Ever feel like giving up?

[MrsWilson]

I haven't been on here because I have put ttc to the back of my mind.

I've tried to do it before but could never really really do it because it's all I could think about no matter how hard I tried.

But now I feel like a switch has flipped and I'm starting to not care, it feels like I've given up.

I'm on my second round of clomid, the first round didn't work my 21 day progesterone was 6, I think it's ever since i found that out that all the hope left.

During my second round I made excuses not to have sex around ovulation and I am awaiting my progesterone results from this round.

I'm still going to take the clomid for the 4 rounds I have left but I've spoke to my husband and we aren't going any further with treatment if it doesn't happen.

Don't know why I'm posting this really. Suppose I need someone to speak to because I don't have anyone else who will understand.

 

[Sugarpop]

So sorry your feeling this way! Sending you a big big hug. Maybe you need a break from it all? It can be so overwhelming especially when you feel like there is nothing you can do. I know its hard but you need to try and remember there are things you can do and it will happen for you at the right time. I know its hard & I've felt the same before. I missed all my gyno appointments last year because I just felt it wasn't right. Give yourself a break & see how you feel after a month or two. Sending Big hugs xx

 

[vegas]

I'm getting to that stage so I know exactly how u feel. It's like when ovulation time comes round the pressure just builds up and I can't get in the mood. It's tough. I'm onto cycle 20 now and it feels like an eternity. I've had day 2 and day 21 bloods done. Just waiting for my appointment with fertility specialist to come through. I refuse to give up though. Keep your head up

 

[Chazabell]

I understand how you are feeling Hun

I felt the same after all 8 rounds of Clomid. My progesterone was bang on but we hit nowhere and the periods were horrendous. There were times where my break downs needed a movie soundtrack and rain!!

Try and take a break from it. Don't consider sex as baby making and just have sex when you want to. Long term ttc does kill your sex life if you let it. Take time to be just you guys, date night etc.

We took the approach of a few months on and a month or 2 off. I'm glad I never gave into my "let's give up" argument, after 4.5 years and 1 round of IVF I got my happy ending.

Sending you big hugs honey, all here to support you xxxxxxx

 

[Belfa]

Hi clomid didn't work for me. It doesn't work for a lot of women so if your doctor is good enough they will switch your medication after a few rounds. I had 3 round of clomid and then was switched to letrozole which is working.

After my second round of letrozole I didn't get a period so thought it had stopped working and on our third round we didn't DTD at all. My 21 day bloods were excellent - over 100 so I was an idiot as I'd lost a round of meds.

There's no shame in being up and down with TTC but if your feeling down, put the clomid to the side and have a break so your not loosing out on a round if you do want to go back to it x

 

[skeando]

Yep totally empathise with this.
After five years, I have had enough, considering calling time on ttc in the new year and starting to think about adoption. Its all just too exhausting.

 

[Bethyboo87]

Maybe apathy is a good thing

I know how you feel about not necessarily wanting to take treatment further. I'm being put on Clomid in the new year and if that doesn't work will be put forward for other treatment. I just don't know if I could handle that to be honest.

So sorry to hear you're feeling so low, MrsWilson. Big hugs xx

 

[Londongirl]

Hi hon, what dosage were you on during your first round? Usually they start you off on 50mg but can increase it to give you more chance of ovulating. Are you on a higher dose now?

I remember the wanting to give up feeling, it is all incredibly hard. I hope your happy ending is right around the corner xx

 

[MrsWilson]

Hi everyone

Thanks for your replies, it's good to have people there who know what you are going through.

London girl I am on 50mg and have stayed on 50mg on my second round because I started my period on day 24ish and the nurse who was supposed to advise me what dosage to take (after I told her my progesterone results) was off so I couldn't get in touch with anyone so just took 50mg on day 2.

I am going to call for my second round results after 2pm so will update x

 

[Londongirl]

Fx for a better result on round 2 but if not hopefully 100mg might do the trick xx

 

[Toffeegirl]

Hi
Never give up, me and my husband have been trying for 14 years. We did 4 lots of ivf and on our very last frozen embryo we had a positive. I am now 24+1 and so happy.

All the best of luck x

 

[Sugarpop]

Hi
Never give up, me and my husband have been trying for 14 years. We did 4 lots of ivf and on our very last frozen embryo we had a positive. I am now 24+1 and so happy.

All the best of luck x

What a lovely inspirational story!

 

[MrsWilson]

My progesterone was 3.

I wasn't expecting it to be high so at least I'm not shocked or disappointed.

My husband wants me to stop clomid and get on with our lives I think I am ready to do that

 

[Toffeegirl]

Have you lady's tried Acupuncture, I did with my last cycle could be just coincidence but as I said in earlier post I got pregnant. I did it for two months before frozen embryo went in and I am still having it now only once a month now when I started it was every week.

I also have pcos,
I wish you all the best of luck x

 

[gemmainthesun]

Im not sure I will ever give up, or maybe im just not at that stage yet. But it is difficult its a constant battle with so many knowcks but I cant even imagine the alternative x