im soooo angry

[Amyrose]

I left Ireland almost a year ago due to a very bad situation with my family and my ex. It was so serious that i left my house and all my belongings behind it killed me to do so but i knew it was the best thing for me and my kids. Not talking to my family is not something i have done lightly and it really hurts me that it had to be like this but sometimes people a re so toxic you just have to remove them from your life. since i moved with the help of my hubby (hes from the uk and worked here so he was in Ireland every second week) we have a lovely home and nice family around my in laws! I live in a very secluded area and get quite lonely so hubby suggested we get the Internet in and i get in touch with some close friends from Ireland whom i could trust. I reluctantly did this and really enjoyed having a chat with some old friends and posting pics of the kids to show them how they are enjoying there new life and how happy we all are.
This morning while checking my emails i had one from my sister saying she had seen my pics and knew all about my mc ect ect. im so bloody angry that someone would betray me knowing how my family have treated us i feel so hurt that someone i thought was a close friend would risk my family's safety. I am also so annoyed with myself for letting my guard down.
I have deleted all my irish friends from facebook and now feel very hurt and very alone again i just cant understand how people can be like this?

 

[LouiseB]

I think maybe your friends just possibly underestimated the whole situation?

It's hard for people to understand families literally not having contact anymore.

I'm really sad to hear about everything that you've had to go through but maybe it is just a reminder of why you had to go to such drastic measures in the first place and can make you feel a bit more justifed in how much better off you are now

I know it sucks to feel so isolated. I moved away from my family and friends about 5 years ago now and then moved again since so it's been hard to make any friends but i'm still trying.

My main friend at the moment is someone that i met by going to the mobile library and asking the old biddies if they knew anyone that lived nearby about my age and one of them took me to a house, knocked on the door and told the lady that answered that i wanted a brew and wondered off! I made an effort to go around about once per week for a year and we're good friends now - it just takes time

You can always chat to me if you're feeling that desparate lol

 

[Amyrose]

Aw thanks lou thats made me cry! I can narrow it down to 1 person but what hurts the most is its the lady that helped me get away in the first place she helped me get the kids to the ferry without anyone finding us. she has been my next door neighbour for 12 years and has seen exactly what i have been through. just goes to show you never truly know anyone. Its my own stupid fault for being on facebook anyway for i cant go blaming her.

I am trying very hard to make friends but i have been very wrapped up in making the kids feel happy and secure that i tend to put my needs on the back burner.

Im so happy i have this site as i think there a lot of really sweet honest ladies here.
Thanks again Lou its nice to know someone in the same boat. you always have very good words of wisdom and always love to read your posts and you do make me giggle lol xxxx

 

[LouiseB]

It's crazy to think of anyone having to make that kind of getaway, it musy have been so hard

Oh i keep forgetting you already have kids, they are a great way of meeting friends I don't know how old they are but any kind of playgroup or local activity will be packed with other mums and you can just take your pick and ask someone if they fancy meeting up at a local park and going for coffee or whatever.

I bet there are loads of lonely people out there just like us

 

[cosmicgirl]

Unfortunately sometimes people you trust turn out to be a right tit. You know better now and use this as a learning curve, don't let it stop you trusting though xxx

 

[Amyrose]

Thanks girls xxxx

 

[NinjaKitty]

So sorry Amy. You are very brave, it takes big kahoonas to get out of bad situations like that so you deserve all the kudos for doing it. It's bang out of order that someone trusted has spilt the beans, I honestly can't fathom some people.

Dunno what I can say to help other than you can count on us for support.

 

[cosmicgirl]

Yeah, we're always here xx

 

[Amyrose]

Thanks Ninja ive calmed down about it now. Feeling angry wont change it. My hubby said it must have sickened them all to see how happy all the kiddies are in my pics as i have been getting countless emails telling me i must be living in the gutter haha I think i will just squint at hubby for a bit and imagine hes Robbie aka Girth man lol

 

[dita_parlo]

Amy thats horrible, I can't understand why someone would do something like that, especially somebody who was so aware of the situation at the time. We're all here for you hunny, I know what you mean. I feel lonely a lot because since we cut off contact with my husbands family I have nobody as his cousins etc were all my best friends. I wish that all the TTC girls lived in the same street so we all had people around us. I'd love to have loads of friends

 

[FebMum2Be]

Sounds like you have been through a lot hun, it's sad that the people you trusted let you down. At the end of the day, you know in your heart that your kids are happy, and you both live a happy life. If they can't stand that it's their problem I just don't get people sometimes, don't beat yourself up for letting your guard down, you only contacted people you thought you could trust xx

 

[Amyrose]

Amy thats horrible, I can't understand why someone would do something like that, especially somebody who was so aware of the situation at the time. We're all here for you hunny, I know what you mean. I feel lonely a lot because since we cut off contact with my husbands family I have nobody as his cousins etc were all my best friends. I wish that all the TTC girls lived in the same street so we all had people around us. I'd love to have loads of friends

I tend to live in my own little happy bubble most of the time. I just miss girlie chats is all. Its funny how things change i used to get tired of having people calling round for cups of tea and a good old chin wag now i stalk the postman so i can have someone to talk to. Hmmm that reminds me i dont get post anymore i think i scared him off hahaha

 

[Amyrose]

Sounds like you have been through a lot hun, it's sad that the people you trusted let you down. At the end of the day, you know in your heart that your kids are happy, and you both live a happy life. If they can't stand that it's their problem I just don't get people sometimes, don't beat yourself up for letting your guard down, you only contacted people you thought you could trust xx

Thanks hun i love the support i get here you girls are fab xxxxx

 

[FebMum2Be]

@ Stalking the postman, what about some baby groups hun? That's always a great way to meet new friends x

Also there are a few girls from different areas organizing a PF meet up, one of those might be close to you x

 

[Amyrose]

thanks i think i will look into it xxxxxxxxx

 

[cosmicgirl]

Where do you live Amy. *cosmic hides in a tree outside to catch a glimpse of the girth lol

 

[Amyrose]

I live in an old coach house just outside Lincoln. Its surrounded by trees and 10 foot high walls with barbed wire and broken glass on top. sadly Robbie cant come to the window right now hes chained to a bed with a measuring tape wrapped round his bits!

 

[cosmicgirl]

*cosmic packs compass and map as has no idea where Lincoln is, also packs wire cutter, knee pads and 12 foot ladder lol xx

 

[Amyrose]

my measuring tape says it will actually reach you over the wall

 

[cosmicgirl]

my measuring tape says it will actually reach you over the wall