can't win hehe xx

 

[_GG_]

That's the same as me. I don't wish them any harm but it's difficult to get my head around these "accidents" when I want this so much!

hugs. I'm just trying to keep busy but then I run myself into the ground too and end up tired and emotional- can't win hehe xx

I couldn't get a couple of horses out on Monday because a farmer keeping cattle here had put a huge barrier up in the gateway. I called oh to see what time he'd be home as the owner of the horses was coming to pick them up and I just burst into tears of frustration. He always tells me off and says that my tears come out like that because I always stay strong when it really matters...it's the little things that catch me.

So many friends have had babies recently...in the last few weeks, close friends too so I've been loving the baby cuddles, but it is really hard to see it just happen for them so easily. I do know that, not assuming it. Three honeymoon baby "accidents", one random and two that have me really annoyed because I know the women have tricked their men which I find ultimately dishonest!

I can split the annoyance I feel from my feeling of joy for them though. It's hard sometimes though and makes me want to fucking scream!

 

[Alexis2017]

That's the same as me. I don't wish them any harm but it's difficult to get my head around these "accidents" when I want this so much!

hugs. I'm just trying to keep busy but then I run myself into the ground too and end up tired and emotional- can't win hehe xx

I couldn't get a couple of horses out on Monday because a farmer keeping cattle here had put a huge barrier up in the gateway. I called oh to see what time he'd be home as the owner of the horses was coming to pick them up and I just burst into tears of frustration. He always tells me off and says that my tears come out like that because I always stay strong when it really matters...it's the little things that catch me.

So many friends have had babies recently...in the last few weeks, close friends too so I've been loving the baby cuddles, but it is really hard to see it just happen for them so easily. I do know that, not assuming it. Three honeymoon baby "accidents", one random and two that have me really annoyed because I know the women have tricked their men which I find ultimately dishonest!

I can split the annoyance I feel from my feeling of joy for them though. It's hard sometimes though and makes me want to fucking scream!

Yup 5 of my close friends all have new babies and its like baby 2 or 3 or 4 with no effort trying...2 of them fell 1st time trying each time...the rest all before 6 months. I am the friend who can't get pregnant and feel left out . Why is this so unfair ypu can get pregnant by mistake yet others try and try and try for years

 

[LuckyLaura]

That's the same as me. I don't wish them any harm but it's difficult to get my head around these "accidents" when I want this so much!

hugs. I'm just trying to keep busy but then I run myself into the ground too and end up tired and emotional- can't win hehe xx

I couldn't get a couple of horses out on Monday because a farmer keeping cattle here had put a huge barrier up in the gateway. I called oh to see what time he'd be home as the owner of the horses was coming to pick them up and I just burst into tears of frustration. He always tells me off and says that my tears come out like that because I always stay strong when it really matters...it's the little things that catch me.

So many friends have had babies recently...in the last few weeks, close friends too so I've been loving the baby cuddles, but it is really hard to see it just happen for them so easily. I do know that, not assuming it. Three honeymoon baby "accidents", one random and two that have me really annoyed because I know the women have tricked their men which I find ultimately dishonest!

I can split the annoyance I feel from my feeling of joy for them though. It's hard sometimes though and makes me want to fucking scream!

Yup 5 of my close friends all have new babies and its like baby 2 or 3 or 4 with no effort trying...2 of them fell 1st time trying each time...the rest all before 6 months. I am the friend who can't get pregnant and feel left out . Why is this so unfair ypu can get pregnant by mistake yet others try and try and try for years

Agreed. I'm so angry at the moment I need to try to get it under control

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[Pinkz]

Even just reading about honeymoon babies has made me angry because I'm looking at dh thinking why didn't we just try/not be careful on our honeymoon!

 

[_GG_]

In the vein of being irrationally downright mean, I found myself being a total snob earlier looking at a mum in B&Q whose children were all asking her for help as the toddler had wet himself and for the entire 20 minutes we were in there, we could hear her shouting things like, "leave me aline for fucks sake, this is grown up time". They were regularly out of her sight and all I could think was that she shouldn't have been able to breed and the injustice of being able to have children but treating them like that. I wanted to fucking throttle her!

 

[Pinkz]

How do those people find it so easy. I swear it's something to do with working and/or having self respect!

 

[LuckyLaura]

In the vein of being irrationally downright mean, I found myself being a total snob earlier looking at a mum in B&Q whose children were all asking her for help as the toddler had wet himself and for the entire 20 minutes we were in there, we could hear her shouting things like, "leave me aline for fucks sake, this is grown up time". They were regularly out of her sight and all I could think was that she shouldn't have been able to breed and the injustice of being able to have children but treating them like that. I wanted to fucking throttle her!

