honeybear
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Heya ladies so lovely to see new faces and excited regulars.
Some members will know I've been through the mill last few weeks
Including two hospital stays one for previous health condition and one for baby and contractions
The babies dad has been in an out all pregnancy and so selfish and hasn't grown up at all or got anything for the baby I've had to do it all including being turfed out my parents signed off work and poorly. He visited me once in hospital even when I thought I was in,labour and they couldn't find his heart beat he never turned up then.
This weekend he had some kind of appifaney took me to the Christmas markets but I felt so sad it wasn't the same anymore he didn't even hold my hand..yesterday was a day of tears he rang me all say saying how sorry he was and he loved me and should have done more... But it felt like words even with the endless tears. I said I didn't love him anymore as he left me through the hardest times and put his friends over me and the baby, undermimed me at times throwing paternity dna in there.
The whole things left me heart broken and I wish we could go back because I want it to be like when we where happy. The last conversation we had last night I was so sad I couldn't stop crying he let it get the way it has despite my effort. I told him It had taken its toll and meeting up to talk wouldn't work anymore and if he did love us he would have done more or been on my friends door step apologising. I said can I go now at the end of the call and he was silent and said yeah and that's how Its left.
Do you think I've done the right thing not forgiving him this time? I feel totally abandoned by him and insulted of his priorities x
Some members will know I've been through the mill last few weeks
Including two hospital stays one for previous health condition and one for baby and contractions
The babies dad has been in an out all pregnancy and so selfish and hasn't grown up at all or got anything for the baby I've had to do it all including being turfed out my parents signed off work and poorly. He visited me once in hospital even when I thought I was in,labour and they couldn't find his heart beat he never turned up then.
This weekend he had some kind of appifaney took me to the Christmas markets but I felt so sad it wasn't the same anymore he didn't even hold my hand..yesterday was a day of tears he rang me all say saying how sorry he was and he loved me and should have done more... But it felt like words even with the endless tears. I said I didn't love him anymore as he left me through the hardest times and put his friends over me and the baby, undermimed me at times throwing paternity dna in there.
The whole things left me heart broken and I wish we could go back because I want it to be like when we where happy. The last conversation we had last night I was so sad I couldn't stop crying he let it get the way it has despite my effort. I told him It had taken its toll and meeting up to talk wouldn't work anymore and if he did love us he would have done more or been on my friends door step apologising. I said can I go now at the end of the call and he was silent and said yeah and that's how Its left.
Do you think I've done the right thing not forgiving him this time? I feel totally abandoned by him and insulted of his priorities x