Hey again,
I FINALLY stopped bleeding last week, i think it was only becuase i started taking the pill though coz i just couldnt deal with it anymore.. i miscarried on 6th June (that was when i had the tablet thingy) so thats 6 weeks tomorrow. Sigh.
The pregnancy tests i KEEP doing because im silly are still coming back positive.. Its really getting me down.
I cant believe im actually gonna write this - but... i really want a baby.. As most of the people who have followed my posts on here will know, the pregnancy was a COMPLETE mistake.. i was on the pill etc, and it was really unexpected because i was never silly with it or missed one or sickness etc. But yeah, me & my OH have now split up, we were together for over a year, we were really good together - but since i lost the baby i havent felt close to him. im not upset as such, i was at first obviously, but the way Aaron just carried on as normal really hurt. He didnt want the baby and made it clear to me, and that upset me. But yes, we arent togetrher anymore and im glad we aren't. I'm getting on with my life, or so i thought iwas. but im really not. i desperately want a baby, its always on my mind..
what the hell can i do? and the really mad part about this, is that about 4 weeks ago i met a guy when i went out for the first time after miscarrying, and we got talking etc, and weve been seeing eachother ever snce - BUT, he's 28.. i'm only 20.. its mad, because normally i wouldnt go for this type of thing, like i would normally go for some loser who goes out drinking most nights and has no plans for the future either - but i cant help thinking that im going for this guy simply because he's set up and older, ie children. what do you think?
well im totally rambled my way though that lol... apologies..
I FINALLY stopped bleeding last week, i think it was only becuase i started taking the pill though coz i just couldnt deal with it anymore.. i miscarried on 6th June (that was when i had the tablet thingy) so thats 6 weeks tomorrow. Sigh.
The pregnancy tests i KEEP doing because im silly are still coming back positive.. Its really getting me down.
I cant believe im actually gonna write this - but... i really want a baby.. As most of the people who have followed my posts on here will know, the pregnancy was a COMPLETE mistake.. i was on the pill etc, and it was really unexpected because i was never silly with it or missed one or sickness etc. But yeah, me & my OH have now split up, we were together for over a year, we were really good together - but since i lost the baby i havent felt close to him. im not upset as such, i was at first obviously, but the way Aaron just carried on as normal really hurt. He didnt want the baby and made it clear to me, and that upset me. But yes, we arent togetrher anymore and im glad we aren't. I'm getting on with my life, or so i thought iwas. but im really not. i desperately want a baby, its always on my mind..
what the hell can i do? and the really mad part about this, is that about 4 weeks ago i met a guy when i went out for the first time after miscarrying, and we got talking etc, and weve been seeing eachother ever snce - BUT, he's 28.. i'm only 20.. its mad, because normally i wouldnt go for this type of thing, like i would normally go for some loser who goes out drinking most nights and has no plans for the future either - but i cant help thinking that im going for this guy simply because he's set up and older, ie children. what do you think?
well im totally rambled my way though that lol... apologies..