cant believe im here again :(

[Violet]

Ah hugs hon

It sounds like it was the right thing to do. After my last mc I was told not to TTC til I'd seen the midwife at the recurrent miscarriage clinic as the tests they would likely do I couldn't be pg for. I took a month off, but at 42 didn't feel I could hang around too much and kinda went by to TTC. As it turns out I had to wait nearly 4 months before seeing them and after discussion my situation she wanted more bloods took and told me to keep TTC.

I can't say the time has gone quickly, but it hasn't dragged hugely. I hope time passes quickly for you and that Sunday's blood test gives you some answers. I will keep you in my thoughts.

I'm glad your hubby is being supportive as well.

 

[Clementine]

Sending you a big hug, sorry to hear you had to get the injection but the most important thing is your well being, counseling should really help and it's great that your hubby has been your rock. Hopefully your bloods results on Sunday will be what the doctors want to see. Sending you lots of strength to get through this very tough time, both you and your husband are in my prayers x

 

[yummymummy80]

Thanks everyone im getting by but its very hard im so depressed! I just cant stop crying about everything and im in so much pain.
I just want when my hcg level goes down to ttc again it would make me feel so much better but I need to wait 6 months and its so depressing why me? 6 months is ages what am I gonna do?

 

[millielaura]

Oh hun I'm so sorry I can imagine that 6 months must feel so long especially when you've waited so long already. i wish i could do something to make it better for you xxxxxx
I would definitely plan your time so youve got lots of things to look forward to/enjoy. Maybe takr up a new hobby or class and book a holiday etc? May at least help keep your mind a teeny bit occupied . So unfair this has happened Xxx

 

[yummymummy80]

Hey all how is everyone sorry I haven't been on recently but I got rushed to hospital sat night as had excruciating pain and was screaming in agony they thought they were gonna have to operate but after being on morphine and things I was only getting slight cramps on the sun and they've gone now thankfully so think I'm getting home tonight

 

[millielaura]

Oh I'm so sorry you've had such a hard time.
You are doing amazingly considering everything you've had to go through. I'm so glad the cramps have gone. Take care and lots of rest when you get home! Xxxxxx

 

[Violet]

Ah hon u are having a bad time. I wish there was something I could do to help.

I'm glad your cramps have gone and hope they let you go home soon. X

 

[LaceyKeo]

I can't personally speak about this, I'm afraid.

I had a mc a few years back, very early on, followed by DS and now DD is on the way, so I've been lucky.

My friend, however, has been here. She had a boy several years back, and knew immediately she wanted one more to complete her family.
The waited two years before TTC, then started. Over the next couple years or so, she had three mcs.
She ended up in hospital with all kinds of tests, and they basically told her she shouldn't hold out much help of ever having another baby.

Four years later, she called me to say she was expecting, just a few days after I'd found out about mine. DS and her lil girl ended up being due the same day!

She waited an awful long time, and even after being told it'd probably never happen, she finally got her desperately awaited bundle.

I know having to wait 3-6m before TTC again seems like such a long time, but in reality, it'll go pretty quickly.

Break it down so you're not waiting so long. Take it in stepping stones.

Note the date you can start TTC again (1st Oct, for example). Can you and OH take a holiday in the beginning of July? A week in Tenerife, a weekend in Cornwall, two nights at the hotel in the next town? A break in Butlins? Call it a half-way-holiday, forget about October, and aim for that holiday.
But then, half way through May, and half way through August, why not book for a show in London? Go see a play or a concert in the evening, spend the day walking through St James Park, feed the squirrels, make a day of it.

Now you've only a few weeks until you go see (show)! Then when that's done, you've only a few weeks to holiday! Then when you get back, only a few weeks to (show)!!! And once that's done... Nearly time for TTC

Even throw something in mid-Sept to make those last couple weeks fly by, even a date night at a nice restaurant or something. Anything that will help swerve the waiting.

And that's worst-case... You may be able to try again by like August, which automatically cuts the time down.

Take it easy hon. Take some time to get over the last couple weeks. Feel better.