I don't even blame u for thinking that id have been the same. It's frustrating at people who take their kids for granted and even treat them like an inconvenience when there are so many people struggling xx

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[Maximus17]

Can I join too please. I have had the worst day at work cutting down and redundancies and the only thing keeps me going is imagining having a baby than my husband says do you think it's a good idea if your job is in jeopardy! I knew deep down it's not a good idea but it never is. I couldn't sleep all night with worry and now he might not even want to try

 

[LuckyLaura]

Can I join too please. I have had the worst day at work cutting down and redundancies and the only thing keeps me going is imagining having a baby than my husband says do you think it's a good idea if your job is in jeopardy! I knew deep down it's not a good idea but it never is. I couldn't sleep all night with worry and now he might not even want to try

I'm so sorry It is horrible when you are worried your circumstances aren't right. We are also in that position too but we have decided that you can wait a lifetime for the "right time" and life throws all it has at you at any time so we are going to keep on keeping on with it xx

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[Maximus17]

Thank you for your reply I really hope he changes his mind about it but like you said how long do you wait for there is never a good time ...

 

[Sparklegirl]

It feels as if I started this thread. The last week or two particularly, I have been in floods of tears with it all. Everywhere I look on FB there are so many pg announcements or births happening. Lots of accidents happening, lots of people having their 3rd or more- it is killing me to see them everywhere. The latest one is in a bad relationship and I feel terrible for saying it but why do they deserve to have a second when they are not stable but we have been trying for a long time and settled but we just cant do it.

Feels very much like I am a let down, why is my body not co-operating with the only thing we want. I am looking into trying reflexology as a last ditch attempt, I need something to get me out of this ever increasing depression I am feeling. Last few days I have spent more time crying than not

The wife of a good friend has had her rainbow baby and he sent me a pic right away, it wasnt common knowledge. This is truly the only time in a long time that I have been seriously thrilled for a baby announcement. They really do deserve it and are such nice people, I cried happy tears for them. I talk to him about our struggles so he knows whats what with myself and my husband. I went round for a cuddle and fell in love completely, he was such a beautiful sweetheart but tugged at my heart that this might be the last time that I get to hold a baby. He wondered why I had not brought my husband with me, but I thought it insensitive to to take him there just a few days after him having a sperm analysis and before we got the results.

I wish all of you lovely ladies the very best of luck and lots of baby dust and fingers crossed for a BFP for us all

 

[LuckyLaura]

Thank you for your reply I really hope he changes his mind about it but like you said how long do you wait for there is never a good time ...

Aww me too hugsss. He's probably just stressed I'm sure it'll all work itself out xx

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[_GG_]

It feels as if I started this thread. The last week or two particularly, I have been in floods of tears with it all. Everywhere I look on FB there are so many pg announcements or births happening. Lots of accidents happening, lots of people having their 3rd or more- it is killing me to see them everywhere. The latest one is in a bad relationship and I feel terrible for saying it but why do they deserve to have a second when they are not stable but we have been trying for a long time and settled but we just cant do it.

Feels very much like I am a let down, why is my body not co-operating with the only thing we want. I am looking into trying reflexology as a last ditch attempt, I need something to get me out of this ever increasing depression I am feeling. Last few days I have spent more time crying than not

The wife of a good friend has had her rainbow baby and he sent me a pic right away, it wasnt common knowledge. This is truly the only time in a long time that I have been seriously thrilled for a baby announcement. They really do deserve it and are such nice people, I cried happy tears for them. I talk to him about our struggles so he knows whats what with myself and my husband. I went round for a cuddle and fell in love completely, he was such a beautiful sweetheart but tugged at my heart that this might be the last time that I get to hold a baby. He wondered why I had not brought my husband with me, but I thought it insensitive to to take him there just a few days after him having a sperm analysis and before we got the results.

I wish all of you lovely ladies the very best of luck and lots of baby dust and fingers crossed for a BFP for us all

Awww bless you. I know exactly how you feel, lots of us ladies do. It's the best thing about this place...we don't and won't judge.

Really hope the tests bring up something that can be sorted out quickly. Xx

 

[LuckyLaura]

It feels as if I started this thread. The last week or two particularly, I have been in floods of tears with it all. Everywhere I look on FB there are so many pg announcements or births happening. Lots of accidents happening, lots of people having their 3rd or more- it is killing me to see them everywhere. The latest one is in a bad relationship and I feel terrible for saying it but why do they deserve to have a second when they are not stable but we have been trying for a long time and settled but we just cant do it.

