kirlou
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I dont know what to say, what to type all i know is that i cant carry on this was! its driving me insane! Even as i am sitting and typing i cant see through the tears!
We have just got back from the drs after having hubbys sperm results, he had high abmormal sperm and has to retes, dr said most retests come back with better results from the 1st but not so sure myself. We had only just made it to the car door before having an argument co i asked him to book it with a dr that wasnt a locum but he had ignored that and just booked with any old dr saying how was he supposed to know (the txt said "make sure to say we dont want to see a locum") and now i am sitting downstairs while he is upstairs and all i want is a cuddle and some reasurance!
I am so damn fed up with people including drs saying "oh well at least you have 1 child" IF I ONLY WANTED ONE I WOULDNT BE TRYING AGAIN AS HARD AS I AM TRYING!!!
This is cycle 19 and i really dont know what to do anymore! i dont sleep at night, its got to the point where unless we are bding at the right times oh and i dont ee tend to sit in the same room most days, we havent had a cuddle in bed in weeks and i dont like being like this!
When the dr told him he needed to retest i can home and asked when he was going to do it and his response was "when the f*** do i have time, some of us are at work all day!" (i only was 3 full days and 2 mornings). Sometimes i feel like i dont even want to bother trying for another baby anymore! The more stressed out i get the harder it becomes, the harder it becomes the more stressed out i get. I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore, and im just feeling like i should give up, but i dont think i could, i dont think i could even swap to ntnp.
Im so sorry to go on, i just dont have anyone i can say all of this too and i need to get it off my chest cos it is actually draining the life from me!!!
We have just got back from the drs after having hubbys sperm results, he had high abmormal sperm and has to retes, dr said most retests come back with better results from the 1st but not so sure myself. We had only just made it to the car door before having an argument co i asked him to book it with a dr that wasnt a locum but he had ignored that and just booked with any old dr saying how was he supposed to know (the txt said "make sure to say we dont want to see a locum") and now i am sitting downstairs while he is upstairs and all i want is a cuddle and some reasurance!
I am so damn fed up with people including drs saying "oh well at least you have 1 child" IF I ONLY WANTED ONE I WOULDNT BE TRYING AGAIN AS HARD AS I AM TRYING!!!
This is cycle 19 and i really dont know what to do anymore! i dont sleep at night, its got to the point where unless we are bding at the right times oh and i dont ee tend to sit in the same room most days, we havent had a cuddle in bed in weeks and i dont like being like this!
When the dr told him he needed to retest i can home and asked when he was going to do it and his response was "when the f*** do i have time, some of us are at work all day!" (i only was 3 full days and 2 mornings). Sometimes i feel like i dont even want to bother trying for another baby anymore! The more stressed out i get the harder it becomes, the harder it becomes the more stressed out i get. I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore, and im just feeling like i should give up, but i dont think i could, i dont think i could even swap to ntnp.
Im so sorry to go on, i just dont have anyone i can say all of this too and i need to get it off my chest cos it is actually draining the life from me!!!