Feel like it will never happen

[xMillie]

So sorry Liz. Maybe pick up something new to try this cycle? xx

 

[liz85]

Thanks Millie . I was thinking accupuncture might be good and help to destress me. Maybe give that a try? Hope to get a letter for my laparoscopy soon.How are you? X

 

[xMillie]

acupuncture is really good and relaxing, worth a go!
hope your letter is here soon

I'm okay, a bit annoyed at all these symptoms coming back! it's driving me a little crazy as I think I'm only 3pdo so it's not really possible that they mean anything yet ugh! xx

 

[liz85]

Iv everything crossed for you Millie. I have been following your journey. Fingers and toes crossed. I keep telling myself it's one of the most emotional things to go through but will be so worth it in the end x

 

[Sunflower1]

Sorry Liz. I know how upsetting it is. I'm usually in tears when AF arrives. I've heard accupuncture is very effective. Also I think yoga really helps...particularly helping blood flow to the uterus. A friend of mine was unable to conceive because of an issue with the lining of her womb and she became a yoga teacher and got pregnant naturally. Also it's sooo good for stress. Big hugs.

 

[MoominGirl]

I've also taken up yoga. Anything that looks after me is a good thing as the state I was getting myself in was jut no good for anyone. Of course I still have rough days but I'm so much better overall even if we still haven't got there yet. Also, I'd like to think that when it finally happens for us, we'll actually stick with lots of the lifestyle changes as I do think they've done us good.

Obviously all these things cost money and acupuncture in particular can be expensive but I would recommend giving it a go if you can. Also look for someone who specialises in treating fertility patients. I've had to go a little out of area for mine but I definitely think it's worth it even if it's really tricky working appointments around work. Even though I'm a nurse, I'm lucky enough to work Monday to Friday and it was so difficult to find someone who could seen me in the evenings or at weekends.

 

[liz85]

Thanks girles. Trying to stay upbeat and go again this month. Definitely think accupuncture is the way to go. I need to de stress I think. Although think I am less stressed as I was 20 months ago. Yoga sounds good aswell they do classes at my gym

 

[MoominGirl]

If you're a gym member definitely give yoga a try. Nothing to lose!! I'm not a gym member so I tried a few classes til I found one I liked as they can be very different. I'm trying to get a bit more active though I'm not sure I'd commit to a gym. I just think they'd take my money every month and I'd go once or something.

I didn't actually realise how stressed I was until I started doing something about it. Making a point of looking after me has definitely been a good thing.

 

[Alexis2017]

Moomingirl yeah I am a nurse. I am surrounded by all my friends and their babies. Its very difficult at the mo. 4 of my close friends all just had babies and a few if them due in oct. I just have this feeling for so long that I can't have babies... I actually just feel like giving up already. I am over feeling like this. How do you move on
Babies everywhere...reminders every day of the failure to produce children makes my heart sink a little more every day.

 

[liz85]

It's so frustrating. So many emotions make you feel as if you are going mad. I was the same I knew straight off it would be a struggle to have a baby. Dunno why I just knew

 

[MoominGirl]

I have to admit I also just knew it would be a struggle. No idea why but I just knew. The funny thing is that most of the problems that have come along for us have had no symptoms either.

Af has got me again. I allowed myself some hope this month. Don't know what I was thinking. That was stupid. But on the plus side, I know I'm having surgery next week. I'm weirdly enthusiastic about that. I think OH had braced himself for monthly meltdown yesterday. As they've said the polyp could increase my risk of miscarriage, I've told myself that if I had miraculously fallen pregnant, I would have just worried excessively about miscarriage so at least I know it will be gone for good!!

Hope everyone is hanging in there.

 

[Sunflower1]

I have to admit I also just knew it would be a struggle. No idea why but I just knew. The funny thing is that most of the problems that have come along for us have had no symptoms either.

Af has got me again. I allowed myself some hope this month. Don't know what I was thinking. That was stupid. But on the plus side, I know I'm having surgery next week. I'm weirdly enthusiastic about that. I think OH had braced himself for monthly meltdown yesterday. As they've said the polyp could increase my risk of miscarriage, I've told myself that if I had miraculously fallen pregnant, I would have just worried excessively about miscarriage so at least I know it will be gone for good!!

Hope everyone is hanging in there.

I know how you feel...I was hopeful this month and AF turned up early yesterday. It's a good thing you are having the polyp removed...I guess we just have to do one foot in front of the other and find ways of improving our health and chances every month.

 

[MoominGirl]

Yeah that's what I'm trying to do. I do worry that I'm soon going to run out of new ideas haha!!

Frustrating that AF was early for you but for me I think I'd prefer that as although it would take me by surprise, I find that hope builds for me the closer I get.

The week seems to be dragging - I think it's waiting for my surgery. I just want it now haha!! OH has managed to get time off to be with me. Was a bit of a struggle but they reluctantly agreed. At least I know it's covered.

I'm hoping we'll still have a good shot at trying this month but it will depend so much on how I feel afterwards and if we can squeeze it in before I go away. If not, I will be focusing on looking after me and being nice to myself.

 

[Sunflower1]

Yeah that's what I'm trying to do. I do worry that I'm soon going to run out of new ideas haha!!

Frustrating that AF was early for you but for me I think I'd prefer that as although it would take me by surprise, I find that hope builds for me the closer I get.

