Feeling down

[LucyR]

Sorry not much help to anyone I just need to put it out there I think. I feel so down and alone at the moment I can’t bounce back this time everything just gets me down it’s been four weeks since my fourth miscarriage and I just don’t feel like me still don’t really know what to do

 

[night owl]

So sorry you’re going through this, life is so unfair at times, I wish I had some useful advice to offer you....of course you are not just gonna bounce back, what you are going through is horrible and you are going to feel the way you do, you wouldn’t be normal if you weren’t struggling right now! I hope you are getting good medical care and proper investigation into your MCs x

 

[LucyR]

Thanks I just really rubbish doesn’t help that I think I may have my first period soon as I’m cranky moody back hurts sore boobs etc. I also have a cold don’t ask me how in all this hot weather! Only another 3 months until my hosp appointment x

 

[night owl]

Well it is a bit unusual to have a cold in this kind of weather! Your immune system is probably not at is best right now because your body’s gone through a lot, Its something to look forward to that you’ve got a hospital appointment, in a weird way! I assume it’s for investigations, just keep focusing on getting to that date, fingers crossed that date marks the turning point in your journey and puts you on the road to your baby x

 

[LucyR]

Yeah I know I thank you! It’s just been an emotional week my sister in law just had her baby and I’d be ready to pop if I hadn’t had my second miscarriage so as much as I’m really happy for them I’m looking at what I could have had and I hate my self for feeling that way. Yep for investigations but Im also waiting for the results of the tissue that was tested x

 

[night owl]

Oh I don’t blame you for feeling down about a new baby in the family, I’ve suffered 2 pregnancy announcements this week lol, they seem to be coming thick and fast at the moment! I’m happy for them but I cannot help thinking I should be 16 weeks now, getting my bump through and getting nervous about my 20 week scan, it is sad, it’s hard just pushing those thoughts away, No one knows apart from my OH and my mum, I feel like I have to be strong in front of them so they don’t get worried about me, so this forum is such a godsend for me and others who also need the outlet, hope you feel better soon and your period isn’t too punishing when it arrives x

 

[LucyR]

Yeah I feel better today and all period symptoms have gone so who knows when that will happen x