Your time will come xx

 

[yummymummy80]

hi everyone just a wee update,

well on the 13th I had to go bk to hospital at 10am for more bloods to see what the hcg level was so I got my blood taken and the nurse asked me to hang around for the results so when the time came to go bk to the nurse I was in some amount of pain, but thought I would say to the nurse when she seen me so I waited in the waiting area and the pain got worse and worse it was so extreme I was in tears and I didn't know what to do. a nurse came along the corridor and I said to her I was in so much pain so she took me into another room and then 5 mins later all these drs and nurses rushed in they immediately took my blood pressure which was falling gave me scans put me on a drip and took me up to the ward, then another dr came along and asked how I was I actually said to him im in agony!! so I got taken for an internal scan which was even worse in that pain and I was yelping the dr didn't say much he just did the scan and went away so I thought it was pretty much like my last weekend in pain and kept in for a night so as far as I was aware I was getting home tues. come mon at 10pm the dr comes to me and says the found an 8cm mass in your tube and they couldn't send me home as it was too dangerous and I needed surgery straightaway on the tues great what a thing to hear when ur about to fall asleep so after a few hours I fell asleep but was woken by a sharp pain in my shoulder so I buzzed the nurse and asked for paracetomol next thing I know theres nurses and drs next to me-the pain meant it could be rupturing!!!! but she was happy with the way I was and gave me pain relief.

next morning I was due for surgery I was terrified so they wheeled me down to surgery and I got keyhole they removed the ectopic and had to remove the tube as it had already ruptured!! I was due to go home wed if everything was ok however it wasn't I wasn't peeing nearly enough so was kept in til the thurs, ive still got the stiches and am very sore and feeling really sorry for myself im so depressed hopefully il get through this soon I hate feeling this low.

 

[lisey]

My goodness, what a difficult time you have had. You will get through it, it doesn't feel like it right now and there will be hard days but you will get through it. I am so sorry for all you have been through xx

 

[Dee28]

Oh my gosh I'm so sorry you've had to endure all this, I truly am. You've been through such a trauma it's perfectly natural to feel depressed. Give yourself time honey xx

 

[Mum2Many]

Oh hun, I'm right there with you. I had my ectopic pregnancy removed and lost my tube on the 13th too. Like you I'm in so much pain and feel so sad and depressed and the stitches are horrible. I haven't really moved off the sofa since I got home. I just don't know what to do with myself right now either, can't get my head around how this could happen.

My journey was the same as yours but my hCG levels were a lot higher and climbing, and yet nothing seen on US at all. Ended up being rushed to hospital in an ambulance in the early hours of Monday morning.

If you need to chat or cry or rant and rave just send me a message. (((((HUGS)))))

 

[millielaura]

Oh i'm so so sorry you've had to go through all this. You've had such a hard time. You will get through this and you will get your rainbow baby I promise xxxx

 

[Violet]

Ah my dear I'm so sorry. Hugs x

 

[yummymummy80]

urgh I feel terrible im so depressed I don't wanna get out of bed in the morning I still haven't eaten since I left hospital not that I ate in hospital either! hubby is worried cause im not eating im so depressed

 

[millielaura]

Oh I'm so sorry could cry for you this is all so unfair!
Have you spoke to someone about counselling? Really hope that helps you.

It is still very early days so allow yourself time to grieve. Please try and eat something if you can though. You can always pm me if you want to talk xxxx

 

[Mum2Many]

Please try to eat something, even if it's something small like toast. You need food to heal, you need to heal if you're to have any chance at trying again if you choose too. I know that seems like a crap line right now, believe me I think it sounds crap too but it is true. You need to keep your energy up to heal to have a chance to try again if you want too. If you don't eat, you won't heal so well, and it becomes a dangerous cycle (I'm a former anorexic) that could actually impede your fertility in the future.

 

[yummymummy80]

hi milllie my first counselling was supposed to be last tues but I had emergency surgery so now my next appointment isn't til 19th may that's ages away.

@mum2many I know what your saying I really do all ive had today is a couple of cups of tea, I tried to eat yesterday I made a curry and took like a spoonful of rice and a few bits of chicken and still couldn't eat it I know what your saying as I too am also former anorexic but its a vicious cycle I know itl harm my fertility but I cant face eating I don't know what to do

 

[millielaura]

Oh I'm sorry its been delayed so long
Could you try something like soup or even ice lollys just to get something in you? Big hugs xxxxxx

 

[yummymummy80]

hi everyone,

well my appetite has now returned and I am eating again, I have also cancelled my counselling which im quite annoyed at because it was ages away and ive healed myself but this would have been easier if id had counselling sooner but I didn't and had to heal myself much annoyed!!!!