Poor you!!!! I really struggled too, esp at night. I found I kept getting blocked ducts when I slept with a bra on so now I sleep in a vest top with a muslin folded several times over my chest to absorb leaks- it really works and is so much more comfortable. The M & S nursing bras are v comfy- not exactly glamorous but they're soft and stretchy- they're in packs of 2 and come in small, medium, large and extra large rather than being in specific sizes.