PerfectStorm
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It's taken me 8 days to post in this board, often starting posts and then deleting them, as I guess, in the nicest possible way, I don't want to be part of your group. I want to be posting in the other categories like I was 10 days ago.
I went for a scan last Wednesday after having a little bleeding and was told that there was no baby or yolk in the gestational sac - the sac also had the appearance of irregular 6 weeks instead of the 7.5 weeks I should be, and it seems the baby has gone. I have to go back for a further scan next Wednesday, in case dates were wrong, but it is just a formality as I have continued to bleed on and off and have cramps, don't have any pregnancy symptoms and know without a doubt that my dates weren't wrong as I kept everything noted in a diary and got my bfp only 8 days post ovulation.
I have asked the hospital to scan me again sooner, have been asking since the last one, but they are refusing to do so, despite agreeing that it is obvious I have lost the baby, because of 'protocol.' Now that I have started to have red blood, rather than brown, they fully expect me to physically miscarry over the next few days, but still will not scan me. I feel I am being forced into dealing with this naturally, rather than a ERPC, when that may not be what I want. I just want to talk to hospital and be given the options so I can make an informed decision. It may be that natural is the way I choose to deal with it, but at least it would be my choice. Instead I feel like they are forcing this way upon me, without any consideration for what I want. Erm, hello, this is happening to ME.
The waiting is awful - every twinge I wonder if the real thing, rather than just light bleeding, is going to start, and I'm really nervous, in fact quite scared, as to what is going to happen. The hospital told me that I would get a heavy period, but from what I have read on sites such as these and others, it seems much worse. The thought of passing clots or anything identifiable as the sac, makes me feel physically sick. The last few nights, I keep waking up in the middle of the night with bad cramps and a bit more bleeding but I eventually manage to get back to sleep and by morning I feel fine again, just a bit of a tight feeling, rather than cramping.
It sounds awful, but I just want it over with. This waiting for the inevitable to finally happen is torture.
Emotionally, I am up and down like a rollercoaster. I range from feeling, somewhat bizarrely, positive one minute and thinking I am coping well, to being a crying mess the next minute.
Sorry for rambling, but I just wanted to get the words out, to someone who may actually understand how I feel. I'm just sorry that any of us have to go through this.
I went for a scan last Wednesday after having a little bleeding and was told that there was no baby or yolk in the gestational sac - the sac also had the appearance of irregular 6 weeks instead of the 7.5 weeks I should be, and it seems the baby has gone. I have to go back for a further scan next Wednesday, in case dates were wrong, but it is just a formality as I have continued to bleed on and off and have cramps, don't have any pregnancy symptoms and know without a doubt that my dates weren't wrong as I kept everything noted in a diary and got my bfp only 8 days post ovulation.
I have asked the hospital to scan me again sooner, have been asking since the last one, but they are refusing to do so, despite agreeing that it is obvious I have lost the baby, because of 'protocol.' Now that I have started to have red blood, rather than brown, they fully expect me to physically miscarry over the next few days, but still will not scan me. I feel I am being forced into dealing with this naturally, rather than a ERPC, when that may not be what I want. I just want to talk to hospital and be given the options so I can make an informed decision. It may be that natural is the way I choose to deal with it, but at least it would be my choice. Instead I feel like they are forcing this way upon me, without any consideration for what I want. Erm, hello, this is happening to ME.
The waiting is awful - every twinge I wonder if the real thing, rather than just light bleeding, is going to start, and I'm really nervous, in fact quite scared, as to what is going to happen. The hospital told me that I would get a heavy period, but from what I have read on sites such as these and others, it seems much worse. The thought of passing clots or anything identifiable as the sac, makes me feel physically sick. The last few nights, I keep waking up in the middle of the night with bad cramps and a bit more bleeding but I eventually manage to get back to sleep and by morning I feel fine again, just a bit of a tight feeling, rather than cramping.
It sounds awful, but I just want it over with. This waiting for the inevitable to finally happen is torture.
Emotionally, I am up and down like a rollercoaster. I range from feeling, somewhat bizarrely, positive one minute and thinking I am coping well, to being a crying mess the next minute.
Sorry for rambling, but I just wanted to get the words out, to someone who may actually understand how I feel. I'm just sorry that any of us have to go through this.