Feels very much like I am a let down, why is my body not co-operating with the only thing we want. I am looking into trying reflexology as a last ditch attempt, I need something to get me out of this ever increasing depression I am feeling. Last few days I have spent more time crying than not

The wife of a good friend has had her rainbow baby and he sent me a pic right away, it wasnt common knowledge. This is truly the only time in a long time that I have been seriously thrilled for a baby announcement. They really do deserve it and are such nice people, I cried happy tears for them. I talk to him about our struggles so he knows whats what with myself and my husband. I went round for a cuddle and fell in love completely, he was such a beautiful sweetheart but tugged at my heart that this might be the last time that I get to hold a baby. He wondered why I had not brought my husband with me, but I thought it insensitive to to take him there just a few days after him having a sperm analysis and before we got the results.

I wish all of you lovely ladies the very best of luck and lots of baby dust and fingers crossed for a BFP for us all

Good luck with the test results and we all have our fingers crossed for u! Xx

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[Pidgeridoo]

TTC is getting to me a bit again this evening! OH is working tonight so I have had plenty of time to sit on FB! There are a few girls I know who are all due in the next few weeks and they have been putting up pictures of how excited they are it's October and they finally get to meet their baby this month Just an attack of the green eyed monster I guess! Holding on tight to my tiny bit of positivity that now we're getting help we will someday (hopefully soon) have our baby!

 

[hopeful1976]

Hang in there hun..I remember this feeling too well when we were ttcing our 2nd, it went on for almost 2 years, I turned into a complete green monster, i remember being so painfully jealous of a friend of mine who invited me to her baby shower, that ( I am ashamed to admit this ), I actually made up a reason and and didn't go...spent all day wallowing in my own sorrow and feeling guilty for the way I ve become and hating the world and discussing IVF with my husband...that month I found out I was pregnant ....that little miracle is 2 years and 3 months old now and is the most gorgeous thing in the whole wide world (well for me that is ) Hang in there buddy, we all get there at the end I am entering this familiar zone of frustration and jealousy for the 3d time now, so feel free to vent, we are all in the same boat xxxxxxx

 

[Pidgeridoo]

Hang in there hun..I remember this feeling too well when we were ttcing our 2nd, it went on for almost 2 years, I turned into a complete green monster, i remember being so painfully jealous of a friend of mine who invited me to her baby shower, that ( I am ashamed to admit this ), I actually made up a reason and and didn't go...spent all day wallowing in my own sorrow and feeling guilty for the way I ve become and hating the world and discussing IVF with my husband...that month I found out I was pregnant ....that little miracle is 2 years and 3 months old now and is the most gorgeous thing in the whole wide world (well for me that is ) Hang in there buddy, we all get there at the end I am entering this familiar zone of frustration and jealousy for the 3d time now, so feel free to vent, we are all in the same boat xxxxxxx

It's awful isn't it?! OH's best friends wife is due any day and so we will definitely be visiting and buying a gift. I'm thinking a Next voucher as looking at baby clothes or toys could be a bit too tough! I love hearing success stories like yours! They remind me that there is light at the end of the tunnel! Can't wait to feel the happiness and excitement my BFP will bring to OH and I! Thanks for the wee boost hopeful1976!

 

[LuckyLaura]

TTC is getting to me a bit again this evening! OH is working tonight so I have had plenty of time to sit on FB! There are a few girls I know who are all due in the next few weeks and they have been putting up pictures of how excited they are it's October and they finally get to meet their baby this month Just an attack of the green eyed monster I guess! Holding on tight to my tiny bit of positivity that now we're getting help we will someday (hopefully soon) have our baby!

Aww xx I've been going stir crazy this evening. We were baby clothes shopping for my wee niece so naturally that is very helpful for my mental state of mind...haha xx

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[LuckyLaura]

Hang in there hun..I remember this feeling too well when we were ttcing our 2nd, it went on for almost 2 years, I turned into a complete green monster, i remember being so painfully jealous of a friend of mine who invited me to her baby shower, that ( I am ashamed to admit this ), I actually made up a reason and and didn't go...spent all day wallowing in my own sorrow and feeling guilty for the way I ve become and hating the world and discussing IVF with my husband...that month I found out I was pregnant ....that little miracle is 2 years and 3 months old now and is the most gorgeous thing in the whole wide world (well for me that is ) Hang in there buddy, we all get there at the end I am entering this familiar zone of frustration and jealousy for the 3d time now, so feel free to vent, we are all in the same boat xxxxxxx

It's awful isn't it?! OH's best friends wife is due any day and so we will definitely be visiting and buying a gift. I'm thinking a Next voucher as looking at baby clothes or toys could be a bit too tough! I love hearing success stories like yours! They also reminf me that there is light at the end of the tunnel! Can't wait to feel the happiness and excitement my BFP will bring to OH and I! Thanks for the wee boost hopeful1976!

Next have some amazing clothes. We went there this evening. It was tough