It is so all consuming isn't it, and I'm so not laid back! Well, I can be about some things but I'm a huge planner. I like having things planned out etc so TTC makes me so anxious in that I won't know when it's going to happen etc and I don't know for sure that it will happen. I also have health anxiety so TTC and m/c's have really sent that into overdrive.
It was so exciting at first, was so exciting thinking "We're gonna have a baby soon and be a family" etc now I feel it has got to the stage where it's turned to IF. It's IF we get pregnant again or IF I don't have a m/c ... I hate it, want the ignorance back where I thought it'd happen straight away and all be perfect!
I really hope this is your month, your symptoms do sound good. Did you ask if acupuncturist knew the cause of the spotting last month?
I'm the same with OH , I get so irritable with him because I just feel up a height most of the time and I'm just wishing days away, either wishing days away until ovulation or wishing days away until AF due date.
Just got to keep positive though. In a way I am greatful it hasn't happened straight away, the last year and a bit has taught me a lot. Of course, you don't love you're child any less, whether they where a surprise, conceived quickly or taken years to conceive. But I do think the fact it hasn't happened straight away will make me a more patient and appreciative mum. I think if things got tough for me with parenting I'd look back and remember how much heartache was felt trying to conceive and how blessed I am to have a child and it would make me a lot more patient. I think anyway!
Another positive thing is that it's made us a million percent sure we are ready for this. We are in a better place with our house/jobs/financially than we where last year and everything is a lot more stable, it's nice to know that everything is going to be 100 percent in place ready for a baby.
Total cat lady comment here... I also got my kittens because I thought they might help fill the empty space I felt in wanting a baby. If we'd conceived straight away we wouldn't have got those exact kittens, and I love my cats lol!
I also feel the struggle has brought OH and I closer together even though I feel like I hate him at times for not showing he's as bothered as I am. Lol. I feel like if we've been through the upset of ttc and failing and m/c together, that we are strong enough to take on anything!
Feel more positive already just from typing all that
Anyone else got any more positivity to add to the pot haha?
xxx
Oh and yes this headache probably isn't helping haha I'd take a million headaches if I got a BFP but if witch comes after these headaches I am gonna burn her at the stake haaa!
