cant believe im here again :(

[jodie34]

Oh Hun I'm so so sorry sending love and hugs to you and you oh xxx

 

[millielaura]

I'm so so sorry

 

[Lisa888]

So sorry to hear that!

Thoughts are with u xx

 

[yummymummy80]

thanks everyone im kinda lost right now, when I was in the hospital and got blood done I was shocked my hcg had risen from 903 to 970 I was expecti g a lot more!!! so its deffo a non viable pregnancy I was given another ultrasound but they cant find the baby in the uterous or outside!!! so think its possibly died very very early

 

[jodie34]

Oh Hun did they say why your hcg is still rising if they think you lost baby early , what are the next steps for you xx

 

[yummymummy80]

hi Jodie the nurse said today that even if ive lost the baby the hc still rises slowly and then it falls dramatically so when I go back on thurs they are fully expecting my levels to drop, if not I have to get an injection but the drawback is we are not allowed to ttc for 6 months after it because it has bad side effects and if you got pg straight after it would cause serious defects in the baby so I really really do not want to have that injection

 

[Dee28]

Hey, I'm sorry you're going through this, it sounds similar to my miscarriage last summer. I was classed as pregnant of unknown location as they couldn't see anything but my hcg, although low, was rising slowly. I was at risk of an ectopic anyway so was closely monitored. I absolutely didn't want the methotrexate injection and I was fortunate enough that my levels did then drop and I miscarried naturally. I was managed conservatively as my levels were so low and they couldn't find anything so if your levels remain low and they still can't see anything in your tube ask for more time before the methotrexate - as long as they can't see anything growing in your tube that could rupture obviously. Also, the information I received was to abstain from ttc for three months for every infection you have so if you only have one it would be 3 months, if a further injection is needed its 6 months and so on.

As hideous and heartbreaking as it is I hope you miscarry naturally and your levels drop so you don't have to face anymore trauma. Lots of love xx

 

[yummymummy80]

thanks dee,

I know as much as it sounds horrible but I do hope my levels have dropped by thurs as I really don't want the injection the dr we spoke to said to not to ttc for 3 months but the nurse said its best if 6 months to er on the side of caution.

but I really hope my levels do drop and everythings natural so we can ttc again next month.

 

[jodie34]

Oh I'm soo sorry I've been through 2 miscarriages 1 after the other I know how heartbreaking it is ....
As awful as this sounds ( meant in the best of ways ) I do hope ur levels fall naturally so you can Ttc when your ready and
Not when your told you can xxxx

 

[JJ Mum]

Im so sorry hun, have everything crossed your levels drop soon for you and you can get out of the limbo xx

 

[TTC no2]

So sorry x

 

[yummymummy80]

hi all well I woke up this morning with spotting and now its real heavy bright red blood I take it this is the now the miscarriage?

im upset but I knew it was coming especially last night as I was having period symptoms and I said to my hubby last night its gonna start soon cause i get these signs when im about to have my period so anyway now my hubbys thinking maybe it is my period i was like na it couldn't be could it? my hcg level was 970 on mon i assume it has to be 0 before you get your period again? can anyone help?

 

[Dee28]

Anything less than 5 is considered not pregnant. It does sound like this is your body miscarrying. With mine i knew it was coming, I was so bloated and sore and crampy like bad pre period symptoms and I started bleeding the next day. From what I remember my blood test a week after I started bleeding had dropped to under 5 xx

 

[millielaura]

It sounds sound like the start of your m/c. I'm so sorry this is happening again xxx

 

[yummymummy80]

hi dee yeah that's what I think too and its so upsetting I keep asking myself why did it happen? was it my fault? did I do something wrong? cause I didn't know I was pregnant as I had my period in feb so I assumed I wasn't preg wasn't til a week later when I started spotting again and I was like eh? so I did a test and found out.

 

[yummymummy80]

thanx millie x

 

[yummymummy80]

god its really hit me now, I ant stop crying am sitting typing this through tears I wanted bot of these angels so much why did it have to happen?

 

[millielaura]

Oh massive hugs it is so so unfair so heartbroken for you
It was NOT your fault at all please please don't think it was because I promise it wasn't.
I know how you feel, the second mc is hard as makes you think how can i be so unlucky twice
You will get through it and you will get that sticky bean I promise. Allow yourself as much time as you need to grieve and try and relax and take things easy if you feel you need to. You can always pm me if you need someone to talk to xxxxx

 

[yummymummy80]

thanks millie x its just more confusing this time cause it was classed as pregnancy of unknown location. last time there was a wee bean there and I seen it on screen maybe that was harder actually seeing it and knowing it had gone im not sure if I should phone the epu and say or what?? im back there tomorrow for more tests im just so confused all I want is a baby, am I been punished for something? I just wish I had a baby

 

[millielaura]

Maybe phone and say you've started bleeding. So they haven't ruled out ectopic? I would def phone just to be on the safe side. Massive hugs its so so unfair xx