Hi everyone, I'm not really sure why I'm posting here... but I just need to get things out I'm just feeling really down. I'm coming off the depo and waiting for my cycles to return. I know that it's something I have done to myself, but that just makes it feel worse. I know it could be a year yet until I get anything... and even then that might just be a year until the doctors will help me if my periods don't return. I only had two shots of the depo, my last one in August, so was due in October. I stupidly thought having only a couple of shots wouldn't take as long to come out of my system... as I'd been on it for 4 years before and it took 9 months. Again, stupidly I didn't research before going back on it, as circumstances changed and I didn't know when we'd be trying. I can't go on the pill as it messes with my hormones like crazy... we were getting married and I was due to be on my period on the wedding day and also didn't want to use condoms on honeymoon-STUPID reasons now I look back, I had perfectly good cycles and I've gone and messed that up. Anyway, so I know it's early days... two and a half months off the depo I shouldn't be expecting to see anything. However my sister was on it twice, once for 4 years and it took her periods a year to return... then for one year and she was pregnant within 5 months of coming off... I know everyone is different so I shouldn't compare, but I can't help but think well... that could be me, why haven't my periods returned yet!? I try to take my mind off it, but at times I get really strong symptoms... sore and enlarged boobs, back ache, cramps, CM ect... but still no sign of a period and no ovulation (I've used cheap online tests when I've had the symptoms) I try not to let it happen, but I feel disappointment every time I go to the toilet and the paper is clear after I wipe. I just don't know what to do... well I know there is nothing I can do, this is something I have done to myself and there's no taking it back, I just have to wait.