The week seems to be dragging - I think it's waiting for my surgery. I just want it now haha!! OH has managed to get time off to be with me. Was a bit of a struggle but they reluctantly agreed. At least I know it's covered.

I'm hoping we'll still have a good shot at trying this month but it will depend so much on how I feel afterwards and if we can squeeze it in before I go away. If not, I will be focusing on looking after me and being nice to myself.

What day is your surgery? Yes, totally focus on looking after yourself. If you manage to dtd it's a bonus. Good luck with it. Will be thinking of you.

 

[Alexis2017]

Good luck with the surgery and speedy recovery! DH sperm results are really positive..Way above the average levels. I thought I would feel more positive knowing that but just re enforces the fact It's not working because of me. We are dtd every 2nd day from end of my last af until af comes now every month instead of just a couple of times when fertile and then once a week...hoping this will get results. But I am going tp go for more tests ig not caught this month. I had hormones levels checked and DH bad his soerm checked...what do tjey do next...check for blockages or what? Dreading those tests but I guess I need to get to the bottom of the infertility.

 

[Sunflower1]

Alexis, sorry you are having difficulty...I imagine they do a scan to check everything is the way it should be internally...fallopian tubes and check for cysts, etc. I had that done when I had irregular periods and it's pretty straightforward. Don't know what else... Good that your DH sperm is so good! I'm trying to get my DH to get his checked but he's not keen! Is he taking supplements? Good luck having the investigations...I hope they are helpful x

 

[MoominGirl]

Surgery is Tuesday. I'm oddly enthusiastic - OH thinks I'm weird haha. I think I just want it done as I feel like it's another step closer.

Alexis - glad OHs sperm is good. Try not to put pressure on yourself though. My OH felt similar when his motility came back low the first time. It was like he expected me to point the finger or something. We had a long talk and really emphasised the mindset that it don't matter what the problem is, it's OUR problem and we will get through it together. It's really been good for us especially as we've had more obstacles than we planned for by this point.

As for next tests, I would assume they'd want you to have a pelvic ultrasound. It's totally fine though I had to go twice to confirm the polyp. If that's OK then they'll probably want to do an HSG. I had to fight hard to get one but as your OHs sperm is OK, I doubt you'll have the issues I did. It's not the most pleasant procedure and I prepared myself for the worst but it really wasn't that bad. I went straight back to work after.

Sunflower - I hope you can convince OH to get tested. Men can be funny about it though once my OH got the low motility, was very keen to do another sample after taking supplements etc just to prove a point!!

 

[Alexis2017]

Alexis, sorry you are having difficulty...I imagine they do a scan to check everything is the way it should be internally...fallopian tubes and check for cysts, etc. I had that done when I had irregular periods and it's pretty straightforward. Don't know what else... Good that your DH sperm is so good! I'm trying to get my DH to get his checked but he's not keen! Is he taking supplements? Good luck having the investigations...I hope they are helpful x

I had to fight to bet him to take zinc but he has probably talen it like for 2 weeks out of the last 8 months we have beem trying. He drinks far too much coffee but it doesn't seem to have had an effect on his sperm. I had to ask him for 3 weeks to hamd a sample in. I sorted all the appointment for him so he just had to produce the goods so to speak....men! They have 1 test...we have loads... I will call docs after this cycle is done incase we get lucky this month. Kinda tricky as we have mived areas so change in nhs trust sbut I havent told them as I habe mail re direction ar the mo and my current doc is near my work. I am now longer away from my work

 

[MoominGirl]

Alexis - glad your OHs sperm is so good without trying if you know what I mean. Men generally aren't on top of things when it comes to TTC. I know I have to teach OH a few things once it was clear this wasn't going to be easy. I think the only reason my OH is so willing to try things is due to the fact that his sperm wasn't so good at the start so its given him an incentive to make it better.

 

[Sunflower1]

Alexis, sorry you are having difficulty...I imagine they do a scan to check everything is the way it should be internally...fallopian tubes and check for cysts, etc. I had that done when I had irregular periods and it's pretty straightforward. Don't know what else... Good that your DH sperm is so good! I'm trying to get my DH to get his checked but he's not keen! Is he taking supplements? Good luck having the investigations...I hope they are helpful x

I had to fight to bet him to take zinc but he has probably talen it like for 2 weeks out of the last 8 months we have beem trying. He drinks far too much coffee but it doesn't seem to have had an effect on his sperm. I had to ask him for 3 weeks to hamd a sample in. I sorted all the appointment for him so he just had to produce the goods so to speak....men! They have 1 test...we have loads... I will call docs after this cycle is done incase we get lucky this month. Kinda tricky as we have mived areas so change in nhs trust sbut I havent told them as I habe mail re direction ar the mo and my current doc is near my work. I am now longer away from my work

Changing doctors can be a nightmare! We had to change a few months ago as our amazing GP (who just happened to be a fertility doctor) left and the other doctors were rubbish. It took 6 weeks and 3 GP surgeries to change. Definitely a good idea to stick with the one you have if you can.

Yes it's a nightmare trying to motivate men to do stuff when TTC...I think they assume it will just happen. My OH has been reading a lot of articles, so I guess that's good. He is supposed to be taking zinc too but don't know how often he does. I think I'll give it 2 more cycles and then try and get him to do a test. Good luck this cycle!